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Crossed My Heart; Hoped To Die. Monday April 4, 2016

How can you start a blog that will bring hope with such a negative statement? Easy! I believe real truth sets you truly, really free! Truly, Really, Deeply!!!

So what's the real truth?

Well, it's a lesson we've heard about from ancient times, a fundamental truth of philosophy, which few of us get to 'know' about. Hearing and knowing are not the same. Hearing is passive; knowing is experience. I want you and I to experience this truth.

And the truth is this: "To thine own self, be true..." (Hamlet, Act 1; Scene 3).

And older still: "Know thyself!" (This is used by Plato and other Greek Philosophers but no one is quite sure who was the original author.)

And from the Old Testament, "As a man thinks in his heart, so is he." (Proverbs 23:7 – and thus attributed to the wisest Earthman that ever lived, Solomon.)

And finally, from Roxette: "Listen to your heart!" (Swedish, must be true.)

So my point today is that your heart is the most important part of you. You and I need to be true to our hearts. My life is filled with chapter after unhappy chapter that have resulted from a decision where I crossed my heart – I went against what my heart wanted and did what I thought logically was the 'right' thing. All manner of misery has flowed from each of these choices. The result? I have hoped to die. I think that's called 'depression' isn't it?

The solution isn't simple. It takes courage. Massive courage. Benjamin Mee-type courage:
"You know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Just literally twenty seconds of just embarrassing bravery. And I promise you, something great will come of it." (from, "We Bought A Zoo.")

Your heart is saying something amazing to you today – something exciting – something daring. Don't cross your heart – don't go against it and hope to die. Listen to your heart, then make a bold choice and listen again to Benjamin's words, "And I promise you, something great will come of it."

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Sally Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 7:20am

An extremely good piece, Lex. I feel for you when you say your life " is filled with chapter after unhappy chapter that have resulted from a decision where I crossed my heart" etc, , and from the sounds of it, this is now in the past, which is great. You touch at something which is very dear to my heart ( sorry, no pun intended!) as I too have found that if I go with my heart, results are better for everyone! I took a leap of faith this week, and it paid off. Happy me.

Susan Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 7:27am

Thanks, Lex. Just what I need to get me through the first day of term. Heartfelt babysteps and then perhaps a leap of faith somewhere along the way. Bless you. Xx

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:24am

Dearest Sally and Susan, this one seems to have struck a chord with those folks I love: Moodscopers! I am happy that being honest about my terrible mistakes may just give my friends confidence to follow their own hearts and take that leap of faith! May we all be courageous today... and I have another Wow! to share. Lxx

Lou Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 7:23am

What an excellent blog Lex. You make a really important point, as how many of us go against our own judgement (our heart) to go along with what others want, or think, to fit in or because we think it is the "right thing". But is it the right thing for us?

Reading your blog I was reminded of Martha Beck's book "Finding Your Own North Star" which explores this idea further. Must re read my copy!

Thanks for the food for thought to start the day - and the week!


Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:28am

Hi Lou, I'm really excited to find out more about your book recommendation. I really appreciate that (and I'm sure I'm not speaking for just myself) and thank you for encouraging me today. I'm wondering just how closely the words "courage" and "encouragement" are linked. Off to check the dictionary! Have a brilliant day. Lxx

Lou Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 10:03am

Lex -I'm really glad you feel I have encouraged you, especially as you've got me thinking! :)

Anonymous Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:06am

I love this blog, the quotes etc and the message Lex. It will be one of my all time favourites. Thank you Julesxx

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:30am

Thanks Jules, there is some really 'spooky' (good) stuff happening at the minute in my life. And this blog is part of that 'flow' of consciousness. I am so joy-filled that you and my other friends are finding this resonates. Much love to you. Lxx

Anonymous Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 12:16pm

I am glad some spookily good stuff is happening right now in your life, Lex darling. Jules xx

Hopeful One Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:13am

Hi Lex- it could not be put together better than your effort in this blog.

In my case though I sometimes have a raging battle between my heart and my head with each telling me to do something completely different. I have to make a decision but invariably I have found that the decisions I made with my heart were those I could live with and often brought pay off's I never imagined.

I am afraid I am still in mourning following the sad news last week of the passing away of the great Ronnie Corbett.

Here are a few more of his one liners.

In Sopforth today the funeral of Britain's most successful door to door salesman was called off because every time they tried to close the lid of the coffin ,he jammed his foot in it.

It is rumoured that the publishers have recalled the long-awaited book on the history of Sellotape. Apparently, no one can find a beginning

A grandfather has gone missing after eating four cans of baked beans, two cauliflowers and a jar of gherkins. His family have made the new motional appealing for him not to come home for at least a fortnight.

