Trying a new creative activity

13 Jun 2020
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Lately we have been encouraged to take on a hobby or creative pursuit that will challenge us.

I have no artistic bone in my body and my creativity is limited to words or arranging mandarins in a bowl.

So, I bought two visual diaries and one sketch book, coloured pencils, texts and water colours and pencils.

I bought a practical box to store them in and that is where they have stayed for two months.

What stops me from opening the  box?

Is it fear of failure, is it fear of the unknown, Is it all the voices from my childhood tell me I can’t colour in, I draw like a 5 year old, I have no talent, stick to words.

I thought I could try collage, so I saved up catalogues, and pretty paper, but even collage scares me.

People say there is no wrong with being creative, have a go, but all these people have skills and talent.

A friend and her niece had a drawing challenge and each night posted their amazing drawings. My crude stick figure art and animals look like a 5-year-old drawing compared to theirs. Do not compare I hear you say, but the reality is we do compare.

Art is personal, do you own thing, but I do not want ridicule. Sure, I can do words but why is it so hard to try a new creative outlet.

I wonder do we do things we are skilled at or are we skilled at the things we do?

In my experience people who enjoy art are talented at it, rarely someone like me with no talent attempts any type of art. If we feel it is difficult and do not enjoy being creative, then we often do not try.

 

I wonder did anyone try  a new craft or creative outlet in last few months. How did it go?

Did anyone like me buy the tools needed then for whatever reason never started. Why?

Leah

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Molly

June 13, 2020, 11:44 p.m.

Hi Leah, ah well, we are all talented at some things and not others. If you are not creative, why would you make yourself feel bad about that. You have often said that your passion is with books and writing. I have colouring pads and pencils and pens which I would love to sit and work on. Yet I don’t. My sister is the most amazing artistic person, her work has attracted people from beyond, that’s the skill she was blessed with, we all have our own skills. She probably couldn’t say who our prime minister is (oh maybe she could, he’s become a bit obvious) I don’t want to sound bitchy there..... but you get my drift hopefully. We can’t be good at everything. You put so much pressure on yourself, dear Leah. Don’t buy tools for arts, buy books!!! And keep writing...,. Focus on the skills you have. Love Molly xx

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 6:51 a.m.

Thanks Molly, Yes concentrate on ones strengths but sometimes I wasn’t to branch out and be challenged. Xx

Collette

June 17, 2020, 7:31 a.m.

Hi Molly When you asked the question, If your not creative, why would you make yourself feel bad? That hit the nerve. A flow of emotions came to me and i realized that my talent is making myself feel bad all the time! That is the pressure i put myself under all the time every day of my life. I come from a highly critical family where nothing or no one is good enough. And this is what i have become. I have had this awareness over the years and sought out therapists and therapy's to change and not be that person, and at times i have made real changes to my life. But the last few years i have been plagued by illness, evictions, and instability. It seems i have reverted back to feeling like i have no talents or creativeness in me, leaving me feeling depressed, anxious, hopeless.Its my default mode. I have just had a light go on back in a realization of what my thoughts are doing to me. I know what i need to do, i just hope i can find the strength to do it. Thank you. Collette

Molly

June 17, 2020, 4:57 p.m.

Hi Collette, I can relate to what you say here. I don’t feel I’m good at anything either. If people tell me I am I think they are just trying to be kind. Therefore I don’t speak anything to others but the truth. I would never say “oh your artwork is rubbish” for example but I want people to believe me when I say “that is great”. A highly critical family would have a big effect on you. My mum was like that. She saw good in everyone else apart from her own children. She is still like it and I just want her to be proud of me! So we have rows. Not just for this reason. Some people seem to have an easy ride. It sounds like you haven’t. I will say though, as I have many times on here, when depressed everything appears so much bleaker than it is. Your optimism will come back and I’m sending you strength and support. Thank you for your message. Don’t be too hard on yourself. You are good enough. Love Molly xx

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 12:02 a.m.

