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Peter and Penelope. Saturday August 5, 2017

Peter and Penelope are great friends, they think alike, have their own language which often does not require words, and they are often mistaken for each other as they look so similar.

Like Twins in fact.

This may sound strange as one is male and the other is female, but they both share a wonderful golden sheen and beautiful posture as they stand in their gardens elegant serene and all knowing.

Yes they are peacocks, formed from metal and paint and yet they seem somehow alive.
Peter lives with me in my beautiful colourful garden and Penelope lives with my friend whom I call the Old Bean, she also calls me the Old Bean! And we are also very similar.

Like twins in fact.

Same sense of humour, same way of communicating without words, same sense of sometimes living in a happy pinkness then finding oneself in a black bubble that cannot be burst.
We are true friends and as CS Lewis once said 'Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! you too? I thought I was the only one!'

Peter has helped me through many upsets, and I have often sat beneath his caring feathers just alongside the white hydrangeas on the top step of the path, with tears or feelings of deep sadness inside, and felt the calmness of his silence.

Slowly coming to understand how to go forward.

It was this that inspired me to buy Penelope for the Old Beans birthday as she has been feeling very low and I could not seem to jolly her along, her life is fraught with difficulties as she has a wayward teenage son and an elderly mother to care for.

She works hard and yet seems to be on a roller coaster, one minute calm and caring and really quite the funniest person you could ever want to know.

Then life suddenly whips the roller coaster upside down and she finds herself clinging on trying desperately not to just let go and fall to the floor.

All I can do is to shout up to her hang on Oldest Bean, it will be alright you know.

The tears fall from her beautiful green eyes and she cannot speak.

Then Penelope came along and I placed her in her garden near the door so they could see each other and watch each other carefully.

I told the Old Bean Penelope was there to look after her, comfort her and give her the inspiration to see beauty and hope when the clouds were grey, the roller coaster was warming up faintly in the distance, and the tears were close by.

Peter and Penelope together have formed a bond to look after us two Old Beans and keep us together, safe and protected when we find it all too much.

Last night I heard Peter flapping his feathers and imagined him sleek and luminescent in the moonlight returning from his nightly visit to Penelope.

I knew all was calm and right as I felt the most serene deepness of sleep take hold of me and I silently wished the Old Bean goodnight, and sweet dreams.

Old Bean we are heading for the pinkness once more.

Peter can feel it in his gorgeous feathers.

A Moodscope member.

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David Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 6:31am

Hello, Audrey, I can relate to your fantasy twins, Penelope and Peter. I will get out more and get a life.

Marmaladegirl Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 8:04am

Hi David - Never fear, you HAVE a life, so you don't need to 'get' one! It's trying to make the most of the life you have that can be a challenge, although when you look at your life I'm sure you will see that you have been making a pretty good job of it, certainly doing your best. MG

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:01am

MG - making the most of life. I don't have a P & P - just that all my adult life I MUST have a good sight when I open the back door. The difference between family wedding in UK and Mr G's utter misery came to a head - he does not like living with me, but if I go to the other house he will tell the neighbours I've left him. But, we have a gleam of sun, I have planted 'Morning Glory' plant at no cost - they are scrambling, glorious, over any bush they can cling to. I cling to anything cheerful, Nurses's smile this morning, preparing for visitors tomorrow and the church just outside my kitchen window - the sound of bells and the church clock - cynicism - have you been near enough peacocks when the scream? Feel like wringing their beautiful necks!

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:07am

David...I have noticed that whenever a Moodscoper posts a blog here that might seem soft, or kind-hearted, you throw in a challenging comment about 'getting a life'....either to us Moodscopers or now yourself. If you don't like a particular blog - comment constructively or don't comment at all. Each day, someone has taken the courage to write something...usually something from the heart, that helps one, two, 50 or hundreds of depressed friends here. Have a heart yourself and help someone like Audrey has. However, if I have misinterpreted your comment then I apologise. Bear.

