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Giant Haystacks. Tuesday April 11, 2017

When I was young, for our birthdays, my granny bought a small black and white TV for me and my brother to share in our bedroom. I was overjoyed! There was nothing to watch but wrestling on that Saturday afternoon and so I watched Giant Haystacks or Big Daddy cavorting around the ring and I reported back to everyone with ears.

I've been doing that wrestle. Feeling like I'd stepped out of a dark cave into sunshine, a toddler learning to walk, I looked at January and February with a stunned awe. It was wonderful! I'd never seen them before. Not like this. I'd only seen the 'hunker down, nuclear attack' version of those months. Then, somewhere along the way, I realised an elephant was kneeling on my throat and that nuclear attack was imminent.

I've decided it's not fair. And I won't have it. I'm angry. I'm scared when I'm outside, I'm avoiding the wind, sun, rain, the beautiful blue skies hurt to see. So, I'm wrestling. I'm working with windows wide. Wide so the wind whips the curtains and brings the outdoors in to me. I am going to bite off a large project, long been put off, because I know I am strong enough and I know the achievement will be a body smash to this attack. Giant Haystacks and Big Daddy had much to teach. The art of putting on a show and scaring off the enemy. I know better is possible and so I'm taking my inspiration from the wrestling world. Off to seek out a shiny gold unitard. Join me?

Love from

The room above the garage.
A Moodscope member.

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Lex Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 5:22am

I'm in, RATG! Happy memories of seeing them at Dorking Halls! (Complete with a Senior Citizen bashing one of them with her handbag - classic!) Metaphors have magic in them - let's transform using the lessons from wrestling!

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:12pm

You saw them live?! Handbag bashing, that's made me laugh!!! I'd forgotten that there was quite a following of older ladies with handbags...why was that? Why was it an old lady sport? And is it still so?

Sarah yellow rose Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 7:03am

I was just thinking yesterday, "I wonder if RATG will do a blog soon" so glad you did and that you are scaring off the enemy, yes I'll join you!

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:12pm

Hello Sarah, good to see you and to know we're united!

Jul Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 8:22am

I am glad you are feeling better ratg. We need something to reinforce our inner strength which is in there somewhere. I remember many times when I've put on a show in an attempt to scare off the enemy. Julxx

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:13pm

Hello lovely, haven't been here for ages so its lovely to see you.

Sally Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 8:30am

Hello RATG. What a great post. Very well put over: you get the enormous uphill struggle of mood over matter across so well. I can so identify with your struggle, and applaud your determination and efforts to overcome.
I always found great comfort in the late 60s/ early seventies in the song "We Shall Overcome", first sung in a Youth Hostel in Berlin with a group including many nationalities. We were fervent in our feelings about the then recent invasion of Czechoslovakia by the Russians, and the solidarity each of us felt was immense, in our singing of that idealistic song. I still refer to it today, in times of struggle, and find it calming and fortifying.

Do others sing, or play favourite, comforting music, to help with mood , and struggles? It has certainly been a source of comfort to me over many years. I have my favourites. Horses for courses.

Very best of luck, RATG. My thoughts are with you, and if empathy could be bought in a shop, I'd be sending a great big bagfull your way today. I particularly like your phrase " an elephant was kneeling on my throat" ! Virtual hugs. You go for it! You will overcome!

Jul Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 8:42am

Hello Sally. I was going to say in my reply to ratg above that playing music in my car on my journey to work which at the time I hated so much allowed me to put up a barrier between myself and the day ahead. My favorite lyrics were in a song called Human Nature by Madonna Express yourself. Don't repress yourself. Jul xx

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:17pm

Hello Sally, I do rely on music a lot. A constant source helps me daily. And I notice when I'm not feeling great it can also sometimes hurt. That's when I turn to podcasts and they keep me company in my working day. I sometimes wonder if I'm on the autism spectrum...needing sound to block out other stuff and let my brain be free.

LP Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:46pm

I often wonder if I'm on the spectrum too! Maybe we just recognise the symptoms of anxiety. Xx

Eva Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 8:40am

Hi ratg, I get this! I have been pretty good about getting out most of the winter generally twice a day, I use a fitbit, so I try to get a good number of steps in daily, but yesterday it was too windy and cold so I just went out once and refused a second trip. As a result I was cold. The benefits of the walking is it really helps my circulation which does not seem to be great. Sometimes it's easy, but sometimes it's a real effort and I really have to shore up my defenses to get out there. I'll have a shiny Cape i think, that'll help ;)

Lex, been singing piling is not filing all day! That's gonna stick with me... I have some monumental piles in my studio currently... Painting is currently more important than filing. But once I am finished this set of work I need to have a really good clear out!

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:19pm

Shiny capes? This just gets better and better. I avoided a walk yesterday too, convinced myself I didn't have time and took the car. It was a mistake. So I'll walk with you today.

Sophia Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 10:23am

Thank you for sharing! This is so well written and inspiring. Kick started my day ?

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:19pm

What a great thing to hear :-)

Leah Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:06am

Ratg
Great to see your blog.
I watched a wrestler called Killer Kowalski who never cavorted or strutted but was menacing. Maybe Scottish wrestlers are different!
Seriously a great blog butI gave up cavorting yesterday. A shiny gold leotard are banned in Australia for the over 50s, but I will join you in your quest. Take care and well done.

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:20pm

Great to see you Leah. Surely never too old to cavort? Please say it isn't so!

