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Human Dis-Illusion. Friday October 2, 2015

Humans are imperfect beings,
The trouble is they so like 'doing'.
They so wish for such 'wrong' things,
It's that bloody head that they keep 'wooing'.

They 'do' more things,
And their mind takes 'wings'.
They lose themselves,
In 'gold' that stings.

Cars and trinkets,
Fill their minds.
When hearts and souls,
Would be far more kind.

Things 'out there' never succeed,
And yet this life is full of greed.
Still there's hope in a little seed,
That says less is more, with less speed.

That escaping life to get away,
From 'normal' life that takes place each day.
By 'buying' more things that distract the mind,
Only prostitutes you and makes you 'blind'.

There's also work that always stops you,
From looking in to find the pain.
We fill our day with endless stuff,
And that's what drives anyone insane!

In doing so, we neglect to look,
Inside us, where all pain resides.
We think we'll avoid it by looking away,
But that is where all hope abides.

Some run faster until they die,
Thinking they can leave it all behind.
Some just run and fall each day,
Hoping sleep will wash it away.

But there's nowhere to go,
In this life of ours.
To avoid who we are,
We simply devour.
The truth inside,
The past in us.
The answer to,
Our human truss.

Humans are imperfect beings,
The trouble is they so like 'doing'.
They so wish for such wrong things,
It's the heart they need to now start 'wooing'.

What thoughts does this poem raise for you?

Les
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Liane Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 6:21am

Intellectually I agree. We choose the easiest path to finding satisfaction - that desire for a quick fix to happiness. We need the reminder to slow down, take time to enjoy life, strive to look inside and search what we already possess, and then selectively add the external skills or trinkets to balance our world. Yes, we add too much, too fast, for short term solutions. Thank you, Les, for the reminder.
"God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I can change; COURAGE to change the things I can; and WISDOM to know the difference."

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:27am

Hi L There is no short cut to anywhere worth going..............

Liane Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 6:41am

.....SERENITY to accept the things I CANNOT change....

Louise Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 6:48am

Les,

This and yesterday's post actually fit together rather beautifully for me as mindfulness tries to teach us rushing folks to sit, be, and be in the moment. Hard to do with a full 'to do' list and a culture that teaches us to always be onto the next thing, the next thing.

As I read your poem it didn't just chime with me but rang loud, clanging bells! I will take notice of this and read it again later and see if I have manage to "be" today and not just "do".

Thanks

Lou

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:28am

Hi Louise Did you read it again and manage to 'be' more than 'do'?

Louise Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 6:08am

Hi Les, sadly not. Bit of a frantic day in the end. BUT! I have come back today to have another go..;)

Les Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 12:28am

Hi Louise Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm You realise that the word 'but' eradicates everything that goes before it........ E.G. I really like you but.............. Be careful of the words you use....

Bearofliddlebrain Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 7:00am

I think the quick-fix 'If only I had the latest ....(insert any gadget of current choice!)...then everything in my life would be perfect'...scenario, is the one we have to learn to avoid. But that comes with time, age and repetition!! The more you do it and see that actually, life is still the same, even with...(said gadget) the quicker you realise what the really important things are: well-being, friendships, love, kindness, thoughtfulness....And hate to say it but with only eleven and a half weeks to go til (ssh...whisper it quietly...) Christmas, how many peeps will put themselves through the costs, financially and emotionally, of having the latest craze/must-have? Apologies for having brought up the 'C' word, dear friends.

We probably do hold on to things that we should let go of: feelings of hurt, rejection (see Leah's blog yesterday) and physical things: adornments for the home and garden - but at the time of buying or receiving, they were giving some peace and tranquility in life; then there are the ornaments, things your granny gave you, things your kids bought for you, when on a school trip; there are letters, birthday or postcards...hard to get rid of things as they hold memories, especially when the person they were from is no longer with you.
Cheers, Les,
Bear x

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:29am

Hi Bear So....what r u going to 'let go' of..?