Dear Leah , I so feel for you . It took me many years of picking up a leaflet of an art studio and never making a phone call and then a year of meetings with a clinical psychologist to muster the courage to make an appointment there .. I have been a member of an art studio for a number of years now and I love it . I should mention here that it is an art therapy place and therapists are artists . It does not matter what one can do or knows how to do it . There is an old book - Feel the fear and do it anyway - which I read many years ago and did not do anything outside my comfort zone out of fear of failure , did not even try ....and reading the book did not help one yota . I have found out that the activities I deny myself trying give me immense pleasure once I break through that barrier . Expressing ourselves in different ways is a joy . One may try singing , dancing , cooking , gardening , anything , even on a micro scale . The point being that unless

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 6:55 a.m.

I have been to one art therapy class dh. Thanks for your comment.

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 12:36 a.m.

I try I may never discover the joy - the talent is the pleasure in making something regardless what others may think of the result . The feelings to break through are very uncomfortable and I may have to try many things before I find that joy . You , Leah , have a gift of writing , amongst many others that you do or do not know of yet ..... happy searching .... Thank you for the blog . If it is going to help look at Picasso and what he said “All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”“The artist is a receptacle for emotions that come from all over the place: from the sky, from the earth, from a scrap of paper, from a passing shape, from a spider's web.”“Action is the foundational key to all success.” And he said somewhere that it took him a lifetime to learn how to paint like a child . Maybe start by making a mess ? Or use the other hand ? or feet ? or tie a scarf round your eyes and pick colours like that .....

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 6:57 a.m.

Dh I always make a mess and I like finger painting. Thank fir the comment

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 12:37 a.m.

it all freezes and I have problems writing longer posts so I am coming back to it ... losing it ... apologies for disjointed notes.

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 6:57 a.m.

Dh your posts are clear and easy to read.

Dido

June 14, 2020, 4:51 a.m.

I do art therapy, in ties of online I talk and draw in my garage then show my therapist, I just play with colour and patterns, sometimes use a circle to do a mandala, pattern. It is interesting to see my works around my garage. Leah you said you have a way with words, is that where you creative streak lies? It doesn't have to be visual, does it. It took me years to understand that I do not have to be 'good' at art to enjoy making marks in colour. xxxx Dido

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Molly

June 14, 2020, 5:22 a.m.

Lovely Leah is just too hard on herself. I would love to be good at art. Nope! I would have loved to have been a dancer. Passed first exam but nope! Wasn’t to happen. Would love to play the piano. Had lessons even but nope! It really is a case of focussing on what we are good at and not what we don’t achieve xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 6:58 a.m.

Dido thanks for your post.

Leah

June 14, 2020, 7 a.m.

Molly, not hard on myself rather just want to explore another side, a collage airy words maybe. Xx

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 9:07 a.m.

Dear Molly . I am looking at it from a different perspective . Not what I am good at - it is easy then and I then need to defend it , but from a position of -what gives me joy - so that i get in the flow and crave spending time that way , for me .

Molly

June 14, 2020, 3:08 p.m.

Yes DH, looks like that was what Leah was saying after all. It’s strange how our minds go down different routes xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:40 p.m.

My mind has a mind of its own Molly, I may think something and write something else. I know what I mean butmy words may convey something else,xx

Paul

June 14, 2020, 5:55 a.m.

Leah I am similar to yourself my drawings are pathetic. I get frustrated as I have tried to improve for the sake of my grandchildren, but nope still pathetic. My two daughters are brilliant at drawing. My daughters have me on a pedestal which I don’t deserve just because as I can repair most things I can plaster lay bricks decorate And I am a plumber. Lastly I always wanted to play an instrument so two years ago I started to learn the ukalali I will never be brilliant but with practice I can play some nice tunes. Don’t be hard on yourself for what you can’t do it would be a dull world if we were all the same. Focus on what you can do and I’m sure your friends know All your talents. Paul

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 7:02 a.m.

Paul, I don’t feel hard on myself I just want to try different things.

NellyGrace

June 14, 2020, 5:56 a.m.

