When I look back upon my childhood I realise that I have few memories. I have an over-riding sense and knowledge about what it was like but ultimately there is a huge part of my life that I am unable to remember anything of. Despite this, I have come to realise that my inner child is still very much in the present and in certain situations is in the driving seat. My adult brain can use logic and reason to interpret situations but when when it comes to emotions my inner child is right there demanding to be satisfied. My inner child appears to have many unmet needs and this is causing me some difficulties in letting go of a situation. My adult brain knows what I need to do and I am following that but it feels like a daily struggle to keep the inner child at bay.
Eckhart Tolle wrote that "attachment to things drops away by itself when you no longer seek to find yourself in them". This helps me see that I was drawn to a situation because it provided me with an opportunity to try and meet the unmet needs. My inner child guided me there and now I have taken myself out of the situation it is trying to pull me back, because it is a situation where the inner child in me feels comfortable, it knows how to operate. The needs are not met there but the inner child had learned to adapt to that situation so feels more at home, unhappy but at home.
So, in order to reduce the attachment and being drawn back into the situation I have try to nurture the inner child. I am using a guided meditation for healing the inner child; where in your mind you meet yourself as a child and talk to the child, offer love and comfort etc. I am trying to spend time nurturing myself with self care and focusing upon my strengths and positive attributes. My worry is that my inner child feels so strong that I will be drawn back into the same situation or similar situations in the future. So I'm making a pledge to myself today. I am going to befriend my inner child and embrace her. I am going to love her for all that she is. I am going to draw upon her strength and guide her so that we can walk through our journey in life in harmony rather than against each other. I am going to be patient and give her the time she needs. I just hope she wants to join me!
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