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:58am

Bear - I'm sure (I HOPE) there is not intention to 'judge'. I am in an invidious position - Wednesday morning any amount of people gather round my kitchen table - now some notable absentees - on woman never misses - she is NOT liked, but impervious to any hints, and I've never barred anybody my house. I'm sad, one of the 'absentees' is not well, nursed her third husband through horrendous illness, she is the same age as me, and FUN. And to David, if he is serious about people 'getting a life' he can get on a b****y ferry and take over Mr G for a few days. I am trying to prepare for guests in bedrooms which have not been occupied before, and bulbs keep blowing in inaccessible places, so will have to grab a tall neighbour. I am a poor, weak old lady. sympathy please

Jul Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 12:19pm

Hello Gardener. You are not a weak poor old lady but I still sympathise with you. Very much so. You did make me laugh with great gusto, your invitation to David.Ha ha. I think David has become rather a bore..sorry David but please lift the scratchy needle off the turntable and no more getalifegetalifegetalifegettalife. And my goodness, I totally forgot about Hopeful One. How amazing I forgot he isn't here any more. I wonder why not. A very sudden disappearance. I hope he is well. Did he warn us he was stopping posting? Did I miss something?Hope the neighbour you grab Gardener is tall and handsome. Love Jul xx

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:11pm

Thanks Jul - my tale of woe has increased by one dead cat - got in house for sale during heat wave - dead quite a time - I can NOT clear it up - you know France - any organisation deal with dead cats. David is probably getting his just deserts (probably on a par with my obdurate visitor - the one thing loud and clear over the years I've been doing moodscope is that you do NOT tell people to 'snap out of it'. If they could, they would not be here. Love overburdened Gardener (need machete wielder as well as tall neighbour

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:36pm

Hi TG....Let's hope your machete-wielding, tall and handsome helper can sort out the dead cat too...poor moggy :(

Mary S Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:52pm

I come here for support,but as an animal lover I now feel sick at your cold attitude toward a poor cat who was trapped and died in terrible circumstances. It got its just desserts? What the heck?

Laura RB Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 4:41pm

David, I'm sending you a (((hug))) ?

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:14pm

Hi all. I felt that David was making fun of himself rather than the blog, but I am probably wrong! 'Knowing' David he may well have wanted a reaction again - and he got one! But my first thought was that he was trying to make up for telling moodscopers to get a life, by telling himself to get one, and it was a bit of a joke? Gardener, I don't think it was appropriate what you said about peacocks or the cat. The poor cat would have suffered from neglect and a family probably lost a beloved pet. How you can blame a poor defenceless animal? Might have caused you some inconvenience but hardly the cat's fault. I'm with you on this Mary S xx

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:21pm

Mary - my reply ambiguous - I felt awful about the poor cat - especially when I saw its efforts to get out - the just deserts were for David! Sorry about total confusion. I am trying to trace owners of cat to put them at least out of their misery wondering what has happened to it.

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:23pm

Molly - peacocks marvellous birds - but HAVE you heard them early in the morning?

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:51pm

Gardener, cannot say I have, we don't have peacocks closeby where I live, I just thought it was unnecessary to say that on a blog about peacocks, when you didn't even acknowledge the blog. Another time I might have found it funny! Regarding the cat, I was about to say to Mary that you were referring to David, but when I re-read your comment, it clearly says, and I quote "probably on a par with my obdurate visitor" xx

David Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 10:37pm

Yes, but is it the right life for you Moodscopers?

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:35pm

and you go at it again . look in the mirror.

Orangeblossom Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:58am

Thanks for the blog Audrey. I thoroughly enjoyed reading it. Hope that Peter is buoyant today.

Marmaladegirl Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:59am

Beautifully written Audrey, I really enjoyed reading this. I'm sure the sentiments will chime a chord with many a reader and the advice embedded within the story is spot on. Thank you for writing such a wonderful blog for us! MG x

Sal Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 8:05am

Me too Audrey, I enjoyed reading it. How lovely to have such a friend, and to be such a friend too. I hope you both enjoy a long spell of pinkness :)

the room above the garage Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:09am

Hello Audrey, that is a beautiful blog! It has lifted me up, made me feel all fresh and content and I love your 'old beans' connection, united in many ways. I hope her wayward son gets it out of his system very soon and until then she has a great friend to hold her hand. Really lovely reading, thank you. Love ratg x.