Hi Leah, Within the time it takes to read the first two sentences of your blog, I know it’s been written by you, and I smile. You have a distinctive way of writing, which I admire so much, and you never disappoint with the content. It’s such a creative talent. Creativity takes many forms and definitely does not need to be shared. Looking through old books of the Summer Exhibitionin London gives me confidence that almost anything goes! Perfectionism holds many back and even starting something, as you say, can be so hard. Give yourself permission to scibble and blotch, to tear and scrunch and make an almighty mess. Then just throw it away after you have expressed yourself, or maybe keep it? I have found a bit of creativity in an unexpected place; while sorting through my dad’s old building supplies. I wanted to get rid of it all. but he wants to hang on to almost everything! The bits he did say it was ok to throw, proved to be mainly those that couldn’t go into a skip. I decided to look at what could be repurposed, and it’s been fun. A plant pot from a defunct heat exchanger, just fill it with soil and plant, the colours of the copper need no enhancement. Old stones are now around the pond, along with a rotten wood pile for wildlife. The rubble is going under a rockery, which I can’t wait to build. I have paint sprayed old 70’s plant pots and am making a steam punk lamp with dads help. This has inspired dad to make things with the ‘junk’ too. I am lucky to have a dad who hangs on to things and to share those things with. I am seeing things differently and it’s bringing me joy. Thank you Leah for sharing your creative writing talent with us.

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 7:07 a.m.

Thanks nelly for your kind words. I like seeing things differently too.

Orangeblossom

June 14, 2020, 6:39 a.m.

Hi Leah, thanks for the great blog that fully resonated for me on every point. During the Lockdown I have aimed to write a poem a week. Sometimes they have needed to be reworked several times. The last block I took notes for was a Creative Writing block called ‘From Attic to Audience’. The instructor gave the students prompts to encourage them and stimulate writing. I followed the prompts. I enjoyed doing them. Perhaps it wasn’t entirely a new Creative venture, but it was a good way to stimulate creativity & continue to practice it.

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Leah

June 15, 2020, 11:35 p.m.

Thanks Orange bLossom

Cathy

June 14, 2020, 6:47 a.m.

Leah, when I was getting ready for “O” levels in 1962 we had to choose between Domestic Science, Science or Art History as adjuvant subjects. My mum was eager for me to do Domestic Science but school decided I’d be better of with Art History. There were only six of us in the class and I loved it. Some were very good at art but I found I could copy designs quite well and loved designing posters. These required bold colours and text and it was satisfying to arrange them so that the finished result looked striking. As I really couldn’t draw I stayed away from figures or buildings and just contented myself with amorphous outlines which could be interpreted any way you liked. Pretty soon I was in demand to design posters for plays and concerts at school and everyone seemed to like the bold colours and shapes and ideas that I was using. I really enjoyed myself once I’d found my niche and still get a lot of inspiration from Toulouse Lautrec and his posters and on the commercial side the ones for London Transport in the 20s and 30s are stunning. When I worked at Shell the building was awash with commercial posters containing aeroplanes which I love and lots of terrible puns and jokes included as advertising slogans. Have a look around for inspiration and just enjoy what you do. No one’s judging and if they do “press a willing critic into service” as Shirley Conrad says. In other words tell them to try in themselves before they criticise you. Just have a go, it’s for you only so don’t be put off and see what you can create. There should be plenty of examples about if you really look and maybe you could just copy some to get the hang of the design. Please relax and enjoy your new-found confidence, skills and hobby which is just for YOU. Best of luck. Regards Cathy Xxxxx

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 7:09 a.m.

Thanks Cathy for your interesting sheep. I will reread it and try some of your ideas.

Cathy

June 14, 2020, 6:49 a.m.

By the way I meant to type “I’d be better off with Art History“ but the gremlin got there first.

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Jul

June 14, 2020, 7:26 a.m.

Hi Leah. My sister is a great artist as was my mother. Our son is too. I come from a very artistic family with a few famous cartoonists and illustrators on my mother's side. But me? No! I'd love to sit at an easel in the countryside and paint with water colours but I am not trained to do so and in the end would probably feel I'd wasted my time. I've not tried anything new in the last few months except I've taken up running after many years and find it easier than I ever imagined. But running isn't an art form and I didn't have to buy anything new for it! I agree with you that people have a flair for art. I've seen proof of this in my family. I wonder what it is that makes some of us born artists and others like me and many others from a similar artistic background not? You have many skills Leah and we value your writing here. Jul xx

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Leah

June 15, 2020, 9:46 p.m.

Jul, sorry I missed your reply. Old age eyes. I think it would be hard to come from an artistic family and not feeling you have same skill. I cant run so I admire that skill. Thanks Jul. xx

Oli

June 14, 2020, 7:27 a.m.

