Backstage concerts

6 Dec 2020
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I love live music.  Since I was very young it has been my pull to be at as many gigs and concerts as I can manage.  In younger days, I’d sometimes break rules to find a way, and I just felt heart full and happy to feel music, not just hear it. There are far fewer opportunities nowadays since I had children, and then moved into solo parenting.  But I have managed still to always be near music.

I’ve found the Covid-19 closing of venue doors to bring me sorrow.  Even if (pre-pandemic) I couldn’t attend with my timetable, I knew they were there, and thriving.  I feel real sorrow that they are quiet.  I miss orchestras, I miss rock, I miss small folk bands, I miss huge pipe bands, I miss quiet solo acoustics and I miss big arena gatherings.  I miss being myself and I miss feeling I belong, with like-minded souls. But it will be ok. Where there is a want, a way can be found.

Once again the online world brings great creativity. I’ve watched three concerts recently, live, in my PJs and in the front row. It’s been strikingly poignant watching rows of empty seats as singers cast out themselves into the silent world.  They sing, they play, and silence is their audience. But it feels fittingly beautiful to know that that poignancy holds no sorrow – it is instead a strong beacon. It says we’re together. We’re here. We are limited but we’re here. 

We are still very separated but there is spirit and connection available, it’s just going to take a little more bravery and effort to find. 

Keep writing your own headlines. 

Love from

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member.

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Marigold

Dec. 6, 2020, 12:32 p.m.

I have been invited to do things , learn things, experience things via Zoom. Sadly I am a bit of a dinosaur where tech is concerned and my mind is closed, thinking its not for me. I'm sure it provides some connection for some people and I hope they enjoy it. I like connection RATG, I have initiated a living advent calender in my street for neighbours. Its not super friendly here but its a start. Thanks for your blog.

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Oli

Dec. 6, 2020, 12:53 p.m.

Minds can be pests. I didn't go to Zoom straight away. My friends and I first used something free and easy called Jitsi Meet. It's literally: just click a link and you're chatting to your friends. To make sure you're chatting to *your* friends rather than me(!) Jitsi generates a unique pass phrase for you (or you can invent a passphrase for yourself). Suppose we wanted to chat now I'd invite you to click this link (it's kosher but validate Jitsi yourself if necessary): Oh and you'd have to copy/ paste it into your browser. https://meet.jit.si/TryItOutToSayHelloWombleRightNow I've just made a bunch of random words and a temporary video link. But it really is that simple. I'll be here till 13:10 GMT if anyone wants to say hello :-)

the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 1:59 p.m.

Hello Marigold, I can see how it’s a tough one. I haven’t been a fan either but I’ve plodded and formed myself around it, finding some benefits. It was a lifesaver to have this option when my dad had a recent big birthday...we were able to make his day special. It’s not for all and I fully respect that. Good to see you, love ratg x

the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 2 p.m.

Oli!!! Imagine if i’d caught you! I’d have giggled!

Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 5:09 p.m.

What does the living advent calendar entail Marigold? Sounds interesting.

Marigold

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:18 p.m.

Its an idea I saw on fb. Households "signup" to take part and each window is allocated a number. They then dress/decorate their window and include the number. Its nice for children to walk up and down the street and see it. I am the worlds most UnChristmassy person ever! But somehow I managed to scrape a little energy to do this.

Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:39 p.m.

How lovely Marigold xx

Oli

Dec. 6, 2020, 1:05 p.m.

Ah gigs. I fell out of love with big gigs a while back; I enjoy intimate performances these days. Well, those days. I'm sure live music will return. Thanks ratg! :-)

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the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 2 p.m.

Good to see you my friend :-)

julie

Dec. 6, 2020, 1:22 p.m.

