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The visitor. Sunday October 4, 2015

Sometime depression creeps into my house
Through the back door
Unannounced

Sometimes he arrives at the front door
With a fanfare
And a flounce

Sometimes he waits round the corner
Ready to jump out
And pounce

And sometimes he's in the bushes
Being quiet
As a mouse

I try not to fight his presence
Try not to shut the door
Try not to close the curtains
And try not to ignore

Because he always has a message
A letter to deliver
A hidden sign, a note, a card
Or a thought for me to consider

So next time he comes I'm ready
Ready to welcome him in
Ready to say come stay with me
Lets talk, shall I begin?

And in time he'll come less often
Of that I now am clear
As I get better at spotting the signs
That his visit is drawing near

I'll know he's bought his ticket
Or is looking up his route
I'll know he's packing a suitcase
And putting it in his boot

And I'll know that I can call him
Say thank you my old friend
I know you want to help me
And your help just has to end

I've found some better ways of coping
Of getting through the day
With friends, with walks, with nature
With love and purpose and play

You've taught me life
And shown the route
And for that I'm ever grateful

So now you can set your SatNav
To another destination

Debs
A Moodscope member.

Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.


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Comments

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 8:17am

I read the other day, (but cannot remember where, here probably!) that the things that happen to us for example, with depression, often have a message in there and I'm glad you've put it in your pom this morning.
We get small body reminders to drink when thirsty, eat when hungry, sleep when tired and that's all fine and dandy normally, but depression reminds us to look after ourselves mentally and physically because if we don't, our bodies go into meltdown....everything is soo much harder to cope with.
Like RATG's blog the other day, I get 'acceptance' from your writing today, Debs, 'accepting' in the form of allowing depression near but remembering how to deal with it in a way that protects oneself.
Thanks Debs, and in Bearworld this morning, it is even more autumnal, sunny with a slight misty dew everywhere...ve ve purdy, so time to get dressed and get out there with dog....after this excellent cuppa..!
Bear x

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:50pm

Thanks Bear, I love the sound of Bearworld ;-) I def find that depression has a message - normally that I am out of line with my real self and some artificial self has taken over ;-) It's a sign its time to check in and listen. xxx

Hopeful One Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 8:36am

Hi Debs - lovely poem and sooooo accurate . Delighted we now have a classy poetess of class in our midst on Moodscope in addition to our resident poet Les.

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:52pm

Wow! To be put in Les' league has just made my day! Thanks HO, you know how to make a gal feel good ;-) x

Lilly Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:22am

Hi Debs, what a lovely reminder that instead of passively feeling bad, we can take the positive message/warning that we need to look after ourselves more and can try to spot the signs earlier. Wouldnt it be great if we could get the equivalent of a flu jab! I loved the idea that you no longer need the visitor's help/grim warnings and have found better ways of looking after yourself
Another beautiful morning in which to be :)

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:53pm

Oh yes, a depression jab - I love it! Am writing to Mr Cameron as we speak... hmmm - p'raps not! xx

Louise Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:49am

I very much enjoyed this and it resonated with me. Interesting thought that the Depression Gremlin is trying to tell us something.

Not feeling very eloquent today, but had to let you know that you struck a chord. Thanks!

And Bearofliddlebrain - your reference to your world as "Bearworld" did make me smile! Enjoy the autumn sunshine - I plan to do the same today too.

Lou

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:54pm

Hey Lou, your words are much appreciated - I love the idea of a gremlin.... those pesky blighters never liked the light did they?! xx

Neil Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 11:12am

Just lovely

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:54pm

thanks Neil xx

Mary Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 12:45pm

Brilliant

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:54pm

Hugs Mary xx

the room above the garage Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 1:36pm

I've run out of steam today so have few words but...great stuff Debs, many thanks!

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:56pm

Am sending some coal for your engine RATG xxx

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 7:01pm

Hi RATG....poop poop! Worked up some steam whilst gardening here and blowing it up to you! PuffingBear x

susan Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 2:50pm

Hi Debs, between your wonderful blog this morning and ratg's yesterday, we are provided with an objectivity on depression which minimizes personal guilt. This is a huge gift. Thank you so much. Just brilliant. xx

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:57pm

Ahh, thanks Susan, I find distance really helpful in making the depression a separate entity. Be gone my friend, be gone ;-) x

Lex Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 2:55pm

That's transformational poetry, Debs! Most excellent!
L'xx

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 6:58pm

From you Lex, one of my Moodscope heros, this is high praise indeed and has made my heart sing!! Thank you sooo much xx

Margie Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 2:55pm

My thoughts same as Susan. Thanks for all your gifts here!

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 7:15pm

Ahh - that makes writing worth it Margie, thank you x

Frankie Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 3:55pm

I just LOVE this Debs - thank-you ... as I work with the whole "acceptance" thing, this is hugely helpful.
Frankie

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 7:18pm

Thank you Frankie, acceptance is key isn't it? I find myself rallying against my moods, hating them, physically pushing them out the door and trying to slam it in their face. But it doesn't work. Better to say come in, talk to me, what can we learn together. So hard but worth it in the end xxx

Niamh Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 7:40pm

Really struck a chord and what a gift to be able to pen such a work. I think I will be re-reading this poem, both emotional and comforting to me. Thank you Debs for writing this

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:22pm

Oh Niamh, you've just made me cry! (in a good way) Touching people through words is all I've ever wanted to do but like many I got sucked into 'the real world' - ironically I'm convinced this has contributed to my depression. Thank you so much for giving me a massive boost xxx

Never Lego Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 7:48pm

thank you for this verse today. Not fighting it is probably a good lesson for me. Sometimes I try so hard to be okay that it just makes things worse. Here is to practising acceptance.

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:23pm

Here here ;-) Great name by the way - I spend my life building, rebuilding, standing on and cleaning up lego so it brought a smile to my face x

Rebecca Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 8:06pm

Fantastic poem.x

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:23pm

Thank you Rebecca, that means so much x

Nicola Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 8:57pm

Beautifully written Debs, and just so accurate. I think that first time round, you fight and fight and fight. Subsequent times, you know you have to accept before starting the fight. And you learn to see the signs and start taking preventative action so much earlier. It's a learning curve! x

Debs Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 9:25pm

Isn't it though! And the more we learn the better protected we are against the visits. I've learnt so much from fellow Moodscopers that my armoury is so much stronger than it was xx

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