My fear of starting a creative piece is tied up with breaking the perfection of the pristine state. I get the feeling that if I make my mark on a clean sheet it can only go down hill from there. It wasn’t just drawing, it was recording too because magnetic tape won’t allow endless attempts. New technology changed everything for me because I lost the fear of starting once digital came along — I simply wasn’t as bothered about botching things up if it only involved electrons — nothing was permanent and I got as many goes as I liked to get it better. Computer recording; no problem. Drawing on an iPad; no problem. Being able to practice lots and hear/ see the results quickly can get nearly all skills better. Although, as it happens there are some skills which are resistant to being shaped like this, and I’m quite interested in what’s going on there, but that’s a different story. Thanks for the blog Leah

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:25 a.m.

Oli Thanks for your thoughts. I liking messing up the pristine but I want it to look like what I am expressing.

The Gardener

June 14, 2020, 4:07 p.m.

Oli, how the 'spoiling a clean page' echos. Early days as a sec (anybody else remember?) top paper, x carbon copies, make an error and you had to correct every one. There was 'correcting tape' but it stuck to everything.

Molly

June 14, 2020, 5:40 p.m.

Gosh, I remember this Gardener, I was taught to type on a manual typewriter. That feeling when you made a mistake because of the performance of correcting! Xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:44 p.m.

I used to find a new page in typing intimidating as I wondered if I could ever fill it with words when essay writing. I remember when I first learnt about wor processors how I could correct mistakes at the end Nd ruin a page with shutout. Xx

Catherine

June 14, 2020, 8:32 a.m.

Thanks for your blog Leah. At the beginning of lockdown my mood cycled up and I experienced a symptom I hadn’t had before, a strong desire to draw. I hadn’t done much art since school and after a few days of drawing and other things I realised that it was a symptom. The thing is, this was a new one and rather than going away, as my mental health has stabilised I have kept it going. Near the beginning I started one of those 30 day drawing challenges but then realised I wasn’t keen on the subjects. The 1st one was draw yourself! That was probably my least favourite artwork.One of the ones I like best is the view from my window. Painted onto Amazon packaging as a substitute for thick paper. What has been the most wonderful thing is how much I am enjoying it. When I am drawing or painting the concentration doesn’t allow anxiety. I’m trying to focus on the journey not the outcome. Moving away from good and bad pictures (some of course I do prefer but I’m trying not to be caught up with the ones I don’t like). If something looked a bit childlike I renamed it naive. I’ve painted from photos from walks, fruit, flowers etc. So Leah please just start and then keep going. I’m sure you will quickly feel the enjoyment I do too.

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:28 a.m.

Catherine, thanks fir your encouragement,

Benjamin

June 14, 2020, 9:21 a.m.

Leah; I feel you are more right than they in your emphasis on the skill required for art as opposed to the creativity - free thought, divergence. The maxims about 10,000 hours spring to mind, however, when you protest a lack of talent; your statement about being skilled at what we do. Deliberate practice is more about self-criticism, not meeting an internal standard and thus trying again, than about self-acceptance; and recognized excellence happens after importing other peoples' standards, making them more strict, applying them, meeting them, exceeding them - and then applying them creatively. So maybe you dedicate a box of pencils to getting lines straight; and you work through those pencils paying attention in your drawing most to whether the lines are straight and smooth when you want them to be so. Down to the nubs; and then buy another and focus on color blending. So that other things are free to be ... not good ... and you can achieve progress. One by one, aspects of your technique can drop out of sight, become things that happen without great effort. At some point, creativity will come in - and people will wonder at your talent.

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:32 a.m.

Benjamin, having to draw straight lines fill me with dread and reminds me of a teacher screaming at me. I like the idea of blending and other skills. Thanks for your comments.

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 9:31 a.m.

I have read the blog again . I have read all the comments . I ticked yes , yes, yes , me too , on many . I have a question for you Leah . Why do I think that it would be great to write a blog but I never tried to ? Is it that I was a very competitive child and unless I was the best I would not enjoy the activity ? And even though I did break through , like with art - believe me that part of your blog reads like my story - it does not make it any easier the next time ?

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 10:45 a.m.

Thanks Dh , I think we tell ourselves stories that hold us back.

