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What goes up must come down! Sunday June 14, 2015

I've been using MoodScope for over 5 years but in all honesty, I've never plotted my results – in fact, and this may mean that I don't have my blog published, but I don't calculate my scores on a daily basis...

What I do like, however, are the heartfelt stories and the quote at the end which always sets me up for a good start to the day. So, I keep up the subscription for those daily ditties which make me feel connected.

This may, in part, be because I'm no longer high. I was diagnosed with bipolar at 27 and as I move ever closer to my 40th at the end of this month, I realise that it is only in the past couple of months that I've been well enough to gain perspective again. There's been a lot talked about the pain of depression on the individual and those close to them in recent posts, but I find the highs even more devastating.

What helps.

The drugs do work for me, thank goodness (the times I've got high I've decided not to take my tablets any longer) so I now stick to the regime like a squaddie and have fully embraced swimming – as it does wonders for your 'headspace'. I'm very lucky that I have a job that I could return to and very understanding employers (although I explained my illness prior to getting the role).

I get depression as a natural counterbalance to the highs (Newton was right – what goes up must come down!) but have stopped drinking so out with the 'natural' realignment which happened after I was 'high', I don't tend to get depressive episodes. I still think far too much but mindfulness is a wonderful tool – and not convoluted. Just stop, close your eyes, breathe and be in that moment. Remembering to do that every day at different junctures has helped me enormously.

Finally, the best thing, other than the drugs, is laughter. Comedy rocks. Unbreakable Kimmy Schmitt is my current favourite..what's yours?

The wee one fae Glasgow
A Moodscope member.

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Pennie-Lynn Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 6:48am

I was diagnosed bipolar at 24 and am looking forward to my 40th in August. I, too, follow Moodscope because of the blogs. With predominantly depressed and mixed episodes, I have created my own checklist of specific symptoms that tell me when trouble is near, such as wanting to self-injure or creating fantasies in my mind. I do enjoy reading a new blog each night and finding something within it to think about the following day. Thank you!

Leah Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 7:44am

wee one,
thanks for your blog and sharing your experiences. You and now Pennie-Lynn make me feel quite old I was diagnosed with manic-depression as bipolar was called then over 40 years ago. I agree that humour and the abaility to laugh at oneself is so important. The highs are great in the moment but they can have devastating effects- I am still experiencing fall out from highs over 35 years ago! Well done with what you have achieved. Please be kind to yourself and treat yourself like a good friend.

Hopeful One Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 8:31am

Hi Wee one- a lovely blog and should that not be Glasgie or does no one use it anymore ? For those non biplolar Moodscopers could you please explain the nature of the 'devastation' after a 'high' Does it mean a depression or just exhaustion? You are absolutely right about the humour so here is our laugh for today

The doctor took Dan into the consulting room and said, "Dan, I have some good news and some bad news." Dan says , "Give me the bad news." The doctor says " you only have a few weeks to live." Dan says "Give me the good news." The doctor says "They're going to name the disease after you."

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 9:09am

This made me smile today and liked your title. I wrote but didn't finish a similar blog recently. in I admitted that after years of moodscope I had only a handful of scores. I also read just the daily emails and preferred to absorb the wisdom, stories, humour and insights from those only. However I recently made a pact with myself to take the daily test. I now have 2 months of scores (whoop whoop!). I have found this a very useful and reassuring way of seeing that my scores are on the up and has helped identified clear dips and triggers following my second experience of psychosis related to pregnancy. Fear is lifting. So my only confessions now...... I don't share my scores with a buddy.... and the best source of laughter for me... dancing with my sons to current favourite music videos! Bruno mars uptown funk and Pharrel Williams happy bring current favourites. Great fun and gets me moving as well ...Thanks again Jen xx

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 9:11am

....should say 'being' current favourites ??

Charlie Bransden Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 10:20am

Splendid! Reluctantly found as I approach 60, the experience of the last 15 years since being diagnosed confirms your thoughts - stay off the booze, take exercise - swimming is particularly good if feasible - and latterly moodscope as the CBT of choice, plus drugs as and when required.

Charlie Bransden Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 10:21am

Oh, and Mrs.Browns' Boys as the comedy of choice - of the wall, rib tickling stuff.

Danny Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 11:28am

Seeing how how you handle it inspires me. Thank you.

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 11:32am

Hello Wee One, reading your blog i got an instant flash of being able to live without alcohol. And so today is the first day! Even though i only drink 2-4 units a week, the depressive effects, often very subtle, can be felt for 2 days afterwards. Thought i'd have to go into mourning to give it up, but you've inspired and helped me this morning. Thank you so much! All the best to you going forward. susan xx

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 12:25pm

The pills make us feel better so we think we don't need them and stop taking them, but then we get ill again (sadly you can be sure of that). So what is learned from this? KEEP TAKING THE PILLS!
I get the best laughs from Peter Kay the comedian. Just looking at him works. There's a vulnerability about him that I find appealing. Even funny people feel sad sometimes. Google him and see how you get on with "Misheard Lyrics". It does it for me every time!

Mary Blackhurst Hill Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 4:17pm

Hello Wee One frae Glasgow. Thank you so much for this. I am just about to write a blog about the highs of bi-polar and you've provided an insight as to why we do need to write about those highs just as much as the lows. So many members are bi-polar. I agree about the swimming and (dammit) alcohol. My media of choice is always the written word so I turn to romantic comedy. Jennifer Crusie never fails to bring a warm-hearted chuckle.

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 5:11pm

Thanks for the blog, very practical, comedy and swimming do me the world of good too, I'm just checking out YouTube for aquayoga ideas, our pool has a large shallow end which makes it ideal for stretching out in. I think my highs are only mild, but at the time I can feel overconfident and wonder if I need the meds. Esp when there are so many people writing about how they can lead a regular life after giving them up after finding mindfulness and deep breathing :-\
Not sure where I am going with this just wanted to say thank-you really . A.

Anonymous Sun, Jun 14th 2015 @ 6:36pm

Congrats on your second pregnancy, Moodscope scoring and dancing with your babies! Enjoy all three and if you need a 'buddy' am happy to help! Karen x

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