Ron knuckles was buried today at the service attended by the criminal underworld. As a mark of respect, the ceremony was ended with two minutes violence.

Mr Wally Turdham has again won the most amorous milkman of the year award. Apparently he is so popular with his lady customers that he started leaving notes on the doorstep saying 'none today thank you'

The sad news is that the funeral took place today of Mr Spencer P Dobson, the famous composer of crossword puzzle is. After a short service, he was very 6 down and 3 across.

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:32am

I'm sad too, Hopeful One. My heroes are falling. But their legacy will go on and on being a delight. Loved every joke! Bless you and have a brilliant day. Lxx

Lou Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 8:36am

"sometimes have a raging battle between my heart and my head" I totally get this HO - I am the same. Great Ronnie C jokes, he really was a great man and will be much missed.

Anonymous Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 9:35am

Yes I recognise this raging battle too. Sadly I feel my head rules as it's that part of my brain which is dominant when I'm anxious. However my heart is always beating and I feel with my heart.I think my heart motivates me and is behind my desire to be kind and make up for being so rational most of the time. If I had the chance to change my past decisions I am not sure if I might have made more heartfelt choices. Jules xx

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:16pm

For you and me, Jules, a new day has dawned. It's called "Today", and what we choose today, with all the wisdom we have now, will transform tomorrow. I believe in a better tomorrow. Lxx

Carol Wed, Apr 6th 2016 @ 11:20am

Hi Lex, have been a moodscope member for 3 years and never posted anything. Bad day at black rock (just seems to sum up things today) but having explored the blog and found this last comment about 'today' maybe there is hope to move out of the 'slough of despond'. No idea where this one came from. Just need to be careful not to do anything silly like leaving home, disappearing completely from everyone or eating a whole chocolate cake! Carol H

Hitchhiker Fri, Apr 8th 2016 @ 1:17pm

Carol, i too trolling the blogs looking for hope and your post touched my heart. I hope you chose the chocolate cake if you needed to rather than disappearing completely. I've felt those same two choices countless times! No matter what you choose or have chosen, I hope you are kind to yourself and feel your heart and find your way back to joy! Good for you for posting! I go in spurts. So much wisdom and kindness here, it does my heart good. My hat is off to Lex and all the bloggers and posters including you! Here's to Today, cheers! Hitchhiker

Lexi Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 12:34pm

Lexi to Lex! I loved this post. Whenever I choose to lead with my heart I feel like I've won the lottery. It isn't always easy and it takes a tremendous amout of faith and courage. But my heart has never failed me. Not once. Whenever I get stuck I get quiet and try to listen with my heart and then act on that. It's truly the only way to live.

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:09pm

Lex to Lexi... Amen and Again Amen!!! Lxx

Ron Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 12:53pm

Thanks for the great post. I am really feeling lost on my 'next step'. Wasting a lot of time ruminating about the options and taking no action. Some call it a lack of confidence. I think I have just lost confidence in what my heart is telling me. Time to listen again.

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:09pm

Hi Ron, I have got something to share that maybe won't wait till next week. I believe it will help. Leave it with me! Lxx

Anonymous Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 3:44pm

Words of truth, Lex. And beautifully written, too. I don't think it's possible to regret any decisions made with our hearts. Very easy to regret those made without heart, though -- even though regret in general is not a good thing:) I'm so glad you're experiencing some spooky (ie synchronistic?) things right now. To me, that means you're on the right path. You had a bit of a heart-shift several weeks back, didn't you? I remember thinking that but am too lazy to try and find the actual blog. Maybe the (good) 'spookiness' is the result. Thank you. xx

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:08pm

Oh yes, Dear anonymous, "Spooky" is now a daily occurrence! More to tell, more to tell... Lxx

the room above the garage Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:09pm

Hello Lex, you've made me think. Always a wonderful thing! I fear I have forgotten to listen, or have been unaware that I've stopped listening, to my heart. Perhaps that is why I'm in a bit of a wilderness...not down, not up, just there. Thank you my friend, it's like a little door has opened very far away but I know I should head to it. Thanks doll, love ratg X.

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:41pm

Run Ratg, run! I'm running near you and I know our paths will join. Have hope. Love xx

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 5:40pm

Here's the blog as Broadcast this morning on Hope FM.

Lex Mon, Apr 4th 2016 @ 6:48pm

You may also like to hear today's show with Daniel Wagner on the subject (loosely) of Joy...

Lex Tue, Apr 5th 2016 @ 8:30am

Part two of the inspirational interview with Daniel Wagner.

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