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 11:19 a.m.

Thank you Leah . I think that I need to put this sentence on the wall to remind me every day .

Molly

June 14, 2020, 6:08 p.m.

DH, with regard to writing blogs your comments are sometimes mini blogs so you are halfway there! I write blogs quite often, sending them in is where I hold back although I think I’ve managed to get over that. You don’t need to see it like a competition as every blog has its own uniqueness!

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 7:40 p.m.

Thank you Molly . I have put the bar for blog writing pretty high and told myself that it is not my thing - except that I have not even tried - other than in my head , lol , and failed , in my head , again , but does life not happen in our heads primarily ?

Molly

June 14, 2020, 8:29 p.m.

Yes it’s all in the head!! But if it’s not your thing, then it doesn’t matter. Just stick to commenting! Your comments are always good to read xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:21 p.m.

DH if I put the bar as high as you do for. Logs I would never have sent one in!!! I agree with molly your comments are great sources for blogs,

dancing hippo

June 14, 2020, 10:01 p.m.

Molly and Leah - thank you so much for your comments - made me think again - maybe talent is the problem because it is not enough on its own and demands to be backed by hard work or just work - 10 000 hours of practice - and then be expressed originally - like finding ones voice or style and when I am told that I have no talent I am free to play and have fun with whatever it is .

Kim

June 14, 2020, 10:03 a.m.

I took about 4 attempts to start knitting. Over several years. Each time it felt too hard and that I dropped or created stitches and didn’t understand how or what I was doing wrong. The final time I started was very different. Suddenly I just “got” it. Yes I still made mistakes and I have lots of unfinished projects but I persevered and developed an understanding of how it all worked just by doing. I also watched YouTube videos and read magazines. There are lots of learn to draw books and videos which can really help. If you feel you gave the drawing level of a five year old then why not get a very basic how to draw book and just practice. I’ve found that I am my own biggest critic and say things to myself I would never dream if saying to others. Practice being gentle with yourself. Think of your art self as a child who needs support and encouragement and congratulate yourself with every picture and every improvement. Celebrate not going over the lines, even if it’s just in one part of the picture. When we focus on the journey without making comparisons to the end goal other than our progress towards it we are able to stay more motivated and appreciate the distance travelled rather than the distance still to cover

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 10:50 a.m.

Kim, thanks fo sharing your story. I wrote a blond about practice does not always make perfect, I could learn a basic tools but still have no talent. I really am more interested in a stact and. Collages.

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:27 p.m.

A blog not a blond,,

Cyndi

June 14, 2020, 2:29 p.m.

Hi Leah! What a timely blog for me. I can identify with your procrastination/blocks to being creative. Anticipating shoulder replacement surgery of my nondominant arm, I bought some new (I have done art before) art supplies in January. The shoulder surgery got delayed due to needing to have breast surgery (my implants from mastectomies needed to be replaced), of which was uncomfortable. Then there was Covid 19 with a further delay. Neither period of which I used the time productively. Then the should surgery, and I am still uninspired. I wrote a book sometime ago, of which I finally have a (pseudo)editor. It needs a lot of work, but here I sit, un inspired. Then we plan on moving in the late summer - I want to pack, but with the arm it is a good excuse to procrastinate. So I hardly do anything productive except play with our dogs. So I can relate!, Sign me, the uninspired procrastinator.

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:18 p.m.

cyndi, Thanks for your post. I think you are. It an uninspired ptocrastinator but someone who has many physical illnesses and I admire your courage. Well done with the book and the editor.nit will happen,

Patty

June 14, 2020, 2:51 p.m.

Hi Leah. I myself love anything creative, planting flowers, painting furniture, pretty much all of it. It just draws me in.. In college, I always did well in classes that were creative and in writing classes and papers. But, like you, I had my areas I did not excel in - math for one. But, I understand what you are saying about taking on something challenging. I had to take a math class for my teaching degree. I was scared but bound and determined to do it and to do well. I was very proud of myself because I learned a lot of things I did not understand before and I did it!!!! So, I understand your desire to do something that is a challenge for you. I am just not a left brained person. Anyway, I would recommend the collage idea because it interests you and you can be very free with what you do with no right or wrong. I wish you luck, but mostly have fun, for that is the whole idea behind being creative. To enjoy it. Patty

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Molly

June 14, 2020, 4:13 p.m.

