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Darth Vader does Charlotte's Web, a true story. Sunday October 11, 2015

Me: It's rainy and cold. What the...? Walk?! IN it?! Today?! I'm broken!!!

Other me: Yes rainy, so what. You need it. How else will you fix this? Get. Out. Side.

Me: I can't. I'm almost dead. I have nothing to give.

Other me: You can. You must.

Me: Hang up. Other me: You hang up. Me: Hate you. Other me: Love you.

Thumped along the pavement. Two hoods up. Angry. Stompy. Wet legs. Cold legs. Huff. Puff. Got to shop. Can't see out of wet glasses. Bought stuff. Paid. Wrong pin. Typical. Paid again. Left. Now, hot. Two hoods up again. Stomp. Stomp. Stomp.

This is daft. I'm roasting. Hoods down. Ah better. Cooler air on hot head. Lovely. Rain on cheeks, lovely. Oooh it's quite nice. The birds are singing their lungs out! Wow, I wonder what got them going? Look at that spider web suspended in the hedge... STUNNING.

Laden with rain, it reminds me of depressed people. Fragile and vulnerable, looking ready to break but holding firm, made of stronger cords than is ever thought. Had I not been ill, I would not have walked, not seen its wonder, not seen that there were tens of them, no scores of them. All along the hedges on my walk back were scores of the most beautiful sight I'd seen in days. Why would I deprive myself of this? Scores of webs, gracious and miraculous, swaying, dripping with droplets. It was as though they had heard my stomp as I passed by one way and had put on this art installation for my sore eyes on my return. Each one greeted me, swayed for me, showed me beauty, bowing in greeting as I walked. Thank you.

Nearly back. I am still feeling a little Darth Vader but my robes are now pale grey and definitely made of cashmere.

Go outside. Stomp for 30 minutes. Blog the result. Dare you. Go on...

Love from

The room above the garage.
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Leah Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 4:54am

Stubborn me: Oh no another challenge from ratg , can't she leave me alone!

Trying to be nice me: don't be so contrary – you like walking.

Stubborn me: a walk yes that is great but a stomp.

Trying to be nice me: It won't hurt you, why don't you get into the spirit of the blog and try.

Stubborn me: If you will stop nagging me I will, but I will stomp in the back yard because the lizards won't laugh at me!

Some time later ...

Trying to be nice me: Admit it you did enjoy that , well except for falling in soft mud but even that was funny!!

Morale of story look before you stomp. Mission accomplished. Thanks ratg.

Kelley Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 6:55am

Another beautiful vignette of life ratg! Thank-you for bringing the wonder of everyday into my morning - off I go for a stomp! :)xx

Hopeful One Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 7:20am

Oh RATG you can be so eloquent!

Next time when me says "It's rainy and cold. What the...? Walk?! IN it?! Today?! I'm broken!and when the other me says : "Yes rainy, so what. You need it. How else will you fix this? Get. Out. Side." try and see if you can introduce a hum in the dialogue which I find often tips the balance in the favour of other me? I started doing that and - guess what- I can now sing the lyrics of at least a dozen songs as I stomp along except now it becomes more of a fun run than a stomp.

Milliecat Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 9:09am

Brilliant! I find it sooo hard to get out for a wee walk. This has made me smile and chortle. Thank you! I may even take my light sabre with me....

Anonymous Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 9:24am

Those spider webs are wonderful. I noticed them the other day on our trees. So many of them and glistening with long threads attaching them to a tree branch.
Once I felt so cooped up inside as it had rained all day, real wet rain coming down in vertical waterfalls, that I just had to get out. The rain wasn't going to let up, I had waited for it to stop all day. So about 5pm, I got on my bike and went for my usual ride. It was horrible at first, almost impossible to carry on; I thought what the heck am I doing. Anyway I did it and got absolutely soaked, I mean really really soaked right through. I had no-one to share this with and came home wanting to laugh and tell everyone. Luckily I have a son who appreciates things like this and I must have felt exhilarated enough to send him a funny text which made him laugh. His reply was priceless. Ratg is so right. Our inner dialogue at times like this, shall I? , no I won't, but I should! etc etc is useful more times than not as it usually produces the right outcome. If we weren't depressed and therefore didn't struggle with and question our intentions and moods, we would still be sitting here.

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 10:14am

Ah dearest RATG, if I didn't have dog, I wouldn't be bothered to get out twice a day, but I have dog, so I must! Ah, when I do...oh it can be glorious, so worth it...the cobwebs - as you say, are fantastic and I know it's egging-on the winter - but I can't wait for a bit of frost as the webs sparkle even more!

Today we've been fortunate to see a kingfisher again (three times this week) which just gladdens my heart so much that I thank goodness I came out for a walk. The colours here are amazing, so jewel-like and although the Ieaves are dying...they seem more alive with the dew and sunshine on them...ah Bearworld is a better place today and more so, for your brilliogs blog! I thankee! Bear x x x

LillyPet Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 10:17am

Ratg your blog is beautiful and inspiring. "Even if you stomp for 30 minutes" might just swing it for me on those days when I leave the walk, my walk, which I always end up enjoying, until the light starts to fade and I guiltily dont bother yet again. There is a brook with weeping willows where the water bubles over the pebbles glistening in the sunlight. A heron lives there and often there are parokeets making a racket! one winter I did really well and walked regularly all the way through. It was never as cold as I thought it would be.
Strangely, before I read your blog this morning, I had an idea that if we cold see our conflicting selves as a loving parent guiding our inner child and love both of them, maybe that's what is meant by loving yourself, which I never really understood. I started to feel a blog coming on, but I have it right here! Amazing! Thank you ratg. I would definitely go today, but it's full of arrangements, so for me tomorrow your wonderful challenge awaits :) thanks Ratg! LP xx