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:13am

You have such a kind understanding of your friend. I think she is very lucky to have a thoughtful friend like you in her life. You are able to see her ups, and, especially her downs; so I really hope that she not only sees the hope from the beauty in Penelope, but the friendship from you.
She must know that she can count on you and that is truly the gift you have given her....Penelope is just a reminder.
A beautifully written blog to remind us that kindness never hurts.
Thank you.
Bear hugs xx

the room above the garage Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:21am

Howdy Bear, lovely to see your furry self :-) love ratg x.

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:23am

Do you know, my liddle RATG...I was just a thinking the same about you! Furry too!! Biggeet Bear hugs xx

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 12:00pm

Lovely to see Bear and RATG again - seriously miss HO.

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:33pm

ImissHO' x

Sally Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:31am

Lovely, elegant piece, Audrey. Thank you so much. Peacocks are inspiring and beautiful. You and Old Bean are turning them to best advantage, not just pretty but a source of comfort too. We need such things in our life and you have expressed that beautifully , Audrey.

LH Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 9:58am

Hi Audrey, thanks for your uplifting blog. I find thoughtfulness from friends so life-affirming and try to be thoughtful to others. You and your good friend are blessed to have each other (and P&P of course!) Take care x

Valerie Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 10:16am

Morning Audrey.

I have a peacock themed sitting room.Pride of place is a life-sized stone and glass peacock.Commissioned for me as a birthday gift in '68 by my ex-husband.There was quite a custody battle over him,but I won!

Can I say what a lovely person you are to have made this sweet gesture to cheer up Oldest Bean.And of course,Peter now has his ladylove.
You and your friend sound just adorable.Please write more blogs,and big hugs to you and Oldest Bean.xx

Salt Water Mum Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 10:26am

Morning Audrey and Moodscopers,

Lovely blog. So much subtext there - the power of friendship. The image of your friend hanging upside down from that rollercoaster and you calling up 'hang on, it'll be okay you know'.... that's powerful, that's kindness personified, that's friendship.

El, I'm sorry I didn't comment on your blog but I hope you are enjoying your holiday. I know exactly what you are going through and I wish you lots of strength and calm. And never forget how brave you've been.

Carol-Anne, you are so right it's a great quote 'its okay not to be okay...' (You might enjoy the song 'It's alright not to feel okay' by Irish Indie band Heathers - It's cool !)


Melanie Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 10:29am

Such a sweet nourishing blog. Thank you Audrey! xoxoxo

Jul Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 12:27pm

This is rather a nice blog Audrey. I read it very quickly first thing and thought the Old Beans were you and your partner and the peacocks were real. I started to imagine them strutting about in front of a huge stately home and then my thoughts went to the zoo in Limoges where the peacocks do just that in front of a run down chateau which is at the entrance to the zoo. I was going to ask you if Peter and Penelope like popcorn as all the children buy small bags of the stuff at the ticket booth to give to the animals. The peacocks are always there first. Oh dear. All wrong!! But now, re reading your lovely blog, I see what it is all about (and what it's not about!). What a dear friend you are. We all need you Audrey and when I go to Limoges zoo later this month I will definitely think of you and Penelope and Peter. Jul xx

Angela Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:20pm

Thanks Audrey for your blog, it made me feel warm inside x x

Dolphin Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:26pm

Thanks for your beautiful blog Audrey. And a toast to wonderful friends and friendship. There's one bit I am going to take for myself. I had a dreadful night and feel nauseous and low today. I think I need a Peter or Penelope of my own and will look for something that can seek comfort from. xx

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:33pm

Waving a Bear paw at you Dolphin....hope a liddle wave (!) helps you on your way out of nausea (and seasickness?!) with Bear hugs x

Dolphin Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:50pm

Thanks dear Bear for the support and a laugh!! x

Dolphin Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:49pm

And a message for David. David, this is not a place where you have to keep up appearances or put yourself down before someone else does. For me, speaking honestly from the heart is healing in itself, however minor the step is. Try it ... x

Mary S Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 1:53pm

Audrey I hope you are pursuing a writing career in some form, because that is really brilliant !!

