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Create your own reality. Sunday January 4, 2015

I use to think that this was the most frustrating concept. It would make me very angry to think that I was "supposed to" just turn my life into whatever I wanted it to be and if I couldn't figure out how to do that despite anxiety and depression, then it was entirely my fault. I was responsible for not creating the life I want.

Then slowly, after reading a book that inspired me, I started shifting my focus to small daily actions that I could take to get closer to how I wanted to feel.

It was worth it. I cannot help but feel a bit frightened and amazed by how far I've come. (And it's not just a metaphorical distance, I have moved from Canada to the UK!) I've gone through a lot of changes and I have had to deal with so much stress that it actually felt worse for a while, but somehow, most of the time I knew I was on the right track. When I lost sight of where I was or what I was doing, I just remembered how I wanted to feel.

These days, I'm happy. I still have mood swings, I still don't want to get out of the house most of the time. I'm still dealing with a lot of the same ingredients I had back before I started making the changes. The difference is how I choose to integrate them in to my reality.

I guess my message is: you can do it. No matter how small the actions you take to walk the path of how you wish to feel in your life, I believe that it does make a difference. Remember that it takes time. I have used my restrictions and my strengths to create a life that resembles me and no matter how much other people disagree with me, it feels so much better when I'm not trying to be them.

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The Entertrainer Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 6:05am

Dear Alicia
I would love to know the book you read that inspired you.
Best Wishes

Julia Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 8:18am

Yes I'd like to know the title too. I love your last 2 sentences Alicia. "I have used my restrictions and my strengths to create a life that resembles me and no matter how much other people disagree with me, it feels so much better when I'm not trying to be them"
Incorporating our perceived weaknesses and restrictions into our lives as positive forces is a new quite liberating idea for me.

Adam Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 8:42am

I think you've touched on several really important points - thank you Alicia. I agree, perhaps above all, how critical it is to be true to oneself.

Anonymous Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 8:51am

I too have been struggling with the idea that one "chooses happiness." I would very much like to hear examples of the small acts that made a difference in your life. They could very useful! thanks.

Ann Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 10:39am

Thank you Alicia for your inspirational and very sensible words. Think you should write a book yourself!

Mary Blackhurst Hill Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 11:28am

Thank you Alicia. Like Lex, I would love to know the book that helped you.

Diane Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 11:35am

Yes me too

Anonymous Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 11:37am

What's the name of the fecking book! Said in Father Ted style :D

Anonymous Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 11:43am


Powerful blog Alicia, love it. Did you feel free when you left one country for another? Dropped the shackles and stood tall? Brilliant stuff, love from the room above the garage x.

Elizabeth Piercey Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 12:07pm

Please can you divulge the name of this book

carole Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 2:38pm

Another plea for the title of the book.

Jenni Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 3:49pm

What a lovely post and very inspiring thankyou for sharing it x

Corkster52 Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 6:59pm

I am curious about the book as well!

Caroline Ashcroft Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 7:32pm

Hi Everyone, I've written to Alicia to try and find out what the title of the book is just in case she hasn't had a chance to view the blog. I'll report back when I hear from her.
Kind regards. Caroline

Neil Sun, Jan 4th 2015 @ 9:45pm

I too would like to know the name of the book.

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:06am

Hello Everyone!!! Thank you so much for the comments, it's so encouraging :) I've been wanting to write on the moodscope blog for a while and this is my first one. I look forward to write more, let me know if you have any topic or questions you'd like me to cover!

Love & Light,


The book is called The Desire Map by Danielle LaPorte and you can read her blog here:

(Note: I absolutely love her work and have been following the ideas of this book for 2 years. I'm also an affiliate so if you purchase any of her books in her shop through this link, I'll get comission and it supports my writing. Thank you so much if you do so. Very grateful! xxx )

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:17am

Sorry for holding back the name of the book everyone! I didn't get a chance to email back with the link before it was published (even though I did have plenty of time ;) aaaah procratinating brain) - I've included the name and the link in a comment below. Thank you for messaging me Caroline! :)

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:21am

Hi Julia! Glad it resonated with you :) It's quite a novel idea to me too, I'm learning to embrace my limits and I'm starting to realize that I get more done that way because I spend less time fighting against them and more time working my way around them instead. It takes much more energy than I thought to work around them but at least I'm progressing. :) Blessings! xx

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:32am

Hello :) your request brings up two things for me.

1) It makes me want to say that the small action had the purpose to bring me joy or make me feel good or more like myself in a way that I wanted to repeat the experience. If they didn't do that then they weren't on the list no matter how much other people thought they were good (or not good) for me.

2) Concrete examples: writing with purple ink, wearing colors, eating a few spoons of ice cream before breakfast, yoga and only the poses that feel right for my body - I have to remind myself I'm not here to prove anything, dancing in silly places - my living room, the tube, a parking lot, the grocery store, moving meditation, dancing and more dancing, experimenting with expressing my truth, baby steps with any projects, actually starting anything without expecting results just for the sake of it because it a big deal. Etc xxx

I hope this helps but again this is what works for me right now and it may change in the future.

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:33am

Thank you :) I hope to one day !

Alicia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:35am

I fecking wrote it down in the comment section! Love the swearing ^-^ Mehehe!

wiggy Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 12:40am

Thank you Alicia for writing this piece, it has come at just the right time for me, I have been in recovery for 7 months now and have been trying to follow this philosophy for a while but have hit some bumps in the road and needed to be reminded, I'm not out of the woods yet but I'm looking for the right signs and will hopefully start back again on the right path. This was a good sign and has helped me a lot! I shall be re reading this or maybe even put it up on my wall to keep reminding me until it becomes a natural feeling again. Beautifully written too. Thank you again and for the link, I shall buy the book through it so you get the commission. So grateful for Moodscope and the bloggers. I wish you continued Happiness, Health and sure, why not a little Wealth in there too! (or a lot) lol. :)

Anonymous Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 7:52am

Perfect. I get it. I love it.

Julia Mon, Jan 5th 2015 @ 8:26am

Hi Alicia. I would love you to write another blog but you decide the topic. It's always so refreshing to read about a subject or discovery which helps our mental health and which we hadn't thought of before.Keep up the writing and thx for the book reference.

Alicia Wed, Jan 7th 2015 @ 5:17pm

Just a note to say that my website with my poetry is up :) xxxx much love

Liz Thu, Jan 8th 2015 @ 7:26pm

Where can I find that Alicia?

Alicia Mon, Jan 12th 2015 @ 2:10pm :) you can also click on my name in the comment, it should link to my site. <3 :) thanks Liz!

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