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 3:39pm

Trying to let go of feelings of hurt and rejection from family members, who really aren't worth hanging on to. Bear :(

Les Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 12:30am

Hey Bear There's that word 'trying'....... There is no 'try' only do an don't do. Try and lift you right hand now. You either did or you didn't.....there is no 'try'........... IN other words, you didn't let go of the feelings...........you gave yourself brief comfort thinking about it........yet didn't.

Zareen Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 9:27am

This is brilliant & speaks clearly to me at this point! Thanks for sharing.

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:30am

Hi Zareen Will you make any changes tho....? If so what.........? To know and not to be is not to know.....!

Debs Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 9:46am

I love it Les, at the moment I'm working on being conscious in life without distraction. And by distraction not just material distraction but also food, alcohol, work, shopping, TV, mindless conversation, gossip and all the other multitude of things that keep us doing instead of being. It's incredibly hard but (I believe... and who knows where truth lies!)is the ultimate path to true peace and fulfilment. Of course the problem is pain comes in the space of just being and the temptation to fill the space with something (chocolate in my case!) is huge but it's a day by day challenge. I'm facing the pain as it comes, regularly dipping into distraction and then coming back out again. It's a slow and tricky path but I'm done running ;-)
Thank you for capturing the journey so eloquently in words. xxx

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:33am

Hi Debs Breaking habits is hard.....and there needs to be a bigger 'want to' (EQ) than 'need to' (IQ).... The greatest change in life is a change of heart. 'I'm done running'......let's hope you are and can continue to start walking...

Dawn Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 10:23am

Great post Les :D
The thought that stood out for me most is:
I found it fascinating how you used the word prostitute for buying things to help you feel better. We spend hard earned cash for whatever our vice is. For me it is craft and lots of heart shaped things (i do use the craft to bless other people), I also buy myself little 'projects' only to find that I put it down in the bag, later tidy it away and find it again months later. The buzz or excitement always leaves me very soon after the purchase.
Bearofliddlebrain, repetition has recently taught me that I do this. Shockingly I see myself in some old people that have bought things and filled up their house for this same reason.
It is quite a wake up call to realise that... maybe I am lonely?
Warmest wishes, Dawn x

Bearofliddlebrain Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 2:21pm

It might be loneliness, Dawn, :( but I think sometimes we want to surround ourselves with comfy, pretty things..like the hearts and flowers, crochet, knitting etc., and there's nowt wrong with that - especially if you are making the items too! But when out shopping, if you do find something to buy that you really like, I think a good thing to do is...big step here....back away from it and the shop! Think about the item, seriously, and only go back to buy it if you really, really think it will give longer-lasting pleasure than the initial 'look what I've just bought' reaction that we often feel and as you say, soon after the purchase is home the buzz has left. I've just done that very thing today...saw a gorgeous skirt, in the sale, then left it and by the time we had walked around the other shops, I'd completely forgotten about the skirt...in fact, I've only just remembered it now!! We have come home without spending anything apart from sarnies for lunch!! Bearhugsx

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:37am

Hi Dawn The questions we ask ourselves are so enlightening....the fact that the question is there......means our sub conscious threw it in..... So are you lonely? And will you change? If so what or to what?

susan Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 11:20am

Hi Les. My first thought is that non-material things can also keep us from being....like the attachment to self-image or to intellectual ideas (although i suppose both these could be classified as 'material' in the stricter sense). Thanks very much for another thoughtful post. xx

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:40am

Hi Susan If you are attached to non-material things....its the same 'stuff'......and often ego. As long as you do / be things without any attachment to the outcome life will be fine. If you are attached to an image or the fact that you are clever.......you'll suffer.

g Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 12:26pm

I really like the thought for the day - if only I could master courage 'to sing in my imperfect voice '

Bearofliddlebrain Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 2:22pm

Oh, g whizz, Sing away....no one is listening!

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:42am

Hi g Who says you can't and is that attachment to what you think or anyone else thinks is 'masterful'. "Those who dance/sing are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music." Anonymous

Margie Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 12:32pm

From the first stanza on, the poem raised one thought for me : mindfulness. Practicing to step out of the endless stream of thoughts, practice to learn to tolerate being uncomfortable, practice being instead of doing, "there is nowhere to go", "we are imperfect beings" and that is enough. On days like today, when I remember to practice and not listen to nor believe my noisy thoughts, my heart is full. Thanks Les!