The livestream gigs have been something to look forward to during the pandemic and a great way to support the artists. Have seen "live" gigs /sessions by Biffy Clyro, Kaiser Chiefs and Evanescence also a few livestreams from smaller record labels promoting lesser known bands. Long covid has meant I would be unable to get to the nearest big city for gigs, even if they were allowed, so I'm very grateful for the online gigs and to be able to have a "night out" at home with music, takeaway and a couple of glasses of wine.

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the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:02 p.m.

Hello julie, it’s certainly a strange world but it’s there and, like you, glad to be able to support even if in only a small way. Good to see you, love ratg x

Lex

Dec. 6, 2020, 1:31 p.m.

"Keep writing your own headlines." THAT was the word for me today. Thx Lx

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the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:03 p.m.

Hello my friend, how great to see you :-) I too have found a great inspiration from that phrase. I’ll get us tee shirts. Love ratg x

The Gardener

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:38 p.m.

I think it was to a RATG blog that I wrote a headline 'British woman charged by police for creating a disturbance' that was turning on loud music, opening windows and annoying the neighbours.

Salt Water Mum

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:39 p.m.

I'll have a 'keep writing your own headlines' T-shirt too please Room :-))) Like you, I love concerts and live gigs and miss them dearly. I watched two on zoom recently. One live and the quiet after the songs - only a few claps from the crew and band members and empty seats... it's surreal - 'is this really our lives now?' But gigs will be back and we will sing and dance and clap and whistle again :-))) Take care Moodscopers, swm x

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The Gardener

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:46 p.m.

I have no withdrawal symptoms, nothing to withdraw from here. As soon as anybody starts something lively, even a gig, neighbours complain. The few there were near the Mont I did not go to, hate being stuck in crowds. One never to be forgotten party was the bi-centenary of the French Revolution - 4 day street party. We were going to have a champagne party by the Eiffel Tower for the fireworks - got no nearer than the fourth bridge, with 10,000 others - picnicked on the central reservation. Real withdrawal symptoms about Paris.

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:50 p.m.

Separate issue topic I need to address before I can carry on moodscoping. I'm addressing this to Caroline as David the soon to be divorced mentioned her as the person who could remove a comment. I would have addressed David directly but this is an issue for anyone else in the same boat as he is so it's not a personal a attack just an observation in general. Being mentioned being a vunerable adult made me think, As I read David's comments on being locked up I was drawn in because of my own experiences inside a mental hospital. However David wanted people to email him directly if they had any help to offer.he gave directions to where his email was so I found it. Started to write before I realised and said hang on, this email has know real name to identify him by, yet I all of a sudden I would be giving out my real name, so exposing myself to potential grooming tracking pestering if he so wished and I wouldn't be able to do anything about it. He could be a peodaphile a pervert who knows what. Sorry David it made me feel extremely angry. On here I use a pseudonym as I am protecting my name from those who wish to slander it. Moodscope has been like a dog since 2017 and never left my side. And I certainly do not want to say goodbye to it, when I'm getting so much out of it. I have sent comments to David about his predicament for him to read as and when. As he posted his address to of the hospital he is staying at I will be sending him a Christmas card from me the Little lighthouse. Over and out.

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Caroline Ashcroft Moodscope

Dec. 6, 2020, 3:06 p.m.

Hi Lighthouse, you make a very good point. I knew that David had given the address of the hospital but not realised that he had given his email address, if I had I would have deleted it. I know David has no problem with people having his details but I would not recommend anyone contacting other Moodscope members directly until this has been agreed - usually through us. You are absolutely right, you have no idea really who you are contacting and giving your details to. Kind regards. Carolinex

Marigold

Dec. 6, 2020, 4:08 p.m.

I did raise this the other day.I was concerned with the amount of information being shared.

Dragonfly

Dec. 6, 2020, 5:27 p.m.

I'm afraid I feel strongly that your concerns, LL, might have been raised with Caroline privately, rather than such suggestions being made so publicly. Of course none of us knows who the other is; the whole Moodscope community is based on trust. To a great extent we have to use our discretion and judgement and can choose whether to make more personal contact with anyone or not. I know that David has commented on here for a number of years and is evidently in a state of deep crisis at the moment. I can't imagine what reading such a comment might do to his fragile mental state. I'm afraid it's made me feel quite angry, and is at odds with the gentle and inclusive tone of ratg's blog.

