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Just imagine. Sunday March 22, 2015

This blog is fully inspired by my children. I have 3 young children that all love imaginary play...and they all love mum to be involved. They each have their own specific favourites they like to play so I am kept very busy in various different roles. This week I have been, in no particular order, a mummy tiger, baby tiger, dog, puppy, school pupil, black pig (a very frequent and specific requirement by the 2 year old!) a monster, pop star, restaurant customer, cat, dog rescue person, doctor, super hero and a horse!!

I have always engaged in this type of play with them but over the past few months I have noticed that my ability to actually be present in mind, not just in body, has increased.

Before, whilst crawling round the house (with a lead attached to me) and barking periodically, I would be thinking of the washing up that needs doing, the tumble dryer that needs emptying, the ironing pile that's spilling over the basket etc. So whilst I was there with them, at their very mercy and complying with their strange requests, I wasn't mentally there and therefore was just going through the motions to keep them happy.

However, in a bid to resurrect my ability to experience my "free child" I have started to approach this creative play with a different mindset and allow myself to be fully present in the moment and embrace the acting requirements. And I have had so much fun and received so much satisfaction from doing so.

My stint as a popstar however, provided me with the inspiration to tackle an issue I have with listening to music. I love music but for a few years now I have struggled with being able to listen to it because I just find it too painful. Either a specific song or just lyrics in general will trigger a memory, a thought or emotion and I kind of gave up listening to anything because my mood would just plummet.

I miss music though and would love to be able to just turn on the radio without being so negatively effected. So spurred on by pretending to be Katy Perry with my daughter, I have resorted to driving to work, music full blast and imagining myself on stage singing and owning the emotion. And I have to say it's working. I have been able to drive to work, playing a CD that I love but would previously have me in floods of tears.

I have taken it a step further and, if the song is something to do with love or healing, I imagine that I'm singing to my inner child. Now, my singing skills are not good at all and unfortunately no amount of pretending is going to improve this. So for now, my inner musical goddess is confined to the boundaries of the car, but I am hoping that in time music may be able to re-enter my life without my need to screech along with it!

Rosie
A Moodscope member.


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Comments

Lauren Farrow Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 12:46am

Exactly, Sing like no one is listening!
... and no one is listening in your car, so use your lungs and let out your inner child!

Great post.

Hopeful One Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 6:49am

Hi Rosie- a lovely blog. I imagined all those play scenarios and felt so glad that in the process you also 'found' yourself. Life is but a series of those moments for yesterday cannot be changed and tomorrow is yet to happen. I am into Omar Khayyam at the moment so this seemed vaguely appropriate.

Ah ,my Beloved,fill the Cup that clears
Today of past Regrets and future Fears-
Tomorrow?- Why tomorrow I may be
Myself with Yesterday's Sev'n Thousand
Years.

The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam verse 20

Bunnykins Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 10:39am

What a lovely post, I still feel guilty for not playing with my Daughters when they were small and wanted me to play shops etc. Depression-anxiety-ocd stole my life as well as an abusive& domineering husband who only cared about his own life/pleasures. Hoping and praying to let go of the bitterness I feel - it hinders my Mental health.
Hugs & warm wishes to my fellow Moodscopers x x x x

Julia Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 10:54am

Playing with small children can be terribly boring! I can't remember my mother ever playing with me as many mothers feel compelled to or want to do today. I admire Rosie for her play times with her 3 children but Bunnykins, please don't feel guilt about yours. There are so many mothers who don't work and spend all day with their children but admit they don't like these imaginary games their children ask them to join in with. I don't know if fathers enjoy it either or grandparents!.I know want you mean Rosie about certain music being too emotional to listen to but well done, you are getting there! Lovely post today.

Laura Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 1:55pm

This is awesome, Rosie! I'm convinced that I was never a child - I remember very little from that time. I have been a serious person since high school, at least (I'm 46 now), and I find it impossible to "let loose" and be silly or have unadulterated fun. But it helps me to read about people like you, who have found strategies and ways to enjoy life and overcome mental health obstacles. Congratulations! :)

Amanda Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 6:37pm

Hi Rosie
I too have the problem with listening to music as it either annoys me if it's on the radio and I don't like the song, or it produces too much of an emotional response.
I have never been able to remember lyrics and have lost most of my voice through heavy smoking. However those oldies that make it almost impossible not to dance help to raise my mood. I keep meaning to use the kids Wii "just Dance" as nearly all the music on there has mean sashaying or hopping around the kitchen like a maniac and I find it quite hard to be miserable when"performing" whatever routine comes into my head. Hopefully the neighbours can't see! It doesn't work quite so well in the car, but if I'm a passenger I'll be doing a little bop in my seat , hands clapping, arms waving etc. if these "get up and dance" songs come on the radio. Great respect to you for having the patience to act out all those roles. Luckily my kids have outgrown that stage now- phew! Now if I can just figure out how to work the Wii by myself ........

Anonymous Sun, Mar 22nd 2015 @ 7:00pm

Amanda, how to work the Wii - now you've hit on something I've been trying to work out for a while. I love the 'just Dance' Wii thingy and have done it with the kids and would love to do it on my own, but can't work it out!!! Caroline. Moodscope.com

Annie Thu, Mar 26th 2015 @ 11:44am

Thank you for this - I found it inspiring and heartening. Music is such a great thing for lifting mood - and everyone CAN sing. Just do it! Annie.

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