Brum Mum Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 2:39pm

What a lovely friend you are, Audrey!

Laura RB Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 4:44pm

Audrey - this piece is beautiful in every way. The words you chose are inspiring and make me want to go work on my book! Please keep writing - you have a ton of talent!

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:21pm

Hi Audrey, like Jul, I had to read this again before I understood it properly, then it clicked into place, a very clever piece of writing and very heart warming xx

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 5:31pm

I seem to have got in a right muddle above - if Mr G was in his previous right and highly critical mind he would note lack of punctuation, leaving out nouns, moving on to one subject without finishing another - good example of mania, in fact, though things are manic. Please don't report me to the RSPCA - and I ditto Molly re symbolism of blog.

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 6:13pm

Not sure I am buying this one Gardener, whilst I know punctuation can affect a sentence, 'probably on a par with my obdurate visitor' does not relate to your next sentence unless you are telling the cat to 'snap out of it' or 'not snap out of it' which in this case I don't suppose the cat can snap out of it. I did ring the RSPCA but they said they would find it difficult to find 'The Gardener' in France, I explained you probably have the best garden ever and they said that would make it easier for them to find you. Sorry, dry humour there. I'm saying a little prayer for that cat, perhaps you could pass it on please. Molly xx

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 6:54pm

I had to read it again too to confirm what from the beginning of reading puzzled me. The male and female peacocks do not look the same . They actually look completely different. It would be impossible to mistake one for the other . So Audrey bought another male peacock and if we go on with the story as an homosexual affair there is nothing wrong with it. Actually it is very contemporary .

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 6:56pm

poor The Gardener getting it today instead of David on top of Mr. G.

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 6:59pm

oh ! .. but I came here to get a life ! none going ? all gone ? please save one for me tomorrow or tell me where to get one .. David .. any ideas ? or maybe David could write a blog and explain to me what a life actually is ? I will be waiting patiently . I promise . take as much time as you need .

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:17pm

So Funny !!!

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:04pm

sorry to be so petty re. female peacock but I think that it is a much better arrangement than a human one where a male has to dress up to impress a female.

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:09pm

Anonymous - you have given me a giggle :-) xx

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:16pm

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:23pm

OMG - I am wetting myself now - honestly that is so very funny. All is forgiven Gardener xx

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:53pm

Thank you Molly . Laughter was the intention. And the cat was guilty . No trespassing is a very English trait = probably wanted to steal something but if TG killed it she would have been in a lot of trouble as English worship cats not so French - they are cool no not cool but cold , however in The USA ? well well Trump will build a wall to keep all the cats away but not fat cats , wall street cats no they will get best positions in government , so it all depends ...

The Gardener Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:17pm

Audrey - I am really sorry your blog seemed to get hi-jacked - my day was challenging, weakest adjective I could find, and I was challenged. The blog was excellent, thank you very much - hope you find more praise for it among the verbiage, and that you will find more inspiration

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:57pm

TG it is the first time that I see you apologising for writing about something else . no need for that . some moodscopers scroll to your comments and leave the rest. some look for HO only - for a joke . All to their need to apology especially when Audrey does not even see it. or maybe she does ???

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 7:31pm

Hi Audrey. Whether or not the collective term for these beautiful birds is "peafowl", I applaud the sentiment of your blog. The symbolism of 'peacocks' is fascinating and I urge fellow Moodscopers to learn more about them. Go well.

Adrian Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 8:40pm

Thank you Audrey for such a lovely blog truly lovely – you have enlivened my evening

David Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 10:55pm

Hello all Moodscopers, I do not have to defend myself as there is a case for free speech which now seems in short supply on here.

I do not post under a false or Anonymous name.

These blogs have like all Social Media, trolls who I definitely do not answer to.