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:02 p.m.

Thanks Caroline. I feel so much better now and reassured you're looking after all our interests.. After Nearly put myself in jeopardy but thankfully this esculator had an emergency stop button and I could get off. Knot exposing myself behind any closed doors, so to speak yet hagain with this natural elevated new found feeling I've rekindled.

Tutti Frutti

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:04 p.m.

Hi all I think there's some valid points from everyone here. It was a while before I actually found out how to raise things privately with Caroline. So just in case others are unsure there is an email address you can use for this support@moodscope.com TF x

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:22 p.m.

I know rainbow. but knew know other way at the time. My prime concern was people's vulnerability, David's included, but David must realise too that asking vulnerable people to get involved on a personal level isn't safe for him or us. Because we could harm his recovery equally too. As we are all vulnerable if we are writing on moodscope. If you're a well person you wouldn't even be on here. We'll that's what I thought until now, but know realise whether your mentally unwell or Knot, we all have moods. I m sorry you're feeling angry rainbow. But some people are easily led into situations and do Knot have the ability to use their descretion and have poor judgement. I know I said those vile things and I wouldn't like it if I was David. That someone was insinuating that i was a threat in any way. But when your elevated you can reach out to anyone who will listen even though your putting yourself in danger. David is a grown man who happens to be ill he has a clever mind and wants to be free. So he says And I believe he will when he is in control and feeling empowered again. I did share my thoughts to one of his post on the 3rd or the 5th or both.

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:31 p.m.

Remember reading your comment marigoldbut couldn't make out at the time what. I am a bit slow and cut out sometimes but I mean we'll just have a funny way of showing it.

Dragonfly

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:32 p.m.

I'm pleased Caroline has put your mind at rest and you feel happy to continue on Moodscope. It's all a learning process. Best wishes to you.

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:41 p.m.

Thanks tuti fruti will put it I'm my address book.

Marigold

Dec. 6, 2020, 7 p.m.

Any place where a group of people are sharing has to be watertight safe.

Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 7:09 p.m.

Lighthouse, this site is very well monitored. I do have to agree with Rainbow, that the words you used could affect David a lot. If someone provides their email address, you don’t need to act on it, just ignore it. Whatever you want to say to David, you can say on here. The usual thing is that if you feel you want to communicate with someone, you email Caroline on the address Tutti has provided and if she feels it appropriate she will pass on the info. If you haven’t already, it might be a good idea to drop her a line. She always replies and gives good advice xx

The Gardener

Dec. 6, 2020, 2:52 p.m.

I'm not an opera fan - but on Friday I watched 'The Magic Flute' from Versailles, recorded pre-lock-down. Any of you with the equipment may be able to get it. Crazy, brilliant, the most amazing costumes and scene shifting - Papageno a hoot - singing and music not bad either. France has a 'Fete de la Musique' on midsummer day. Went to Paris for my 70th birthday, day after - over 1.000 gigs - huge ones in the squares, little ones on street corners. We drank champagne on banks of Seine, and I fetched up in the fountain, growing old disgracefully, makes life VERY dull at the moment.

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Catherine

Dec. 6, 2020, 11:22 p.m.

Gardener ...I found the site and managed to listen to the overture, but the costumes were amazing. Reminded me of Alice in Wonderland. I so want to watch the opera proper so will keep searching for it. Thank you gardener for the heads up. Floppy :)

Orangeblossom

Dec. 6, 2020, 4:31 p.m.

Hi RATG thanks for the blog which is, as ever upbeat and uplifting. Looking forward to your next blog.

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 5:55 p.m.

