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Young girl crying. Thursday July 17, 2014

All too often we may find ourselves feeling lonely and all alone - or we view or feel through a song or film, something that stirs something in us.

Many of us know that feeling and being trapped in it - even although we are desperate to find some connection and communication through a social interaction.

Many of the blogs written help us feel connected, or as Trisha stated in her comments last week - she no longer 'felt alone' and it enabled her to 'feel'.

As I had recovered enough to come home last week to the house my children grew up in, next to their village primary school, needless to say I was struggling after staying with wonderful friends.

I managed to go out of the door a few times into the garden but not actually out of the gate, which adjoins the primary school, until I heard deep sobbing.

It was a 10 year old, sitting alone in a concealed corner sobbing her heart out.

It reminded me of my daughter, who I have not seen in 6 years since my wife left, but first my heart went out to this poor child and I walked over to see if I could console her.

When I came back in I sat down and and wrote a poem. I rarely change words, they simply flow intuitively.

Can you 'feel' her? Where does it take you if you sit with your feelings at the end of it?

To read my poem or to post a comment, please click on the link below.

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Silvia A Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 2:30am

Lex, I am the first to comment. Have nothing special to say. I've just read your poem.

Theresa NZ Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 6:17am

Lex. Thank you. I am so very sorry you hav not seen your daughter for six years. Loved ur poem. Social connectedness is HUGELY important. God bless you.

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 7:09am

Such a moving story and heart felt poem,thank you . I sometimes feel I want to visit the past and many would agree that our school days are not the happiest time in our lives.I remember being very lonely and different from everyone else and believe that helps me to empathise with people now.You must be a very kind and emotionally intelligent person and I am so sorry you have not seen your daughter for so long. I hope that perhaps the situation will improve for you . My husband drags me back to the now and takes me for a long long walk when I think too much about the past but sometimes you just have to go there to discover yourself .

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 7:25am

I think the name underneath the poem is a small error. I'm sure this is by Les not Lex.

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 7:57am

Grown man crying

Thank you for your words.

Why is it so hard to cry? Although it feels so refreshing. I struggled for a day with sadness that would not leave me but at the end of the day when I met my loved one, the tears started falling. I put all my energy into coping instead of releasing the pain. Afterwards it felt so good. I know what triggered me into the feeling, but where does the feeling come from? Resent events, childhood..., I do not know at this moment but I reach for the source and will find it someday. It´s painful to stay in the feeling but necessary for me so that I can open the door to the place where it comes from.


heather Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 8:19am

Dear Les, it brings a lump to my throat that you have not seen your daughter for six years. That is cruelty which you have had to bear and I am hoping and praying that there will be a twist in circumstances and that one day the two of you will be reunited.

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 8:19am

Yes, definitely Les not Lex.
Very moving Les. Good luck. Xx

lel Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 8:25am

Definitely, Les. Do we all find ourselves avoiding things which push buttons and bring tears? I am sure you will see your daughter again one day. Hope you can at least write to her and give her your love.

GreenJean Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 8:31am

Very moving and lovely poem and again do hope you will soon be reunited with your dear daughter Les, thanks for your messages

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 9:24am

I cant even begin to tell you how you have just described my life my feelings , its all so real and true, somehow you do beleibe that it is only you, when I read somthing like that, there is a better understanding of many thousands of us that are so sad and blue and hide from eachother and try and say its untrue. So thank you for bringing it home to me that somtimes things get better and you can be who you want to be. All you have to do is try that bit harder, but beleive it and stop hiding. Big Heart x

randomangel Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 9:39am

Thank you, as ever, for sharing Les. We are encouraged to remain tight lipped and push our emotions aside. This is one of the factors that feeds depression. Allowing ourseves to help others when they show emotion is empowering and uplifting. I hope that the child feels better and wish that the child in all of us feels more connected and cared for. We do all care for each other ; we just need to learn to show it snd receive it by any means xxx

Lex McKee Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 10:47am

Hi Moodscope Friends, firstly may I say this touching post is from Les, not me - and it is important to me that he is acknowledged. Secondly, Les - this really touched me. You have a true wealth of emotional intelligence.

Melanie Lowndes Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 11:50am

Dear Les, I found your post and especially your poem very moving. Thank you. I am also so sorry you have not seen your daughter in so long. It often seems to me that in the whole separation /divorce process, the tide has swung too far away from husbands and fathers. All best wishes to you especially for an improvement in this situation.

Julia Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 12:36pm

Dear Les. I find it difficult to know what to say. But..hang on in there and carry on doing what works for you. It seems to me you are one of life's survivors.

Anonymous Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 5:58pm

Dear Les,

Your poem is full of love and hope. I am smiling with you x

Sue Thu, Jul 17th 2014 @ 7:13pm

Hi Les, Yet another moving poem from you. Were you able to help the poor girl sobbing there on her own? My heart goes out to you both. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you to be separated from your daughter for so long - I am a divorced mum myself and find it hard to understand how a mother can do this. You must remain well though because I am sure that one day your daughter will want to see you. Take care x

RiffRaff Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:03am

Thank you for your contribution Les

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:27am

Hi Sue

Yes - Although we didn't speak - she knew that someone was concerned and then someone - a friend I think - came to find her.....hopefully not the one that made her cry - but a friend that was concerned.

The daughter situation - is part of my inability to 'cope' every so often.

Thanks for your words and feelings
Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:28am


Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:28am

Thanks Julia.....appreciated
Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:30am

This wasn't in anyway legal - just personal..........


Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:31am

Hi Lex always.


les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:33am

Hi Big Heart

Thanks for your Big Heart comment and your personal sharing........fab.

So - thank YOU

Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:33am


Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:35am

Hi lel

I used to email her - and received 'stuff' I could not deal with.......I hope it was simply her 'anger'.........but I could not cope in my state.

Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:35am


Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:37am

Twist on...........

Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:40am

If you feel you need to find it - do so.

Do not get 'hooked' on that may not need to 'know'.....find and feel how to release it for yourself.......and you may not need to find the source as you become more self aware.........????

Is your 'thinking' (IQ) blocking your feeling (EQ)....?

Let it go yourself.....release the may not need to find the source.

Les x

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:41am

For sure - your hurt can help heal others through that wisdom you can only touch through personal experience.............

Open communication with husband.......fab.


Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:42am



Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:43am

Nothing special required...............simply taking time to connect.... :-)

Thanks Silvia A

Les Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 12:44am

Thank you Riffraff


Anonymous Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 2:27pm

Hello, I've been trying to post but my signal is weak and random (much like my mood! :-) ). Anyway, Les, I like how you sound because in each of your last three blogs I see you are both fighting and rising. Being separated from your daughter must hurt deeply, it would break me. But nothing ever stays the same, good and bad, and so I wish for this tide to wash differently soon. Love from the room above the garage.

Misread Fri, Jul 18th 2014 @ 2:51pm

Hi Les

Your daughter is in your mind always so you can always see her. The day will come when you meet up-just keep believing that.

Loved the poem by the way.....

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