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I lost my mind. Sunday June 18, 2017

But not in the way you might have initially thought. I've been losing my mind very happily over the last 6 months or so...

Like many of us, I have a constant chatter pecking away in my head. Mostly I am so familiar with it that its presence does not even register. I use meditation to not only help me deal with the chatter but also to simply become aware of it. The chatter has been damaging me for too long, just another aspect of this hideous ill, and I am calling time on it.

However, even after committing to regular meditation (with regular pauses and no apologies, its life) I still found myself at times fretting, having whole conversations in my head, replaying problems of my own as well as age-related and very normal problems my children were having. Not helpful. Upsetting and damaging.

Then I fell into territory I hadn't realised was such a gift. I fell into paradise! I fell into Desert Island Discs (A BBC TV programme in the UK: There are parts of my working day when I need to be with people, be quiet, still and concentrate. And there are other parts when I can turn up sound and be more free as I work. In those times, I started listening to Desert Island Discs.

Not only have I heard some songs that I adore. Not only have I heard new songs to adore. Not only have I been enchanted by the host and her skilful, tip-of-a-pin precision interviews. I have also heard from people from all manner of walks of life and parts of the world, heard bits of their joy, their work, their sorrows, their history, their future, their honesty, their guilt, their life, their hopes and regrets. And for 30 minutes (which is a godsend to those of us who struggle with concentration due to this ill) I can do practical tasks which can run alongside audio well and I can listen, learn and lose my mind to the life of someone else. It has been a godsend.

Chatter silenced. Happy ears on. Peace becomes me. For a little holiday, I urge you to try it. Podcasts are available for historical episodes or you can tune in weekly. And I will be extremely interested to receive your 8 chosen tracks, your book and your luxury.

Love from
The room above the garage.

Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.

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Sarah yellow rose Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 8:05am

Ratg thank you for your interesting post. I almost couldn't believe it, as I was thinking the same thing on Friday. I woke up feeling sad due to someone's rude comments to me the day before and I listened to Rick Wakeman on Desert Island Discs and it completely changed my mood and as you say it was so honest. I've actually met him, he is a really warm and genuine man apart from being a brilliant pianist. I have heard many other's on the programme and I agree they are all interesting. I've often wondered what I would pick as like you, I love music. I like a huge variety too. Jazz, Rock, Pop, Big band , Classical, Opera, 70's eg Baker Street by Gerry Rafferty. As for the other choices I would need to give it some thought!
Incase anyone can't guess, Rick chose a piano as his luxury, at that moment, I thought "how lovely to be able to be totally absorbed by his love of the piano, pure joy" Sarah x

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:35am

Sarah this is really funny because I've been listening to the old episodes from way back and travelling up to present day. On Friday I decided to jump to the most recent ones and work back, and Rick was my Friday companion too! :-)

Sarah yellow rose Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 12:25pm

Yes , this community is so unique because I feel I know so many people on here. This is not the first time we've been thinking on the same lines! Thanks for your reply

Jane SG Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 4:54pm

I love your name 'Sarah yellow rose.'

David Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 8:51am

An R4 world-class programme and we are all equal on a Desert Island.

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:35am

I agree! What are your 8 tracks?

Rachel Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 9:05am

I adore Desert Island discs for all the reasons you mention and it gives you that half an hour relief on bad days. On OK days it it good to have in your arsenal and part of an enriching routine to stay well. As well as the podcasts the book is also rather wonderful to dip in and out of!

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:36am

Excellent, I didn't know there was a book!

LH Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 10:54am

Great blog
For me would be lots of Mozart, A confederancy of dunces which is so funny, and a really comfy bed.
Have a good day.

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:37am

Thank you, I love to hear what is most important when everything else is stripped away, enjoy!

The Gardener Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:28am

Really got me going RATG - something to concentrate on. When we were young the radio was vital - all we had, no piped music, wind up gramaphone! Now, the wireless is part of my 'management' system. Radio 4 in the mornings (Desert Island discs included) then either France Musique or Musique Classique (the latter still what I call 'cotton wool' music, i.e. pop classics, but much better than Classic FM). I thought you'd be inundated. Did my list in 5 minutes, written in the 'notes' page of my diary. Music, in no particular order, Jerusalem, 23rd psalm to 'Crimond' (problem with that choice, be in perpetual tears). Bridge over Troubled Water, Saints go Marching in, Ode to Joy, Marseillaise ? (complementary to Jerusalem, living in two countries) Panis Angelicus and Milord with Edith Piaf. Book, compendium of Alan Coren, luxury a box of canvas, embroider silks and needles - never had time to do embroidery (scissors of course, my teeth might fall out and would have to call up a shark to cut the silk). To Sarah Yellow Rose - I never thought I liked jazz, but France Musique does a programme called 'Bonsaie' from 7 to 8 our time, fantastic range of jazz.

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:39am

Hello beautiful lady! How great that it's part of your system. I find it valuable adult company being a single parent of three and so it might be similar for you given Mr TG's company can be tough. Does he listen too?

Sarah yellow rose Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 12:29pm

Thank you Gardener, we have a local jazz club with many guests who have played all over, including Ronnie Scots. Originally I went to accompany my Dad and sister, but now I really enjoy it.

