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Connecting with the soul. Friday October 24, 2014

Recently I have felt a great need to heal my soul. I have felt as though my soul has been wounded and hurt and that this has caused me sadness and pain. I have never really before considered what my soul actually is. I have previously struggled to fully comprehend it. I am in the process of learning self healing through meditation and I have learnt some fundamental aspects.

I am most definitely an over thinker of life. I'm pretty certain I over think overthinking!! But I have recently learnt something that I have found liberating; I am actually not my thoughts and I am not my mind. I was amazed at this concept. I struggle to not think, I didn't think it was possible to be in a mind state with out any thought. So if I'm not my thoughts, and I'm not my mind, who am I?

Meditation is slowly helping me to connect with who I am. When I close my eyes I shut out the light and this helps me to focus. Concentrating on my breathing enables me to slow down my brain and my mind. My attention begins to focus on my body. I focus on each part of my body, and as I follow the process, my thoughts begin to become fewer. Feeling relaxed and centred I become aware of the sensations in the body, of the energy flowing through me. My body begins to feel lighter until all I'm left with is an awareness of energy.

That energy, I now realise is the essence of my being, that is my soul. And it is a totally freeing awareness because I now realise that, no matter what my struggles, no matter what my thoughts are or what each day brings, I have the ability to close my eyes and connect with myself and to feel the energy within, and I emerge with a renewed gratitude for having the gift to experience life.

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Hopeful One Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 6:39am

Thank you Rosie for describing your experience so eloquently. You already probably know this so excuse me if I repeat. The type of meditation you are practising is known as Vipassana and is practiced as part of the Theraveda tradition of Buddhism. The state of ' thoughtlessness ' but fully aware and focused concentration you describe is called samadhi or sati in the Indian literature and nirvana in the Buddist literature and translated as ' enlightenment' in Western literature. For me it represents 'Happiness' when I manage to achieve that state - it does not always consistently happen in every meditation session that I do . . Not to be confused with the emotion of happiness . I fully accept that it may mean something quite different to you .

Alexia Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 7:03am

Dear Rosie, I am so glad meditation is healing your soul. It has also helped me immensely. Please continue your beautiful journey!

Anonymous Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 7:41am

Thank you for this post Rosie, its beautifully written. I have tried meditation on and off for years but never stuck with it, hearing the benefits you gain from it has reminded me that its worth trying again. Thanks, Amy

G Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 7:49am

Thank you Rosie for you have spoken my experience, too. Meditation has helped me tremendously. It took me many months to notice the effect of reduction in amount of thoughts sprung up during meditation. The breathing technique eases my anxiety, for I often forgot to breath when I am tensed. Hopeful One's experiences 'Happiness', while other may find 'Peace', 'Calm', and other feelings or state of mind that people who suffer mental torments on a daily basis long for. For me, it is important to notice that nothing is permanent, things come and go, the happy ones, the sad ones. So when a feeling arises, remind oneself that it is here right now, and acknowledge that it will soon pass. I am yet to fully embrace the thought of accepting suffering when it arises, but I have found myself more at peace with the 'maniac' me when I don't feel well. I am also growing more appreciative of the happiness when I experience it, while it lasts. Glad to know that Alexia, and other people in this community have benefited from meditation :)

Rupert Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 8:10am

I can't realy relate to this I am afraid.My life is so busy that my mind is constantly juggling 100's of thoughts and issues and I cannot see how I could succesfully block these and achieve a state of calm and peacefulness but maybe I should try it!

Ali Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 8:48am

Thank you for sharing this Rosie. I am starting to learn mindfulness which I think is pretty similar to what you describe. I'm in the early stages of this and have a very buzzy busy little mind but it's helping me to let the thoughts go and just accept them as thoughts not me as such. Sorry, I'm not half as eloquent as you are!!

Anonymous Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 1:28pm

Hi Rupert, do you have an iPhone/ smart phone? If so, you can download an app called gives a free ten session trial. It shrugs off the stereotypical idea of meditation and presents it very, very well. You are guided through every step and the guy who narrates it has just the right voice. I'm on lesson 6 and I've done a couple with my 10 year old son who said "cool guy mum". I understand fully being so busy your mind is like a washing machine on full spin...but it's unhealthy. Do look it up, I think you might like it. Interested to hear what you think. Love from the room above the garage.

Anonymous Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 4:41pm

Have never tried meditation in the sense you describe Rose.....I do attend daily church services and attempt to achieve a similiar result through thought and prayer
God Bless to All DaveB

Elizabeth Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 5:16pm

can anyone please recommend some good sources on meditation? I do not mean practical instructions (only), rather more complex information ... I have tried meditation with varios results before, but I need words and theories, because for example I didnt realise that there was difference between awareness and concentration (and concentrating on a problem instead of just watching it makes the problem too big) until someone told me.

Hopeful One Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 7:19pm

Meditation is a skill you learn by bringing awareness to your chosen target ( in Rosie's case her breath ) and focusing on it with a single concentration. Mindfulness is the application of this skill in everyday life. Although used inter changely they are not the same . I hope this helps.

Anonymous Fri, Oct 24th 2014 @ 10:22pm

Thankyou everyone for taking the time to comment. I like the sound of the app mentioned so will have a little look into that. Elizabeth, you could try looking at the work of eckhart Tolle, I find him inspirational. I would love to do more meditation than I do but any I do I know is beneficial for me. It takes time and practice. Trust me, my head is super busy with thoughts. But actually what really helps is just the knowledge that if I close my eyes and meditate I have the ability to "feel" an inner peace with myself. Just knowing that is there, as bizarre as that might sound, helps me when I'm experiencing negative thoughts. I guess it helps me see my thoughts are just that, just thoughts and nothing more. Rosie xx

Hopeful One Sat, Oct 25th 2014 @ 7:45am

Hi Rupert-a racing mind like yours is an in efficient mind . Our minds can only fous/ concentrate on one thing at any one time. Anything else is simply an illusion.It is not a question of 'blocking ' these thoughts . That is not possible. As I have said in a previous blog if we could do that we would block all our negative/ unpleasant thoughts and liver with our happy/ pleasant thoughts ever after! What meditation does is to introduce a 'space in your mind' which allows you to become a dispassionate observer and in doing that your thoughts no longer dominate everything and as a by product slow them down making your mind an efficient place. I bet you that you will achieve far far more with the thoughts you have if you teach yourself to meditate. Follow anonymous's advice above. Start small say 10 minutes everyday for at least 8 weeks before you experience a change . After that it will be like brushing your teeth. You will not want to go back to BM( before meditation)

Hopeful One Sat, Oct 25th 2014 @ 7:51am

Hi Rosie . And feelings too I hope. The two go together - you cannot have one without the other I am afraid.

Elizabeth Wed, Oct 29th 2014 @ 1:35pm

Thank you for the reply. I have heared about Eckhart Tolle, but I didn't look into his teaching any closer. I shall try ...

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