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If I were young again... Thursday August 27, 2015

If I were young again, I’d pay attention
To that little - known dimension.
A taste of seemingly endless time,
A life and space that would always rhyme

In those days we were single – we lived them one by one.
Now we hardly see ‘em – they don’t walk - they run.
As we all got older – we all did more and more,
And some such beautiful things, then became a chore.

It’s just so hard to leave these ‘cages’ of our thinking,
From which by its stages we’re just sinkin’.
We move from seeming joy, to a more uncertain time,
We move from being human – down to a slow decline.

The more we remember – the quicker we forget,
Then we find ourselves – emotionally in debt.
That’s without the money and the often inevitable marriage,
And all the other, new grown up adult baggage.

These races that we’ve run, were not for glory,
There is no moral to this story –
We run for peace of mind.
But the race we’re running now is never-ending –
space and time are bending,
And there’s no finish line.

So how do we run our own race - that rich and deeper ‘inscape’.
To unlearn that IQ process – and thus to internally reshape.
What is important in our lives,
That separates and then divides.
Our heart from head and soul from sense,
As modern life and ‘stuff’ becomes intense.

It’s then we have to go back and reveal,
That magic about times that were real.
To become childlike once again,
Before we all - turn insane.
We have to go get back in touch,
And let money go from being a crutch.

If I were young again, I’d pay attention –
To that little - known dimension.
A taste of seemingly endless time,
A life and space that would always rhyme.

So, what can you do today

- that helps find time again?
- that can help refrain your situation?
- that helps find your joy?

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Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.

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Julia Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 8:39am

Ah Les! I often try to re capture these feelings I had when younger. If only I could have bottled them up at the time and open the bottle every now and again. Little things like I used to love the autumn leaves on the pavement, wrapped up in my winter coat and walking somewhere I was looking forward to reaching. Thick snow outside and that glowing feeling coming inside after playing on our sledges. I do try to immerse myself sometimes in the cool Autumnal morning air or on the beach in the Summer but I don't stay with that feeling long enough and it's never quite the same. Those deep rooted memories (they are not memories but intense feelings..difficult to describe) are elusive but I shall continue to try to catch them. I am sure if I do the days will seem longer!

Lex Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 9:39am

I wonder what stops us? One of the things I continue to enjoy is a child-like awe of Nature. I have an Oak tree at the top of our Cul-de-Sac that has enough space to be itself without competition. Sometimes I just stop and gaze at it's beauty, but there is always the internal voice that says, "You've got to get back to work." I know Transactional Analysis talks about Parent Adult and Child. So perhaps this is my Parent bossing my well-behaved but dreamy Child. Anyway, I wish the Parent would shut up and let me dream...

susan Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 9:58am

Oh me you are suggesting an unlearning of all the incorrect thinking we've accumulated through life which took us away from that 'taste of seemingly endless time' where we were still connected to everything around us...before we separated ourselves from the wonder of it all. To me this is a spiritual journey, back to our true selves. I'm ready for it but have NO idea how to start!!! Thanks for the challenge. susan xx

susan Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 10:05am

Dear Julia, you have certainly 'opened the bottle' for me this morning and transferred the intense feelings associated with those beautiful memories. Thank you. susan xx

Julia Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 10:09am

XXX Susan

Victoria Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 2:03pm

I came for a bit of support today. My work is cutting the amount of available parking spaces by 75%. I have raised issues all the way through the process for various classes of people, including those, like me, who are covered by the Equality Act. I feel like nobody cares. Today for the umpteenth time I'm told to think of all the other ppl affected: parents, those who live further away etc. and I just want to cry. I'm not unsympathetic and have in fact raised issues on their behalf and for my team. But the point of EA is that I shouldn't have to beg for information and help! I don't want people implying I'm unselfish and unfair, as if I wouldn't give up this pain and depression if I could. Would they like me to beat them repeatedly until they hurt like me? I'm sorry to rant. I started work at 6.30am because I feel guilty for taking leave next week and having an osteopath appt today and I'm tired. I wouldn't normally use this space but I wanted to come where ppl would understand. Thank you.

Bearofliddlebrain Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 2:24pm

Victoria, I do hope you feel better for your chat with us and getting things off your chest....I don't think anyone will really mind if you use this space for whatever helps you overcome what's happening to you at the moment.....
If you can help it, please don't overwork yourself now to make up for your time off next week...or you won't enjoy the days won't be fit enough. After your osteopath appointment today, get a cuppa, sit somewhere where you can just look at something beautiful from nature, and remember the times when you were either more pain-free...or totally pain-free...perhaps Les' great words can evoke wonderful memories like Julia has had today...I too remembered autumn leaves and taking them in to my teacher in primary school...or running through lapping waves at the sea's edge and freezing toes as the water was so cold as it rose above my knees! The smell of the annual bonfire and fireworks and how they seemed so amazing and loud and there were hundreds of them, when, in fact there were only about ten as we didn't have much money!! Be kind to yourself, Victoria and do enjoy your time away from work...starting Friday evening, I hope, if not before!! Karen x x

Les, thank you for such thought-provoking words to us all.
Karen :)

susan Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 4:54pm

Hi Victoria, i hope you really enjoy the break you deserve. Perhaps your guilt is a function of how badly you really do need a break, because it's surely false guilt!? As for the parking situation, you probably feel very alone and frustrated; I hope it resolves quickly. Have a lovely break. susan xx

Julia Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 6:00pm

Oh poor thing Victoria. It is very unfair that you are treated like this. It sounds almost illegal. Les would have a lot to say about work issues which affect us and would say it much better than me. All I can say is I echo Karen and Susan's kind comments and it's so good you felt sure enough of us to let off steam about an issue unrelated to the blog. Good for you. I am sure I have done this in the past. And Karen, that fireworks and bonfire smell in the back garden. Magic.

Victoria Thu, Aug 27th 2015 @ 9:43pm

Thank you for the kind and thoughtful comments. They have prompted me to read Les' work properly this time, and it is exactly what I need. Time to take a deep breath of sea air, sit on the beach in the rain because we're British dammit, buy shop bought cake and fish and chips and hold hands. Thank you to Les and everyone. I'll think of you tomorrow when I see the sea x

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