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:43am

Hi Margie So glad your heart is full........ In this moment - there is nowhere to go and nothing to do and all is well.....how does it feel ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,?

Margie Sun, Oct 4th 2015 @ 3:24pm

It feels wonderful Les, thanks for asking! I don't often go back to the blogs, but have enjoyed your responses to all! This is a wonderful community indeed. And alas, as the day goes on, I am usually pulled in to the doing more than being, and my full heart empties, but I am thankful for daily reminders here......hey, remember, that wonderful feeling, your full heart can/will return. Give it time. Practice. Remember.

Stina Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 12:55pm

This is a blatant reminder of ME right now. I got a divorce almost a year ago and now I'm with the love of my life. But now being with someone I really love and still unhappy it's hard to see that it's not the man that's the problem it's ME...I've been looking outwardly to run from the need to change internally. My moods are up and down and I tend to treat people bad when I have anxiety. Usually it just feels like too high of a mountain to climb and I tell myself I want to give up and run away, hide under a rock but that's the last thing I need to do. Now is the time to stop looking away and deal with it all head on.... Thanks for the reminder!

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:45am

Hi Stina If you find yourself in the same situation again.....there IS only one common denominator.......and its the ONLY person you can change........YOURSELF. Will you deal with it....? How will you know one week from now that you are? Will you........?

Stina Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 12:55pm

This is a blatant reminder of ME right now. I got a divorce almost a year ago and now I'm with the love of my life. But now being with someone I really love and still unhappy it's hard to see that it's not the man that's the problem it's ME...I've been looking outwardly to run from the need to change internally. My moods are up and down and I tend to treat people bad when I have anxiety. Usually it just feels like too high of a mountain to climb and I tell myself I want to give up and run away, hide under a rock but that's the last thing I need to do. Now is the time to stop looking away and deal with it all head on.... Thanks for the reminder!

the room above the garage Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 2:56pm

Hello Les, it raises lots for me as your poems and bogs often do. I'm careering off track at the mo and need to work out what is going to steady me...but this will be my groundwork and so I thank you for it. Love ratg x.

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:47am

Hi RATG Why r u careering off track? Did u know? When did you notice? Why? What r u now going to do differently..? Or will u simply BE different as from now?

Mary Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 3:57pm

I think it was my GP who looked at me kindly one day and said "Remember, we are human beings, not human doings." Bless you Les.

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:47am

Hi Mary Stay with that GP...

The Gardener Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 4:31pm

I am far too much of a 'doer' to cope with poetry. I scanned it, but today has been too full to breathe. But the thought for the day is one of my 'watchwords', In the 1990's our PCC, together with the whole of the Anglican church, was full of all it was going to do for the millennium - particularly evangelistic. One message, was do not waste your talent/talents, however unimportant they man seem. My talent to 'ride above' problems took a knock this morning. My husband had been awful from yesterday evening. He is not very aware of what goes on, but this morning, knowing I had a terrific overload he decided it was one of his mornings he could not stand up. Always convinced he's going to fall over - medics say no way of getting it out of his head. But my talent for friendship was in full flow this a.m. Last of the posters to do, never have I felt so surrounded by help and encouragement. 'We all love you in this town' said one lady (her elderly mum is nearly blind, so she has 'caring' responsibilities). I was actually shocked at such a sentiment - but in such a small town everybody sees the rapid deterioration of my husband, make sure that he is 'kept in the loop'. I compare myself to a large friendly dog - mostly get pats, occasionally rebuffed - metaphorical tail-wagging does not work, worst result one estranged daughter. Just done (organiser forgot to warn me) the flowers in church - 40 years service now! One of my talents of which I am proud. Little reaction to poem - I am scared of losing my humanity - don't think it is same thing, somehow

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:52am

Hi TG Challenging times.......... Can you plan is space for you to breathe? I can't help wonder....if your husband is responding to how you feel and thus reacts by 'needing' more - to pull you back - maybe from your busyness.....? Is that comparison to the 'large friendly dog' helpful to you? Or are you 'taking' it on? Proud of 40 years service......do you need to be 'seen' to do such 'service'.....or feel you need to have that constant....? While all around changes.....is that a 'need' or a 'want'........?