The Gardener Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:20am

As a lifelong hater of violent sports cannot use the analogy - but someone is sitting on my head - nice to see RATG back. The weight of problems - Mr G future dodgy, of course - went to see our GP to discuss future - we have a chronic shortage of Doctors - he's only in his 40's, super guy, says NEVER hesitate to call him - he comes to the house to see Mr G the day I call. Now, he's more stressed than I am. Son and daughter major stress - weather patterns have destroyed major over-winter crops - they will lose thousands. The week-end is now in jeopardy - grand-son due - jobs lined up - really, to do most of the driving and take Mr G out in wheel-chair. No way. Young man has broken his collar bone - in a harness, so that's that. Had to go to mass to collar a priest, they go missing (not many left, like Docs). I wanted robes to display - nuns against, work. I won - then a real wrestle - with the fantastic piece of furniture which houses a lot of the chausubles. Luckily church being cleaned, because, like wrestling, one has to kick the furniture while the other pulls the drawers - can result in an unseemly heap on the floor. Oh, and both visits to house for sale failed, one useless, one no-show. I will NOT throw in the towel. Pity Kipling's poem was for a bloke - suits me 'If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster, and treat those two impostors just the same'. Hm.

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:21pm

That is possibly my favourite poem TG! It gets me in the throat every time. And that line... I'm so sorry to hear your grandson has hurt himself. And now no visit :-(

Mary Wednesday Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:49pm

I'm sorry too. And that poem... the word which always gets me there is "imposters". So discerning.

E Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:27am

I remember Giant Haystacks and Big Daddy they were part of my childhood as well. I used to sit with my Grandma watching them on an old black and white set at her house. When we got colour and she came to stay Grandma insisted on watching it with dark glasses on because the "colour hurt her eyes". Just as well they hadn't invented mankini's for them to wear by then. :)

the room above the garage Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 1:22pm

Isn't that divine! The colour hurt her eyes! Gosh I miss those days of watching telly with my granny. Wonderful :-)

The Gardener Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 4:14pm

Eva, I envy you 'getting out' such an effort in winter even if no other drawbacks than outside does not look welcoming. Lack of exercise one of my biggest 'beefs'. Last year 2nd son was here for a few days - fed up with his Pa's inactivity he said 'come on Dad, I'm here to help, time you took some exercise'. Pa, 'had enough exercise in my work to last a lifetime'. Son, 'But you need fresh air'. Pa, 'had enough air as well'. Son, 'but you can't treat Mum like that, it's like prison'. Pa 'That's what she's there for'. That was 9 months ago, and the results are grim. Mr G is physically fit, but lack of any movement (even to get a glass of water) has provoked oedema, and breathing problems. As he insists on rooms at boiling point and wearing loads of clothes plus blankets that has provoked skin eruptions and excema, gets bad at night and have to be treated. But, all reason has flown. I'm now my own worst enemy, so tired, respite days, instead of a good walk inertia sets in - guilty of drinking, playing solitaire and watching DVD's. My Ma and TV! It would always be on, and everything was pronounced 'Rubbish'. She was sitting with our two girls watching a programme on immigration. 'They should all be sent back where they came from' said Mummy. The girls were adopted mixed race - luckily regarded their Granny with affection but no respect for her brain. She would have been first at the polling station to vote Brexit if she had been alive. My m-in-law was convinced TV was bad for the eyes, and rationed herself severely - only 'good' programmes like Panorama - our lives had to be 'improved' all the time. I'd love to have seen her face if she accidentally saw wrestling.

LP Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 5:11pm

Hi TG, The thing about getting respite is that you need time to wind down. Your body's telling you that you need to rest and relax from all the stress, so I wouldn't feel guilty, I'd go with how I'm feeling. I'd also try to drink something refreshing, mixing something delicious up of your own that you can feel is doing you good as it goes down can feel cleansing and detoxifying and do you the world of good. Enjoy your time out to switch off! LP xx

LP Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 5:02pm

Hi ratg,
Good for you! I feel excited for you that you're going for it with the big project, I'm entrigued! Get stuck in!
I also have those childhood memories, Giant Haystacks vs Big Daddy was like the ultimate pantomime!
I can feel your strength, ready to get into the scrum, it's motivating me to tackle the spare room, having started with my daughter's room yesterday!
Take care, LP xx

the room above the garage Wed, Apr 12th 2017 @ 12:06am

Hello LP :-) did you dare? Is that spare room now like a new pin? I love clearing out and the feel of the room...but then find the hall holds the overspill for far too long !!

LP Wed, Apr 12th 2017 @ 12:53am

Hey ratg, :) I did indeed! We can actually get in there now! Computer acessible for exam revision at last. A long way to go, one wall piled high with bedding and bags of stuff that belong elsewhere, but it's tidy and the hardest bit, tackling the Haystacks head on has been acomplished! And yes the hallway is laden with the overspill! C'est la vie, it's on it's way out! Thanks for the back up! LPXxx

Rose Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 5:44pm

Thank you for this beautiful post. Xx

the room above the garage Wed, Apr 12th 2017 @ 12:07am

It's my pleasure when I can see it's meant something, thank you for replying x.

Mary Wednesday Tue, Apr 11th 2017 @ 11:53pm

Coming in late... so wonderful to see you back. And, oh I remember so well feeling bad around Easter - every time. This year... the drugs are working and I am well, but maybe I should take up walking to celebrate. RATG - I feel for you and am sending week thoughts to you.

the room above the garage Wed, Apr 12th 2017 @ 12:10am

Hello Marydoll, "the drugs are working" is fabulous! I will catch up I'm sure but...are these the new drugs that you were trying out?

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