Hi the room above the garage, I am so glad in my teens when I went to my first and only concert, madness and the specials which deafened me and made me feel so sick but I adore them through the tele. So had to find somewhere quiet to stand with my beautiful friend Rachel and her boyfriend Giles. But I did see a live opera and instrument concert and I loved them both equally. The reason I say this. Is because I would be heart broken if I was you too knowing my world as I knew it had been shattered. I love music, but was only aloud to listen to pop music when I went away to boarding school, so never developed any styles I could ever talk about like you do so beautifully. Recently I did a music therapy class. But still didn't develop although did make me cry at the time. Then directed by my daughter to Spotify and re discovered my love of 80s music. Soul and some others, Have just discovered headspaces focus music. Which i listen to all the time it has woken me up from stupours tiredness and fatigue, basically everything. It has taught me to overcome so many things by giving similar situations a new sound to remember them by. Thanks for sharing. I'm glad Caroline wrote back otherwise I would never have read your blog. Apologies for thundering on your rain but didn't realise who Caroline was. Now I know.. Problem solved and we can moodscope safely.. Will reply to Caroline's comment struggling to get a handle on which reply buttin to press. X

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Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:14 p.m.

Hi RATG! I’m so pleased that you are satisfying your love of live gigs. I used to enjoy them in my younger days. Then it was more the theatre, musicals etc. Having a theatre practically opposite to where I worked, we went a lot, my colleague and I. A nice meal after work and a two minute walk to the theatre. When my panic attacks started, that put a stop to theatre trips. Then Agoraphobia.... So lockdown hasn’t really changed much for me but I do feel for people who are almost reliant on Their passions and socialising. The internet is just amazing though isn’t it, what did we do without it? What would we do now without it? I’ve not signed up to Zoom, it’s just not my cup of tea. I do plan a video call with my brother soon who lives away but we both need to be in the right frame of mind. That will be through messenger or Skype. I play music and watch videos but I’ve not gone down the ‘live’ route. Sounds good! Thanks for the blog RATG xx

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:40 p.m.

Hi David if your reading this and are struggling to find my comments to you, and are feeling uncomfortable in any way. I meant no harm to you directly but I was only saying you could be and and I could be. And when two vulnerable adults try and sort each other out privately they may become entangled and rescuing from another situation.

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Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 11:28 p.m.

That’s what Moodscope is about Lighthouse. We are here for each other, on the site. No direct contact is necessary. I understand your Kindness to want to help David, which is really commendable. But he’s in a safe place and so are you, if you stick to this site. We are all here for David and he knows that. You won’t be able to rescue him, as much as you can’t the next person. You can send him love and support via the site, as I said, that’s what Moodscope is about. I’m sure David is getting all the help and support he needs xx

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:47 p.m.

Need rescuing. Long live music.

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Jul

Dec. 6, 2020, 6:56 p.m.

Hello ratg. I cannot wait to get back to live gigs, the larger the better. The O2 is one of my favorite venues and the Royal Albert Hall. For rock concerts. I adore everything about them. Arriving at your seat clutching your ticket not knowing who you'll sit next to, the wait for the band to appear watching the sound and lighting system being set up and the roar from the crowd when the artist arrives on stage, then the first guitar rifs and the familar song to a round of excitement and cheering. Thank you for your blog ratg. Jul ***

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Frankie

Dec. 6, 2020, 7:22 p.m.

Oh Jul, your description is spot on - took me right there; thank-you! (Neil Diamond, if you’re wondering). Frankie

Frankie

Dec. 6, 2020, 7:22 p.m.

Oh Jul, your description is spot on - took me right there; thank-you! (Neil Diamond, if you’re wondering). Frankie

Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 8:02 p.m.

Love Neil Diamond, so does husband. He moved in with next to nothing but in his possessions was a Neil Diamond CD lol!! Good to see you Frankie xx

Frankie

Dec. 6, 2020, 7:24 p.m.

Thanks dear RATG. Reliving some wonderful memories ... Hello everyone! Frankie

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the room above the garage

Dec. 6, 2020, 10:52 p.m.

