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A part of life that many don't see. Thursday September 25, 2014

I live among you well disguised,
I can appear from behind your eyes.
I enter in before you know,
As soon as I come, you want me to go.

You sometimes need me, to take a break,
You sometimes hate me, for pity's sake.
You try to avoid me, all the time,
I am often waiting, when your life don't rhyme.

I can take your soul, and spirit to,
I can empty your body, a vacant you.
I can create such pain, in body and mind,
I am pernicious to you and never kind.

You cannot see me, you never will,
I am that flag on that invisible hill.
I open thoughts that change your life,
I bring you darkness and hurt and strife.

Sometimes you fight me with chemical pills,
Sometimes you don't know what makes you ill.
Sometimes I take you way down and down,
Sometimes below the water you drown.

I am in every country and continent you see,
I am in your home, your work and overseas.
You cannot stop me with border controls,
I am ubiquitous, I create darkness patrols.

You often find me, when you lose your way,
I'll happily turn your world to grey.
I seep inside your every thought,
You cannot escape, I am your lot.

A lot of loss - a lot of pain,
A lot of hurt - that old refrain.
I might be new or I might be old,
One thing's for sure, your joy I've sold.

You never know how long I'll come,
I can make you look down the barrel of a gun.
I'll affect your family and parents too,
I'll affect everything to do with you.

I hate your friends they weaken me,
I avoid your partner and your family tree.
I loathe your doctor and your CPN,
I make you hide again and again.

But somehow always you find some light,
Even if it is, in the middle of the night.
To loosen my grip, my hold on you,
You find your heart and pull it through.

The rest of your body hears that song,
Of who you are and where you belong.
It gets stronger and as others help,
I start to shrink back as chemicals yelp.

And then you get a glimpse of you again,
Then that opens the door to a happy refrain.
The sun comes up the birds do sing,
You find there's more that life can bring.

You've beaten me again I have to go away,
Your happy now that joy holds sway.
You've taken control you won your fight,
You've found the switch for your internal light.

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Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 6:26am

Captured in elegance.
Very comforting in its truth. I think I'm in verse 2, trying not to let verse 3 come.
Thank you Les, love from the room above the garage x.

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 7:00am

Thank you so so much Moodscope and Les for an amazing poem. This site is helping me so much currently thank you Lucy xx

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 7:03am

This is so powerful and I can relate to every word it hurt to read this brilliant poem but it shows that there is light at the end of the tunnel.Thankyou

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 7:48am

Wow, you're very talented

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 8:10am

Many lines chime with me, Les. I particularly like that strong last line.

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 8:21am

Thank you very much Moodscope, what a brilliant poem! You are very insightful Les

Julia Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 8:23am

I like the imagery here and especially that depression grips but that we can loosen its grip.

Trisha Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 8:52am

Thank you Les sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks and today is a good day for me so they are tears of recognition not sadness. Sometimes feels that you reach out and touch my soul.

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 10:18am

I can't put it better, Trisha - thank-you for expressing my thoughts so aptly; and thank-you Les, again, and again, and again ... Frankie

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 11:22am

This is a superb piece of work, which vividly describes feelngs I recognise.
Untreated depression can be a paralysing condition, stealing over you unseen, overwhelming you unexpected and unannounced, like the poison gas in the trenches of the First World War, choking the life out of you.
Thank you Les.

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 1:38pm

Write on, Les.
Love, Rich.

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 2:47pm

Excellent poem Les
PS. Wish I had the courage to try and write a poem.

heather Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 3:40pm

Very original and VERY powerful Les. Love from Heather xx

Anonymous Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 3:41pm


heather Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 3:42pm

Don't go there ratg xx

Alexia Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 8:49pm

What a beautiful poem!

Neil Thu, Sep 25th 2014 @ 10:27pm

How true and not just about one thing - there are many things in this world and life that can have this effect. Thank you for sharing this.

Les Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 3:30am

Thanks Trisha........and Frankie............special......

Les Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 3:34am

Thank you to everyone who has commented........I do find it very 'rewarding' to write these blogs and that people find them helpful.

I write this from one line from Leonard Cohen's new album and what I wanted to do, was help people who may be feeling alone and that no one understands them. I hoped that certain lines or stanzas would 'connect' and they would somehow feel understood. moving to verse 3........what can you do to prevent that?

Thanks again everyone......appreciated
Les x

Les Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 3:37am


When you write a poem - send it to Caroline at Moodscope and ask her to pass it to me.........let's get you moving.....?

"There is no try - only do and don't do" - Yoda

Julia Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 12:59pm

Ah Leonard Cohen. I have just looked up the titles from Popular Problems but can't find any lyrics. I am going to order the CD. (I don't download music, never got into it but that's another story) Do you like his song from his last Album, called Amen? One of my all time favourites.

Les Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 2:14pm

Hi Julia

My favourite Mr C album (I still call them albums as I still have all his originals in vinyl and I too still buy CDs) is Ten New Songs. 1,000 Kisses Deep - gets me every time.

On his new one - the line came from 'Nevermind'.....'I live among you well disguised'....Fab - FAb FAB.......

Enjoy it - you will not be disappointed.

Les Fri, Sep 26th 2014 @ 2:18pm

Ooopss......forgot........yes - like 'Amen'.......interesting dichotomy between the unusually 'light' instrumental feel and his voice and depth of lyrics.....

'Angels scratching to get in'...........such richness............

Julia Sat, Sep 27th 2014 @ 8:12am

1000 kisses deep sounds too much to bear, I mean read. Some of his words stop me in my tracks. I will look at the lyrics of 1000 kisses....deep. Yes Amen makes me laugh actually with his angels scratching to get in

Julia Sat, Sep 27th 2014 @ 2:32pm

Am listening to it now. I knew the poem or had read it (faintly recall) but not the song. Wonderful. YouTube has the man himself reciting the poem.

Les Sat, Sep 27th 2014 @ 6:42pm

Aye - we can 'receive' so much from being open to other people's emotions and feelings - as long as they build on or deepen ours and we don't - as it were - take them on.

Duet - Rachael Yamagata
Suzanne - Micah P Hinson (great version)
Let it Be Me - Ray Lamontagne
Dark End of the Street - Ry Cooder
No Easy Way to say Goodbye - O V Wright
As Years go Passing By - Boz Scaggs
Every Step - Mavis Staples
Love Abides - Tom Russell


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