The Gardener Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:30am

Did not explain 'management' Mr G is very unpredictable after respite - and I sit, with Radio 4 and my knitting - it's so good and varied late afternoon - Last Words, Inside Science, Beyond Belief among others.

the room above the garage Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 11:40am

I haven explored radio 4 dry much to be honest, and now you've given me ideas to follow, thank you :-)

The Gardener Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 12:59pm

RATG, you asked me if Mr G listened. I really do not know, except there is a distinct 'down' side. Alzheimers provokes acute anxiety, he will pick up on ANY disaster, current or the anniversary of something long ago - not helped by language - all French at church, then English on the wireless. Jazz. Second son an afficionado, took us to Ronnie Scotts - what ambience! He also, with his wife, went to a world jazz festival in Cuba when few people went there. I think they travelled on ex-Aeroflot planes, said cabin crew straight out of SMERSH. Although in my 50's at University, I went to everything. One Summer Ball George Melly cancelled, we got Acker Bilk - the venue was dangerously over-crowded. I am having a seriously bad day, so Moodscope a vital 'escape hatch'. But, I'm going to re-start playing my piano - if only I had some money, I'd have lessons. Another thing for the list when the other house is sold - Please God I won't be too old.

Tutti Frutti Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 3:19pm

Great blog. I have fond memories of desert island discs having grown up with Radio 4 on for large parts of the day. I find myself putting radio 4 on more often these days myself and am rediscovering some of the old favourites although it is a while since I last heard desert island discs.

I do remember working out my list a few times and I remember that the music is supposed to go with particular points in your life so that you can discuss them in the interview.
So it would have to start with Fur Elise - I often lay in bed when very little to the sounds of my Dad playing the piano downstairs and as far as I remember there were only 2 tunes he actually played. I tend to play Fur Elise myself a lot these days.
I'd need some sort of 80's classic for teenage years; careless whisper, get into the groove, working as a waitress in a cocktail bar etc?
Then I'd need Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody for university - Queen was a big thing among the other mathematicians in my year. It was obligatory listening if I wanted to work with them and I ended up hooked. I might also have 'Don't try so hard'as the lyrics speak to me and I played it a lot when revising for finals!
Dear Lord and Father of Mankind - my favourite hymn and played at my wedding.
Those are the only links I have to my life but I'd also like:
Mozart's requiem for listening/singing along to.
Rachmaninov's second piano concerto
Stuff from Abba and Grease for singing along to and cheering myself up

The book is really difficult because you are only supposed to take one. How do you choose between Jane Austen, PG Wodehouse, and Harry Potter?

Possibly a piano for the luxury - but it will need to come with a supply of suitable music.

love to all TFx

Jane SG Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 4:56pm

TF - yes, yes, yes to much of this! Human League, Madonna. And Jane A and Harry Potter. All bliss!

The Gardener Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 4:36pm

I'm always intrigued at what gets Moodscopers 'going'. I was convinced that this blog would wind people up - being a nice bit of light relief at a rather grim time. Depending on rules, is it one book, or can it be an author's collection? Harry Potter (never read one, would you believe) would win on number of pages. I chose Alan Coren because it would remind me how silly was the world I once inhabited.

Another Sally Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 5:02pm

What a wonderful subject for a blog. I love Desert Island Discs, not that I listen all that often. Does anyone else love the Shipping Forecast?. When I was little we often drove from London to North Wales, for holidays, setting out very early. My parents had the radio on in the car (no cd's or tv's in those days) so the SF has many memories of setting off early early in the morning.
After my daughter got married, I was ferrying party guests home at midnight and put on the Shipping Forecast. Drunken youths in the back thought it was hilarious. When the reader announced that it was "Gale force 7 in the Minches" I had to pull over I was laughing so much - I was sober to drive. It still makes me smile.
Like TG I would have Jerusalem, that we had at our wedding, but there are too many good tunes to only have 8. As for books, again difficult to choose, but a boxed set of Harry Potter would keep me going - He and his friends would be good companions on a desert island.
Enough. Sending waves and hugs. Xx

Jane SG Sun, Jun 18th 2017 @ 5:04pm

Hello RATG, nice blog to come home to after stressful day at my parents. Bless them.

Desert Island Discs is fab but I don't get the chance to listen to it very often.

Songs - many of the aforementioned. Also - Simple Thing (John Lewis Ad!); Bright Eyes; I wanna dance with somebody who loves me (Whitney); We are the champions; today's gonna be the best day of my life; Rule the World; Something inside so strong; Zoom; Take on Me. Thats 8, there are so many more! E.g. and Sheeran. Taylor Swift. Chariots of Fire - the whole album is beautiful. Waltz of the Flowers. Meat Loaf! My tastes vary widely!!!!! Book - A Dark and Distant Shore, Luxery - yes time to play the piano. Or bubble bath with candles. Xx

Eva Mon, Jun 19th 2017 @ 8:00am

Hi ratg, I think Sunday's are different blogging and response days as folks have different responsibilities. I love DID its also part of my health care tools. I also find reading biographies does the same job, I first worked this out reading Letters to Ma, by Joyce Grenfell I wasn't in a great place at the time, but I realised that u wasn't alone at that point and that and other biogs have given me great comfort over the years.

Coming up with a definite DID list, that's a tall order... How to choose... I'd need Mary Ann by Alice Cooper, Dirty old town (my dad used to sing it to me) Don't fear the reaper by Blue Oyster Cult, some Pucinni, Behind the wheel by Depeche Mode, Almost Diamonds by mark Almond, lungs by Florence and the machine, Kashmir by Led Zeppelin. I'd take a really long biography... And paper watercolours and an easel.

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