Patty and Leah, I was just thinking that with collages, there is no right or wrong and they are very satisfying to create xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:25 p.m.

Patty, thanks for your comment. I used to have who,e lot of items fit collage but no longer have them. The only thing I have now our are supermarket brochures not that inspiring. I had lots of textures and materials and personal objects before.

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:27 p.m.

Molly, th anksi agree as I said to Patty I have to start collecting items fir collage but I have no motivation.

Molly

June 14, 2020, 10:47 p.m.

I was thinking about photos maybe and merging them into each other into a frame. Could this be a good start? It might spur you on to do more for your next project xx

Leah

June 15, 2020, 11:33 p.m.

Molly an idea to start.thanks Xx

Hugo

June 14, 2020, 3:34 p.m.

I started with art when depression was at my most and when nothing else helped, even exercise! At first it was pretty daunting but did it anyway, I’ve always loved art in school it always thought I wasn’t good enough. I carried on with it, and I have gotten better and better and better. I love the art I’m creating now and for the first time in my life I actually feel I’m pretty good at it. Okay there will always be someone better than me but I don’t actually care now. It’s a process but if you stick with it and know it’s some you love, you’ll get better at it! Enjoy the process

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:30 p.m.

Hugo thanks for your ideas. Hugo you have proved what I was saying you always loved art and found you are good at it, I have been to,d and know I hav e no artistic talent, that mKes a big difference, I am glad you have found something that helps.

The Gardener

June 14, 2020, 4:11 p.m.

I am a total thicko on anything to do with art. Give me a knitting project, house to decorate, street to flower, and I'm off. Art, oh! the frustrations with art homework at school. I envy those who can sketch- so few needs, a pad and mixed pencils, subjects everywhere. Still have second son's sketches (a sunk ferry in Palermo harbour one) he was good, but gave up that hobby for earning a living. Thanks Leah, as so many have said, you're too hard on yourself, enough to just 'be'. xx

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:32 p.m.

TG You have talents in other areas of Rt, knitting and decorating. Not hard on myself but realistic. Thanks for your thoughts.

Patty

June 14, 2020, 4:51 p.m.

Me too Gardner. I don't know that I'm an excellent drawer, but give me a creative project like flowers or house decorating as well and I'm off and running. I think there's a difference between like art and drawing and creativity in general. Patty

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:33 p.m.

Patty I think you and Tg are very creative and artistic , you don’t have to draw to be artistic . Thanks

Patty

June 14, 2020, 4:51 p.m.

Me too Gardner. I don't know that I'm an excellent drawer, but give me a creative project like flowers or house decorating as well and I'm off and running. I think there's a difference between like art and drawing and creativity in general. Patty

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Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:34 p.m.

Flowers and de rotating require creative artistic flair,

Nicco

June 14, 2020, 4:57 p.m.

