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Even a chore can be uplifting! Tuesday September 23, 2014

I decided that this weekend it was now or never in completing a chore. The weather was good and if I didn't act I would lose the chance. So I set about painting the newly erected wooden playhouse that needed weather proofing. I say a chore because for me that's exactly what it was. However, I woke this morning and when I looked in the garden, I felt a sense of satisfaction and pride. This is what I took from the experience:

1. Choosing a colour, on my own, felt strangely liberating. I enjoyed, for the first time being in an aisle with painting paraphernalia and being let loose.

2. Children "helping" me paint was not so much helpful and increased my anxiety somewhat, yet their sense of pride in their achievement was heartwarming.

3. I am most definitely not a perfectionist in this department! It was a case of just get the job done.

4. Having said that, it felt good to be active, achieving something and being productive.

5. I realised afterwards that my mind did not wander into negative thought streams once (well only wishing the 2 year old would remove his hand from the paint tin). It was a good distraction and a reminder that keeping busy helps me keep my low mood at bay.

6. Now that it is done I'm feeling inspired to continue with completing tasks that I have had little motivation to do previously.

So I'm currently looking at the living room wall that now has several wall paper samples adorning it. My creative spirit has been awakened and I'm feeling excited to be making some changes. I'm not however, feeling brave enough to tackle wallpaper myself but I am pondering what room I can unleash some paint on this weekend! I'm glad this glimpse of good weather forced me into action, as although I approached the task with resistance and negativity I have been left with positivity and inspiration. Just need to find someone else with the skills to get that wallpaper on!

Rosie
A Moodscope member.


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Comments

Hopeful One Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 7:04am

I too completed a task that needed doing last weekend. Unlike Rosie unfortunately I did not experience the same feelings i e inspiration,motivation ,satisfaction when I completed the task.Then I remembered that this was an example of " discounting the positive" a thought pattern common in depression.That helped a bit. Like Rosie, however , while I was busy the the negative thought stream did remain subdued.

heather Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 7:12am

Dear Rosie, what a lovely picture you have painted in MY head this morning of you and 2/3 ? children in the garden painting the playhouse blue (you actually probably chose a much brighter colour). Thank you. And what a big truth is there about managing to attempt and complete a job which has been put off for too long even if it is not done perfectly. Love from Heather x

Lex McKee Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 8:10am

Begin to create together. Four words that jumped to mind reading your heart-warming post, Rosie. Thank you for sharing.
I know that depressed poets statistically use 'I' and 'Me' and 'Mine' - whereas a shift to 'us' and 'we' transforms the World inside and out. And, of course, you know I believe we are born to create. When we aren't finding little ways and great ways to express our birthright, it can be frustrating.
Aside from that,I've been a citizen of the largest Nation on Earth for a l-o-n-g time = Procrastination. Your lovely blog eloquently shows how the journey of painting the playhouse begins with a single brush-stroke.

Mary Blackhurst Hill Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 8:38am

Lex and Rosie together have given me some enthusiasm for a school project the (new) Head Teacher has come up with: the whole school, parents, staff and "hangers on" all getting together this Friday afternoon to create a community piece of artwork to commemorate the First World War. I was dreading this (perfectionist spirit coming out) but can now see it might actually be enjoyable. I loved your comment about your 2 year old's hand in the paint tin, Rosie. Thank you for this.

Les Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 8:39am

Personally ........I think the 2 year old would be fab at wallpapering - he may not do it the way you would wish to control.......but he'd be proud!

Who do you wish to please - or should that be 'grow' ;-)

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 9:32am

That would become more of a collage and could be a whole new angle to 'feature wall'!!!