I did not get back to answer everybody, which I don’t like, but it is how it is. I’m interested in hearing all the stories. TG, I’m glad of your disgraceful fountaineering, why not, and you will return! Jul, yes. Frankie, great to see your name. Molly, hello my love. LL I’m glad you’re sorted. Best to David. SWM, TF and Ob, hello :-) I’m exhausted and must sleep but just wanted to say goodnight and sleep tight , love ratg xx

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Molly

Dec. 6, 2020, 11:30 p.m.

Night lovely RATG xx

Little Lighthouse

Dec. 6, 2020, 11:49 p.m.

I just know people they aren't always who they say they are but we have to stay safe and if we see a blunder then it's our duty to point it out. We may like to Bury our heads in sand so we don't here any cold truths. But the truth will still be there when you come up for air. I listened to Caroline and am Knot trying to fix David not my problem but I got confused because someone was asking for help when they didn't need it. And I over reacted because it triggered off a child hood memory for your information.

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 7, 2020, 12:17 a.m.

No such thing as watertight even David said he thought it would be removed its just it slipped under the radar according to Caroline. No harm done.. We are human not stuffing lighthouses. We just appear like them that's all. David's on the elevator and doesn't want to get off. Thank *** room above the garage came on today and lifted the lid on dire straits. Thankyou for the music. In all honesty. We're all responsible for our own reactions. And if you want to feel miffed and angry and protect people you don't know so be it. Trust is a very precious thing only to be given to those who earn it. Love is just a game to some people with noughts and crosses thrown in for good measure. But mean only I'm frightened of loosing you if I don't tell you I love you or seal it with a kiss. There's a song in there if someone wants to use it. *** xxxx I don't give a flying fig how many kisses I'm not interested in what you have to say when you don't understand what I'm truelly saying. Read between the lines and you may get more out of it. Who cares about David being in hospital, we've all been in there one time or another. They care for. You feed you wash your clothes. Make sure your safe and won't let you go until they know you are on the mend and functioning again. It was an unessesary but understandable distraction seeing an email address out there. An error that can't be helped by someone crying out for more than they need. Sharing stories with people you don't know is half the fun because you are not real and could be anyone you want to be but for now it's a place to speak and listen to be free.

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 7, 2020, 1:01 a.m.

Little labels signing out, over and out.

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Little Lighthouse

Dec. 7, 2020, 1:36 a.m.

Just trying to light up the way with ideas so he can find his way out of the storm which is hard going at times. Believe me I know. Believe me, your not alone either company excluded who needs it most of the time anyway. you have the stars and sun and moon the land the sky and sea to venture in.. It may not be his or anyone else's way but may work for someone else like it did for me. sometimes our boats hit rocks and let water in. But with time they can be repaired. Being out at sea is a very lonely place and it takes guts and deremination and peace of mind to reach your destination. Sometimes with a navigator sometimes blind. Holy mackeral it's meal time in 9 hrs, best get fishing fbefore I head back into the safety of my lighthouse. *--* Once again signing out..

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Molly

Dec. 7, 2020, 2:01 a.m.

David isn’t your responsibility Lighthouse so let him be. I know we all want to help others but we can’t, it’s impossible. Just concentrate on yourself.

the room above the garage

Dec. 7, 2020, 10:12 a.m.

Molly that is great advice. It’s simply not our job to fix each other, it’s our job to be here from time to time and let others know they can lean on us. You’re so much stronger than you were when you stared here, I’m very proud of you to see that. Hope you have a good day, love ratg x

Molly

Dec. 7, 2020, 7:07 p.m.

Thanks RATG, very true. I’d love to save the world but we just can’t can we! As for being stronger, I suppose it just depends what mood I’m in! Or maybe it’s just getting to know regulars and the great support here. I don’t know, I’m always intrigued when you say that but I will take it as a compliment :-) xxxx

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