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Hello, I'm Mary and I'm bi-polar. Friday May 24, 2013

Here's a great post from Mary, another Moodscope user. I think you'll enjoy it.
Best wishes. Caroline.

You're quite right. That's not the way I normally introduce myself. While I do try to be as open as possible, there's always this little pause when you tell people, while they calculate how best to respond.

My favourite response from one of my business colleagues, a fairly whacky person herself is "Oh, are you? I thought you were just mad!" That was a good one. But most people seem to withdraw slightly while they try to work out if you will suddenly rip off all your clothes and dance naked round the car park or if you will equally suddenly slump into a heap on the floor groaning "I'm SO depressed!"

So I guess most of us keep it pretty quiet and just get on with it. We don't want to worry anyone, especially if we care about them or value their good opinion.

But Moodscope is different. I read a quote from CS Lewis the other day. "Friendship is born at the moment one person says to another: 'What? You too? I thought I was the only one.'"

Moodscope provides us with that supportive community – the comforting knowledge that we are not alone; there are others out there who are going through this too.

Our Buddies are also different. My buddies keep an eye out for when I'm going too high (anything over 85% is concerning) and when I haven't actually registered a score for more than a couple of days (have I crashed and totally withdrawn?). My Buddies are invaluable, if irritating at times ("I'm fine. Honestly. Just too busy...OK – I'll do it. Thanks for caring about me.")

We can be open and honest with Moodscope. In fact we have to be. And that in itself is priceless.

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Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 7:29am

L.O.L. and only 7.30 a.m. !!!! Thanks Mary -

Exidia Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 8:36am

Thanks for the post Mary -I find it can be surprising which people say "me too" - and that quote is spot-on.

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 8:57am

Hello back to you too Mary. And yes, what you say is true about the Moodscape community and being able to freely say what is troubling me and know it will be met with empathy and understanding, which can be very comforting.

quietpurplehaze Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:16am

The worst scenario for me is when folk have never even heard of bipolar disorder. I recently declared mine here:

I find this photographic web site is, like Moodscope, a very good tool for keeping grounded and sticking to Carpe Diem.

Ginny Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:20am

Thanks for sharing this. It is very difficult to share bi-polar (or any other mental illness) with people.
It seems as if lots of people have suddenly got it, but it is probably that they have only been diagnosed having had it for years. Moodscope is very helpful. i dont find it easy to register my mood with the cards, perhaps i will try again.
Also, i read about the 'buddy' system a while ago, but dont know how to access it

quietpurplehaze Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:20am

For me, the worst scenario is when folk have never even heard of bipolar disorder. I recently declared my bipolar here:
Like Moodscope, I find 365 is a great site for maintaining a daily routine.

Ginny Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:22am

When i said 'everybody seems to have bi-polar' I meant that others who havent got it tend to say these things, as if it is just something we have made up, perhaps.
Finding it difficult to put things into words today.
i dont find it difficult to talk too much, just explaining myself lol

Bill Andrews Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:34am

Hi Mary,
Thanks for your honesty. I too have a bi-polar diagnosis and find Moodscope invaluable. I take the chart print-out to the psychiatrist at my reviews and also use high and low scores as a warning to myself, with 75% my upper warning light.
All best wishes,

Trish-66 Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:34am

Hi Mary
Whilst my first reaction was I felt like my eyes poppped out and rolled across the floor I totally admire your honesty. Your story about others really made me smile.

Dougal Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 9:41am

Thanks Mary. This was good practical advice. Wish more people understood mental illness and accepted it is only an imbalance which can be treated. Moodscope is a warning to us where we are.

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 10:05am

Hello Mary. Thanks for the post-I have shamelessly stolen the CSLewis quote for my facebook page. I have a bi-polar parent, and get depressed myself, so way back, a few months after I first started using moodscope I thought I would try for 100% score (on April 1st) and see if it flashed up any warning that I might be TOO happy! That is why it is good to have those friends, as moodscope does not know you well enough to say - whoa there! - it told me well done. In the end this experiment was skewing my true scores, and following an e-mail to moodscope explaining what I did, the kind folk removed the anomalous 100%. Kind regards to all moodscopers. Hx

Julia Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 11:25am

I am not sure what you mean Dougal that mental illness is "only an imbalance that can be treated".Do you mean treated medically with drugs? It's just that anti depressants like Prozac and Citalopram are designed apparently to treat a chemical imbalance and many of us are lead to believe that we have some sort of chemical inbalance in our brains and if only we were prescribed the right drug, we would be free of depression. I haven't found that wonder drug yet. Before I saw your post,I was going to post saying that it is very brave of you Mary to tell your work colleagues about your bi polar diagnosis and thank you for the lovely blog today. I was going to say that as I have no definite diagnosis, it was more difficult, in fact impossible to tell my work colleagues what exactly was wrong with me. I couldn't tell them and suffered in silence. How does one explain undiagnosed depression to work colleagues? This is for another blog I guess. But Dougal I don't mean to be critical in any way about your comment. I am looking for answers which is why I am replying to you.

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 12:09pm

Having friends know is why I go to another web site everyday as I have met online friends that seem to care. My IRL friends not so much, I find it hard to tell them everything and be myself.

arty Josie Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 12:25pm

my name is joanne and I'm Bi-polar ! so good to know your not alone...I have good days and bad.... warning signs are cooking weird food, giving away posessions and going bonkers with a credit card!! I have been journaling to track my mood and try to get a high score to prove to myself Im doing ok.... probally missed the point!

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 2:35pm

great post

Caroline Ashcroft Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 2:39pm

Dear Ginny. I've emailed you directly regarding the buddying system. Do try again with the cards. There is a facility to go back to the previous card if you make a mistake. I think we all have the problem some days of not being able to string two words together. You have explained your feelings perfectly so don't worry.

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 4:12pm

I might not be bipolar, but I recognise a kindred spirit when I read of one! Thanks for sharing and making me laugh.

Anonymous Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 5:31pm

Wish I had someone to be my mood scope buddy. 3% today

Caroline Ashcroft Fri, May 24th 2013 @ 7:46pm

Hi there, I'm so sorry you are feeling so low. We're looking at a way of connecting people on Moodscope so people can buddy each other which may help. It will take us a little while to set up, but in the meantime,if a Moodscope user reads your post, offers to be your buddy and you'd like to accept the offer, can you email me at

Jane Briggs Mon, Jun 3rd 2013 @ 12:01am

I would like a mood scope buddy too, so if you still need one I can e mail you. E mail add . . Not sure if you go direct to my e mails, or on here, but hopefully mood scope can help! Take care. Jane

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