I will now get on with my life as I have up to now without the bullying techniques used on here.

Good Luck to you all.

David Gosling

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:35pm

David, I actually stuck up for you today as I thought you were making a joke, but obviously you weren't. I think you will find everyone on here is anonymous. Why do you feel you have to give your full name, and how do we know if that is your real name, and does it matter anyway! It is unnecessary to make the sort of remarks that you make. Your comments rarely contain any substance at all. I can understand if you have anger in you that you want to dispose of, but I suggest that you do that elsewhere because this is not the place to be doing it. Your comment about trolls is interesting, I hate to break this to you, but you are one yourself. Therefore I hope Moodscopers will take your own advice and not respond to you anymore. Good luck to you too in getting on with your amazing life. You do have one right?

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:31pm

why would you need to defend yourself David ? Nobody is attacking you . A little bit of your own medicine and you put such a serious name to it ? Bullying ? Is it now ? I did not know ? And what exactly do you find so hurtful ? Please do not offend the ones that are really bullied or trolled . Exactly who do you call a troll ? Which anonymous is a troll ? I would like to know as it is a very serious accusation. You think that if you put your real name to it you may say anything you want . Of course you can and everybody has a right to use an anonymous option . It is an option . A valid option . Actually I chose to post as anonymous because I do not want to boast under my real name how clever I am e.g. etc. ....

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:44pm

male and female - completely different

Molly Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:59pm

Anonymous, you are being cruel now, the joke has gone too far. Please do not take away the excellent blog that Audrey put on today.

Anonymous Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:45pm

TG - haven't you noticed that Audrey has not answered anybody ?

Caroline the Moodscope Team Sun, Aug 6th 2017 @ 12:04am

Hi Anonymous, I'm sure Audrey will but she may well just be out for the day. Unfortunately, I don't always have the chance to give the writers much notice as to when their blogs are being published. I'm sure she'll read all the comments in time. Caroline

Caroline the Moodscope Team Sat, Aug 5th 2017 @ 11:58pm

Hi David, one of the benefits of Moodscope is that people can comment anonymously as not everyone wishes to be identified - as I'm sure you know, there is still stigma attached to any form of mental health and therefore giving people the freedom to stay anonymous is essential to allow people to say what they really feel and share their experiences. We don't have trolls on this site - if we did I'd soon get rid of them!

The people who have commented are trying to work out why you are being derogatory by telling them to get a life. It's quite an odd thing to say and I also would like to know why you continue to bring it up. Perhaps you could explain why you are saying this and what you exactly mean as you don't know anyone on the site personally so would not be able to comment on whether someone 'has a life' or not.

I think we should drop this issue now. I would ask that none of the other members comments on it again and I would ask that you refrain from saying it.

Many thanks. Caroline

Caroline the Moodscope Team Sun, Aug 6th 2017 @ 12:06am

Oh, and just before I go, I would like to say that I thought this was a particularly lovely blog. Thank you Audrey. Caroline

Audrey Mon, Aug 7th 2017 @ 9:52am

Dear Caroline Thank you I was beginning to regret posting it as it seems to have caused a furore! I wish you and all bloggers, each and every one a happy day.

David Sun, Aug 6th 2017 @ 6:58am

Thank you, Caroline,

I realise that my comments have seriously offended certain members and will refrain from commentating anymore.

I believe in using my own name as I have nothing to hide and to reduce the stigma and to be honest about who I am.

I do not see why members have to hide when on this private and confidential site, surely honesty and integrity with morals and ethics are paramount.

Kind regards,


Mary Wednesday Mon, Aug 7th 2017 @ 2:09am

Late to the party again. I found this to be a beautiful and lyrical blog, and the thoughts on friendship uplifting and inspiring.

Molly Mon, Aug 7th 2017 @ 2:39am

Mary, you did miss a good party, but we are now all sobering up :-) Some got kicked out of the party, some were allowed to remain, some came back with a mask on and some just told the truth. Audrey's blog was good wasn't it. That is real friendship there, hard to find xx

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