Rosie, painting the playhouse with children (plural), and as young as 2, would be no easy challenge...I can imagine the hands, the door handle, the hair, even the mouth, hilarious to watch but tricky to be responsible for!!! Big credit!! I see such progress in your mood from your first blog to now, great news, love from the room above the garage x.

joanne Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 9:33am

How I wish I could summon up the enthusiasm for anything. Have a huge list of potentially inspiring activities but at the moment they just seem like a huge list of chores rather than something positive

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 9:34am

'Discounting the positive', I've never heard that one and it's me 100%. Thank you, now I'm aware, I'm armed. Love from the ratg x.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 9:51am

Hello Joanne, that's very familiar to me. Over the Summer, I felt better and jobs that had been piling up were suddenly not just achievable but seemed to take little time and effort. That was a glimpse for me of how 'other' people live. Now that I've slid back a little, I'm fighting hard to look at it all differently. Instead of looking at it all as a mountain, could you make it all much smaller? If it feels like a pressure then it is and you don't need that! What do you NEED right now? Maybe you need to put them on a list of things you will do when your health is in better shape. That doesn't mean putting them off...it means if they are important to you, their time will come (presuming it's not work/deadlines) and that maybe nourishing you, a lot, with things that make you feel like you, will get you there quicker than pushing on.

What makes you feel like you? Go there first. The other stuff will follow.
Love from the room above the garage x.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 9:55am

I have the 'Procrastination' badge too! Oh look...I'm still here!! Off to jobs now. Ratg x.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:14am

Dear Rosie,
There is something strangely uplifting about the smell of wallpaper paste.
Children love mixing it and daubing it on - you can rarely put too much on.
Hanging it? Well there's a beautiful opportunity for comedy.
In fact, I'm old enough to have been shown a tape of a sketch with Bruce Forsyth and Norman Wisdom at The London Palladium.
Keep decorating!
Love, Rich.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 3:40pm

One time many years ago when I was having a bad bout with depression, my dad, now deceased told me to start painting the deck at the cabin...When that was done he told me to start painting the living room walls...lil by lil I was able to see my achievement and progress...day in and out..and when I had finished I had pretty much worked my way out of the depression...he also said sure beats hospitals and meds...how right he was...so, this moodscape post really struck a cord with me...need to find something to paint, but what?? Thanks for sharing. Dave

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 5:57pm

I too loved your descriptions, Rosie, in fact your blog overall created a snapshot for me of your family life. At the moment, I am not braving much, but slowly, slowly..

Discounting the positive is something I'm rather good at. At the moment I'm having difficulty remembering my achievements and seem to beat myself up. This blog has made me sit up and think, though. Thanks

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:15pm

You have good vision!! The colour is Seagrass, and 2 out of my 3 children were helpful painters. The 7 year old decided to be no where near the scene for fear that even looking at the paint may cause her to get dirty!!

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:19pm

I have always rejected creativity as being a part of me. I have spent years saying I'm not creative!! I have come to realise this stems from being somewhat artistically challenged with art at school. It's taken me a long time to realise creativity is so much more than being able to draw!!

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:22pm

Oh Les, I'm having palpitations just imagining letting him loose on the walls. It has reminded me of the nervous tension I have when the kids decorate the Xmas tree, I have had to relax my strategic bauble placement but its not easy!!

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:26pm

Thankyou. I do believe I have come a long way since February. It has been a tough journey and I have never worked so hard on myself but I'm seeing the change and this keeps me focused on working on myself. Mood scope has played a big part in my recovery, a big part.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:45pm

It wasn't so long ago where my achievements were getting up, getting dressed and getting to the end of the day without crying. I was encouraged to take each day at a time and say the mantra "just for today". That really helped me get through a difficult time. I don't always see the positives, I too recognise that I discount positives. Reflecting on things helps me draw out positives and reframe my thinking. It's hard work but the more I'm practising it the easier its becoming to see and feel experiences in a different way. Beating ourselves up over things is something I'm sure a lot of us can relate to, I know I am quite proficient in doing that too.

Anonymous Tue, Sep 23rd 2014 @ 11:48pm

:)

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