Leah, thank you for your blog, which spoke to me v.much. I wonder about the word 'talent'. People define it in different ways - some famous singers/actors still think they're not good, get v.nervous before performances & are amazed people want to see them. My therapist said the other day (via Zoom which I finally mastered after weeks of waiting for bits I finally fathomed I needed & then procrastinated about how to get them to work), that I am very talented. I was shocked. I don't think I am. I do an awful lot of creative things - it's my raison d'etre & I wouldn't be true to myself if I didn't indulge in creativity (I use the word 'indulge' as I still feel guilty about indulging my creative self), but I do not consider myself particularly good at any of them - I dabble. Thing is, I'd rather be mediocre at a lot of things & master of none, than put my whole self into one thing. I play piano - not well but to be excellent one has to sleep, eat & breathe it which I can't & don't want to do. I play guitar & never thought I had any talent. I used to hear a song, memorise the words, then get it on the guitar with simple chords (amazing what you can do with D, A & G! Ask certain 70s&80s pop bands!) I didn't think I had any talent so stopped playing for around 5yrs, picked it up again & couldn't play a note, so there must've been at least some talent to start with - had to learn all over again. I create 1/12th scale items for dolls houses & like to buy & revamp old houses(13 at last count in various stages & states)but there are far more talented people who do amazing things with them out there. I stitch tapestries (design's on the canvas so doesn't take much skill). I knit but not as well as I used to as can't concentrate these days as well as I did. I crochet - wish I'd been taught properly as can only do squares/rounds & a few things I've adapted from those basic patterns - would love to make toys & intended to do a course but local wool shop closed & covid struck. I do a lot of things with beads & have just branched out into making jewellery - took ages to decide how to do it & I use ready-made chains, charms, etc, whereas others can silversmith their own crafted stuff, but I dont want to do that. I love pottery & made some pieces years ago at school - always intended to do a course but fear blocks me because I'd be (horror of horrors)in a class of people whereas I like to try things on my own, at least to start with. And here lies the thing... Now's a great time to try because we are largely on our own & have time due to present circumstances. Why do we need to share/compare? It's part of the learning process.Theres always places like Pinterest to learn new technqiues on all sorts (I love the colouring techniques I learned there!) I enjoy making wreaths - had a few bereavements over the last few years. She taught me how. At first I got so wound up I had to walk away & she would finish it. But once I'd mastered the basic technique(s) I could use those as a foundation to explore other ways & maybe push my boundaries a bit. There have been times when I've started & thought this is cr*p, there's no way this is going to come to anything. But, do you know what, it does. It's the same philosophy of 'it'll be alright on the night' (been in choirs where we've sung badly in rehearsals, but somehow it all comes together on the night & we do the best ever performance). I like to make greetings cards. I used to love taking old cards & crafting them into new ones (great way of recycling!) However, my daughter always liked to do something 'from scratch'. We're different. I would sit there with all the stuff in front of me trying to work out in my head how to do something from scratch & feel totally lost & inadequate, not to mention confused. She would start & I would gain inspiration from her & that would get me started, but believe me, I would sit for ages contemplating. I'd say to my daughter, "but I've got all the components, I just don't know what to do with them!" She'd reply, "Mum, just start, anywhere, because not knowing what to do is great - relax because that's when the magic happens" & she's right. She would say, "Mum, what's the worst that can happen? If it goes wrong, chuck it away - it's only a piece of paper! - or start again - perhaps practice first on scrap paper or do a dummy run". We can't all be good at everything. You're great at writing. Relax & let the magic happen, Leah - YOUR magic. Don't give up.x

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Molly

June 14, 2020, 6:53 p.m.

Nicco, you have so many hobbies!!! I love it that you don’t expect too much of yourself but give many things a bash and you are satisfied with what you have achieved. I think this is a great attitude xx

Leah

June 14, 2020, 9:38 p.m.

Nicco Thanks for your contribution listing your interests. The thing is you like and are skilled at them all . I suppose I was saying it is hard to try som etching new . I had no illusions of being good as I wanted to try something new. I may stick to words,

Molly

June 14, 2020, 9:43 p.m.

I don’t know why I didn’t think of this earlier, but I’ve just completed a slide show of ‘my’ old dog. I know I’ve mentioned I was going to do it previously but it’s quite apt with today’s blog. I have a small amount of experience in such things, I’ve done it before, but a long time ago. I couldn’t think how to start. I had a bit of determination because of the passion I had for the dog. My tribute to him. So anyway, I took my time and kept persevering (when in the right frame of mind). The first hurdle was the hardest. Finding the right program (not even sure if that’s what it’s called) I soon was well away, inserting photos, playing about and mixing them all up, text at the beginning, text at the end. I added music which makes it really effective. I was very pleased with myself, even though I was up all night once, whilst working on my project! I guess I am thinking Leah, of finding something you are passionate about (like your shop) and working on that which may (when in the right mood) help you create your perfect piece xx

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Leah

June 15, 2020, 9:28 a.m.

molly what a lovely idea.

dancing hippo

June 15, 2020, 11:01 a.m.

Molly , is there a way , obviously if you wish , for you to share it ?

Molly

June 15, 2020, 12:32 p.m.

Thank you for your interest DH. That’s one thing I haven’t yet mastered! I’m having a bit of a break as this could be the most stressful bit! So I will let you know... xx

dancing hippo

June 15, 2020, 6:47 p.m.

Thanks Molly - no rush - slowly does it - enjoy the process .

Molly

June 15, 2020, 9:51 p.m.

Thank you DH xx

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