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 11:57am

Lillypet...Sounds like you live near Blissland with its weeping willow and babbling brook filled with glistening pebbles...but..parakeets? Where is this place full of wonderment? Love it, now make sure you get out there tomorrow! Bears might be watching! Love Bear x

The Gardener Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 10:52am

Coffee break. Spent the morning tearing round the house, with RATG blog provoking such memories would need a book to get them down. Had to find out who Darth Vader was, of course. For many years we produced vegetables the year round. (till we came to our senses and realised winter ones unecomic) If you have harvest parsnips or leeks in a North East gale and sleet the thought of going out in the weather for pleasure was ludicrous. Ditto 1976 drought - didn't go indoors, but found a shady tree and a Pimms. Moving into a town RATG's sentiments are foremost. Get out, get those beanies and hoods on. Watch the turbulent river on its way to the sea. Crunch along the 5 kms of shell beach. Imagine the activities as we brave the old smugglers paths along the cliffs. And the colours of sea and sky. All gone but memories now. Then exotic beaches - walk and walk, up to ankles in the sea. But, walking round one of the thousand islands in Indonesia, correctly shod for paddling, waiting for the sunset - pow. Sting ray. The guide book says the sting is 'excruciating' it does not lie. Could not get off island, very dangerous situation - survived, still here! Trouble with winter, even if not depressed, you look outside, think of the effort of putting all those clothes on, and you rev the fire up (then feel like death, get a headache through lack of air and put on weight). Clothes are my current nightmare. My husband is obsessed with the cold. In bed, downie, extra blanket, double glazing, lined thick curtains, quiet night, and he will say there is a gale blowing the curtains. One day, I swear, every 10 minutes he put on/took off a garment, lost them, yelled at me to find them, revved up the central heating, put electric fire on as well (the bills!) and has twice virtually fainted from heat exhaustion. After one of these days it may be more understandable why I write at terrific speed for moodscope, take it as the morale raising equivalent of a walk in the rain! Happy Sunday to you all.

Frankie Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 11:04am

And happy Sunday to you to, dear Gardener; good luck for the concert; what pictures you paint - definitely worthy of a book in my humble opinion ... Frankie

LillyPet Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 11:10am

Happy Sunday back TG :)

Frankie Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 11:05am

Morning RATG

So good to read you again; and yes, all too true - getting out makes all the difference ...


LillyPet Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 11:23am

Me again! Just had a giggle and had to share! Saw the title of Ratg's blog again and burst out laughing at the image of the actual Darth Vader going fir a walk trying to look scary then being startled by the beautiful web art and forgetting himself as he has a tender moment! :))

Anonymous Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 1:48pm

Now you mention it like that LillyPet, it is very funny!

The Gardener Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 2:00pm

Still not into the Darth Vader - but like thing happens to me - total disaster has struck - house, machines, journeys - I tell my friends and have to pick them off the pavement where they are in hysterical laughter. You can die laughing (who said that), but oh, a chance would be a fine thing. If I get a chance to read, Nicolas Bentley 'How can you bear to be Human?', any Alan Coren (his article on Leonardo de Vinci has me in stitches, still) and Adrian Mole. Was it Readers's Digest who had a column 'Laughter is the best medicine? For serious suffers of mental illness laughter and singing are thought to be most therapeutic.

The Gardener Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 6:20pm

We got to the concert! It was lovely - juxtaposition of yiddish music in a 14th century tithe barn! Mr TG enjoyed it. Sedated him first, and took huge risk in getting friends to take us, so he could not run away in the middle, no transport.Thanks for all who encouraged me.

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 7:15pm

Oh I'm so pleased you managed there and back again...sounds like the start of a Hobbit book! Great idea to go with friends so he can't escapeé!! Not sure what the music would have sounded like but how amazing to hear it in those surroundings! Well done TG and big bear hugs to you and Mr TG...Bear x x x

Frankie Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 8:34pm

Oh how WONDERFUL! It sounds amazing. Well done you TG! Frankie (grinning broadly!)

Leah Mon, Oct 12th 2015 @ 12:59am

Gardener, Glad you enjoyed the concert and liked your plan of transport worked.Is that Yiddish music like Klezmer/clesma.

Mary Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 7:01pm

Beautiful post RATG. I should make myself walk the 100yds I am able to at the moment and appreciate the autumn. Yesterday I walked to the postbox to post a letter. I felt accomplished! But I see now I did not really appreciate the air, the sunshine, the scents of the season. Next time I will do that.

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 7:18pm

Dear Mary...two accomplishments in one! Am did the walk and had written a letter as well as posting it...let us count these both, and while I think about it...I'm assuming you got dressed to go out as well???!!!!! See? Am counting your blessings :) Bearhugs xoxoxo

Frankie Sun, Oct 11th 2015 @ 8:36pm

Please don't beat yourself up Mary for not appreciating it all - focus on the fact that you actually did it! and as Bear says, written a letter too ... Frankie x

the room above the garage Mon, Oct 12th 2015 @ 11:42am

Thanks all xx.

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