This old dog can learn new tricks.

28 Aug 2015

Over a year ago when I first found the moodscope website, I wondered what I could learn from such a site. After 40 years of living with a diagnosis of bipolar I felt I knew all about moods and mental health. How could doing a graph or reading blogs help me. Sounds arrogant and I am probably exaggerating my reaction a bit.

I started charting my moods about twice a week then four times a week then every day. I started thinking about how anxious I was, how guilty I felt, how inspired I was and how active I felt. My partner started saying I am sure today would be over 70%. I found it gave more words than saying I feel low or I feel happy. It was useful.

After about 7 months I started reading the blogs and found myself addicted to reading every day. I learnt so much from moodscope members. I learnt people can have low moods without being depressed, that people can write well when depressed, that many members have had survived many adversities, that members have so much insight into their illness, that people have so much compassion for others. The collective wisdom of the moodscope members is amazing and so helpful.

I think the quality of the comments always impresses me. Even when people are hurting they take some time and effort into writing a very insightful and caring response.

I think the wide variety of people's experience is its strength as there's such a great reservoir of information and wisdom to draw from. Just by turning my computer on, I can find out about other people's lives, their struggles and their triumphs. The humour and wit of writers both of blog and comments make me smile and laugh.

I like reading members writing their first blog, members who are struggling but want to help others, members who are confused, members who just are trying to make sense of their lives.

I have thouroughly enjoyed being a member of moodscope and have learnt so much.

I feel so privileged to have 'met' through their words a wonderul community of caring people.

Indeed this old dog has learnt some new tricks!

When have you surprised yourself by learning something new when you thought you knew it all?


A Moodscope member

A Moodscope member.

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Aug. 28, 2015, 5:57 a.m.

Amazing blog Leah - it resonated so much with me. I can remember starting Moodscope at the beginning of this year and thinking the same things - just how could plotting my mood help? Surely it will only make me fixate on my moods more? It turns out it's given so much insight and explanation and allowed me to see where I could make subtle changes. And the blog always gives me a little hug, makes me feelers alone and - now that I'm starting to write - helps me connect and feel like I'm giving back. Thank you for allowing me to see what a great thing this little website is, I've surprised myself how much it's a part of my life ***


Hopeful One

Aug. 28, 2015, 6:22 a.m.

Hi Leah- Thanks for that and oh my you are so complementary to the Moodscope community who, by and large are good sorts ,trying to understand their condition and passing on the distilled wisdom of their experience to others on the same journey of coming to terms with their condition and do the best they can. I often find that Moodscope members point out things to me that I did not know before. I would like to add my complements to the Moodscope community and offer them my thanks for the help they have given me.



Aug. 28, 2015, 8:20 a.m.

I think I feel the same as you Leah. I too thought no-one could tell me anything new about depression,moods, ways of coping on a daily basis etc. But how wrong I was. I have learnt more from Moodscope members in the last 4 years, than in many years before. The blogs and comments keep me going on a daily basis.I feel sustained by the kindness and actually feel better about myself. It's a very subtle thing Moodscope! I didn't suddenly feel better or instantly buoyed up by the comments and blogs but a sort of osmosis occurred. Moodscope is a very strong force for good! So like you Leah, I surprised myself. It just goes to show that those who suffer from the problems we do, are the nicest people and the ones who ultimately can help. For all the training, professionals have in this area, nothing can beat the expertise, empathy, true understanding and experience of a fellow sufferer.



Aug. 28, 2015, 8:58 a.m.

I can only agree with these comments. I look forward to the daily emails and find comfort in the community spirit. When I first joined Moodscope I didn't see how it could help. I then rejoined at a time when my father was beginning to show the symptoms of Dementia and Moodscope became a lifeline to me. Something I could literally cling on to for support. It became my beacon of hope. I also love the profound thought for each day. I've copied and pasted many of them to a page I refer back to when I need need some comfort. It's interesting that when you track your moods you can feel one element but not another. For example, distressed but not hostile, irritated but not upset. I didn't realise there were so many components to depression. I just thought of it as one solid mass of depression.



Aug. 28, 2015, 9:27 a.m.

Hi Leah, you've triggered a gratitude-for-Moodscope day, giving us a chance to voice our appreciation. Thank you! I agree with everything you say. The gems of wisdom, compassion, information, suggestions, humour, perspective, etc etc that keeps flowing is so comforting and helpful. And each person who blogs or comments has their own particular energy and presence which comes through so clearly. I love that! Thank you, everyone. What a lovely bunch you are. xx



Aug. 28, 2015, 10 a.m.

Hi everyone, great to part of this comforting and stabilizing online community. It's like the kind and inspiring words my late mother and my very kind late husband supported me throughout the years. My own way of thinking is that life is as it is and I am much better off than millions on this globe and I am grateful for that. I also feel that the experience of being here has to be embraced in its reality, good and bad aspects. I still got a roof over my head, food in my mouth and live in a friendly community and not least, have a lovely cat and 2 cheerful budgies. Also I have friends and my 2 younger sisters abroad to live for. It's a sunny day, too! This old dog is hanging on in there for what it's worth - thanks for the opportunity to be part of this - Silviaxxx



Aug. 28, 2015, 12:14 p.m.

Thank you for that Leah. It has motivated me to start taking the test again and reading the blog. I have not been using Moodscope for a long time. Thanks.



Aug. 28, 2015, 1:02 p.m.

Add your name to the list of impressive, brave Moodscope members Leah! Hats off to all you writers - I am enriched here daily. Many Thanks.



Aug. 29, 2015, 6:13 p.m.

I love this blog, very true. Have found a lot of wisdom and support through these pages.



Aug. 30, 2015, 2:47 p.m.

I've only been mind scoping for 3 days consecutively and already feel like I've found a friend forever and many more in all you bloggers. I've always been cynical about blogging, felt it was narcissistically motivated, potentially introspective, and possibly self-promoting which I find ugly, and irritating... I stand corrected and converted.... but in fact in taking the test each day and noting down some reflections, i can see my feelings or thoughts for just what they are, recognise them, acknowledge them, let them them go, move on. Leah's experience really struck a chord with me in that instead of just feeling flat or low or depressed..such overused and vague words, my own description of each day accurately defines my own personal experience of low, and when I see it written down, actually im not feeling that bad after all. I reflected on how I asserted myself today with someone who was pushing me towards something Ididn't want to do, and I felt bad about saying no I don't want to, instead of the usual I can't, and I did not skirt around I was honest... I feel all the more confident about my ability to be myself, which is for me the definition of my own personal freedom...and the lack of which, caused me so much pain over the years. Onwards and upwards!



Sept. 17, 2015, 11:12 a.m.

Great! Thank you for it.


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