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Depression! Sunday May 22, 2016

Depression! Is that it's name.
This uninvited control of my brain

An invisible force inside your head
At times no escape, you wish you were dead

Different emotions I know we all try
I've done my best, I still sit and cry

To find a haven with people who understand
We didn't ask for depression it wasn't planned

We've found that place, now we're able to cope
With new friends and help we find on Moodscope

With love,

A Moodscope member.

Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.

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Leah Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 7:38am

What a thoughtful poem so full of meaning and easy to relate to. Thank you.

Anonymous Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 7:52am

Hello Jackie. Moodscope is a haven you are right! Over the years, it has provided or rather its members have provided, all the help I've needed. It takes one to know one. I like your poem because although it's tackling a heavy subject, you are light-hearted about it in the way your poem reads. And of course it ends on a cheerful positive and enduring note. Tanks for this Sunday blog Jackie. More poetry please! Jul xx

Sue Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 8:13am

that's true. But I don't see my suicide thoughts to be depressive. Had a long full life, nothing still to be attained (not in a bad way -- I have seen everything and done everything I could have hoped for). ButI plan my suicide according to the next major life event; now, when my beloved companion dog dies. It would be an impossibility for me to live alone again. And would not/could not to a 'home'. Nor to adult children. Often days are wonderful, full of sunshine, occasionally a skylark, or flock (?) of swallows. But 'my day has done', I'm content and positive about not being here. Just the process that's not wonderful!

Anonymous Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 9:39am

You've taken my breathe away a bit here Sue. You have made a decision and I am not the person to comment one way or another but you are positive or come across as positive and as if the decision you have made is definitive and final.. Have you commented before as "Sue" on Moodscope Sue? Jul xxx

A View from the Far Side Mon, May 23rd 2016 @ 2:26am

Sue, I've been mulling over your post as you remind me of someone I was once close to, an elderly lady, who had a similar attitude. I agree with Jules in general, but I also think it's quite interesting that you've posted here what you're planning to do, which makes me wonder if you're absolutely as certain as you seem to be. I totally understand that you want some control over the process of what is happening in your life right now. However, as someone who has lived with the impact of someone taking their own life and seen the impact on the wider family, I'm wondering whether, if you haven't done so already, speaking to someone who knows you or contacting a euthanasia society, such as Dignitas, would enable conversations to be had that minimise harm to yourself and help prepare your children if they aren't already aware of what you're planning. Jo Jo Moyes wrote a novel on this topic, Me Before You, which is a great read and a possible way of opening a conversation. AVFTFS xxxx

David Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 8:02am

Wonderful and articulate, I love MOODSCOPE, a very useful tool to minitor my moods and network with the Blog.

Sue Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 8:15am

David - ditto! Cannot delete duplication. Sorry.

Anonymous Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 10:23am

Jackie. Hi again. Are you the same Jackie whose granddaughter Olivia has been adopted? Leah just mentioned you to me and I have written a short comment on the day/page you wrote about it. (Lex's blog). Jul xxx

Still picking figs Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 10:41am

Are you Jackie from the-day-before-yesterday? I do hope so -
you've been in my thoughts - but if not, it's still a wonderful poem, positive in the face of an 'invisible force.' As much as I can, I say to my 'uninvited' friend (I call my depression 'Barbara') "Meh, so here you are again", and then try not to talk to her for the rest of the day. I turn up the music loud and forcibly plump cushions into shape as she tuts over my half-hearted attempts at housework. She's the one I feel sorry for.

Sue and Jackie, I hope you have more pleasurably defiant cushion-plumping moments, and that you also make time to stand up tall, shoulders back, ready to head off to the great outdoors and breathe for four, hold for four, out for four. Remember Lex's toothpaste analogy, we're not all out yet.

A View from the Far Side Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 11:26am

I love the simplicity of your poem Jackie. I think it's a positive thing that you still sit and cry. There are stress hormones in tears. And it's better out than in. Do you find you start to feel better after a while? Or is it never-ending. I don't see how it can be all down, because of these words you've just shared with us. AVFTFS xxxxx

Richard Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 11:57am

Thankyou, Jackie. I admire your brave use of the exclamation mark. There are times I feel like shouting the word at people that don't understand what we go through.
Keep writing.
Peace & Love,

Mary Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 12:38pm

I think Moodscope is the single most positive thing in my life. I know it adds value to so many people - yet it is so simple. Caroline our administrator deserves a medal for running it and Jon who set it up originally, an award.

The Gardener Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 5:36pm

Ditto Mary. My 'd's are despair and defeat, then, deal with. Respite week in planning - deal with the horrendouos boredom by finding things which will please me within the extreme constraints of my husbands complaint.And today's quote 'try again tomorrow'. Always think of something nice for the morrow, however awful today has been, And get that virago note out of my voice, before it stays that way

Rachel Sun, May 22nd 2016 @ 11:11pm

Thank you for your poem Jackie

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