Bearofliddlebrain Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 6:38pm

Hell's teeth woman, you are too busy with life, your own and your husbands, to worry about losing your humanity, for goodness sake! Look at what you achieve every minute of every day for your husband, before you even start on the duties you perform for your church, and they seem many...and you should be proud of what you do for him and the church, but remember, that every dog (am ruffling your fur and giving you a pat!) has its day...and maybe you need to put yourself first - even if it's not a whole day, so that you can recharge! May I just ask - if others in your town know and understand what your are both going through...can they not help you any more than they might do? Can your estranged daughter not come and help? It is her father who she is losing..?? I hope I'm not being too rude saying that, but you and he need her now, and she may not realise it at the moment, but she may regret it in time.
I hope, as always, you find comfort from responses here, dear Gardener.
Bear x

The Gardener Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 9:06pm

Thank you bear - guilty of being 'fey' today, puzzled by poem, zonked by overwork. Estranged daughter only sad to me - she's OK - adopted, never coped with it, has tough times with feelings of 'rejection', but (for complicated reasons not to go into here) there was no hope that her natural mother could keep her. Our daughter accuses us of ruining her life - I look back through albums - lively, beautiful, full of beans, obviously a very happy childhood - but intolerant - no lasting relationships. I try to 'dig deep' into today's poem. I have many friends (and relations) whose main 'hobby' is shopping. I loathe it, except in India, where I could 'shop till I drop' for our Indian kids and family presents. These 'shopaholics' I know CANNOT come home empty handed - they don't need the stuff, and often don't have the money to buy it. One of the blogs was on dis-satisfaction with self (I think). One of the saddest ways of 'improving' yourself is not trinkets, furs, or make up - it's the actual change of person. If you have uplifted breasts, a face lift, a new nose you are going to be more desirable/happy, whereas it can only come from within. I think that is what Les is getting at, no matter what trappings we load ourselves with, in the end it's the inside which counts. Go back to my day - which continued with astonishing outpourings of friendships. Now, my greatest need is to root out the bitterness - the current behaviour of my husband puts all the things we have achieved together behind a big cloud, I RESENT what he has become.

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:56am

Hi TG Resentment is like poison..... "There ain't no cloud so thick that the sun ain't shinin' on t'other side." Rattlesnake, an 1870s mountain man

Lilly Fri, Oct 2nd 2015 @ 10:54pm

The idea that we are all imperfect beings is a comforting thought.
I too must think again before picking up a nice bargain, too much stuff in the house as it is! Bear's comment made me think maybe it's like building a nest!
There's always going to be a "to do" list, so its good to be reminded to allow ourselves to just breathe and be sometimes, that list isnt going anywhere! Thanks Les :)

Les Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 1:59am

Hi Lily It's only a bargain if you actually need it! Most bargains are about feeling you are getting something cheaply......somehow almost getting one over on the shop or whatever..... Then we go around telling people what a bargain it was......if you find the story more used than the 'thing'.....Hmmmmm

Bearofliddlebrain Sat, Oct 3rd 2015 @ 3:54pm

Sharp and sound replies, Les. You really look into what peeps have said, and I think, you help them to 'see' more in what their comments report.

TG: you surely must resent what your husband has become. It seems like a stage in the acceptance of what he is going through and becoming, daily. A bit like losing someone, through death or divorce - resentment, anger, disbelief, acceptance...but I can't remember which one comes when, but it doesn't really matter; you need to 'be' and let go of the resentment or else it will take you further down the murky paths that you must avoid to look after yourself and husband.

Also, my dear mum, did so much for the church and another organisation, for most of her life. Most of it through selfless tasks but there are there who can do those same tasks...they are doing them now as mum has died. None of us is indispensable! Others can take over the tasks you do, so unless you need those jobs in your life, cut down a bit or cut some out altogether, for your own sake.
Bear x

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