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In Darkness. Sunday April 24, 2016

Self-help books on dusty shelves,
Sitting alone to retreat and hide.
Pots and pans dirty in the sink,
Thinking of Canute and the incoming tide.

We cannot change the course of nature,
We cannot undo the pain.
We cannot fake what's in our hearts,
We can only work to stay sane.

We can seek the light in the dark,
We can step into the discomfort to talk.
We can crawl and fall out of that bed,
We can feel the sun outside for a walk.

We may suffer shorter this time,
We may ride with suicide for a while.
We may retreat more than before,
We may avoid that self-harm style.

We might write a comment on Moodscope,
We might even write a blog.
We might then connect to others,
We might avoid this black dog slog.

We must put one foot in front of the other,
We must continue to eat.
We must wash and shower each day,
We must look up and not down at our feet.

We are not alone in this hell,
We are all hurting inside.
We are all simply seeking to breathe,
We are all seeking the upside.

An upside which is sunny,
An upside which is funny.
An upside where there is enough money,
An upside which tatses like honey.

We will now believe it will end,
We will now seek out our friends.
We will now stop that pretend,
We will now seek that colourful lens.

We cannot
We can
We may
We might
We must
We are
We will...

Until we are better.

A Moodscope member.

Thoughts on the above? Please feel free to post a comment below.

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Liane Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:16am

Hang in there Les.

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:31am

Hi Liane - thanks

Jonathan Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:37am

Excellent poem, thanks!

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:32am

Hi Jonathan - thank you

Hopeful One Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 7:34am

Hi Les -our Resident Poet strikes again! It could not have been put better. Do I understand that our happiness comes mostly from within ? So while material things and possessions or the push it of wealth might give us a thrill but it only lasts for so long. The pursuit of those ultimately leaves us poor. In Orwellian 1984 speak ' To be rich is to be poor'

Today our laugh is lesson number I on management So we can catchy hat ' an upside which is funny'. The other management lessons will be covered in following days.

Management Lesson Lesson Number One

A crow was sitting on a tree, doing nothing all day. A small rabbit saw the crow, and asked him, "Can I also sit like you and do nothing all day long?" The crow answered: "Sure why not." So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the crow, and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Management Lesson: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Debs Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:42am

Very funny!!! And v true xx

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:32am

Hi HO - Nothing you will ever need will be found 'outside' you.

the room above the garage Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:24am

Thank you Les. Love to all xx.

Debs Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:42am

How are you roomy? xx

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:33am

Hi RATG - I hope you are the best you can presently be.

Hopeful One Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 1:17pm

Hi RATG- I did ask a few days back if you had moved on so glad to see you back.

Frankie Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 3:31pm

Great to see you RATG! Frankie

the room above the garage Mon, Apr 25th 2016 @ 8:57am

Hello Debs, I'm 'picking through' I think that accurately describes me at present. Thank you very much for asking xx. Howdy Les, I am the best I can be, and working on growing it. You my kilted one? xx HO, you're adorable. I'm screeching my bad company and have had nothing to offer know I was missed makes ye olde heart swell, thank you my friend xx. Frankie, your steady hand means much, I keep thinking of you and yours as I experience care homes and dementia. I look forward to your blog telling us how its been at your end xx.

the room above the garage Mon, Apr 25th 2016 @ 8:58am

HO...'screechingly'...autocorrect doing it's dance!

Debs Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:41am

Great poem Les, sending love your way xxx

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:34am

Hi Debs - Have a relaxed day :-) x

Angela Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:57am

Very good poem!! hugs to all moodscopers x

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:34am

Hi Angela - Many thanks and great to embrace others......The only way to happiness is with and through others.

Chris Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 9:49am

Thank you Les. Really resonated with me and I see the same in others I care about. Always helpful to know one is not alone.

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:55pm

Hi Chris - that is key for me in writing regularily .....hopefully helping some people who feel it is a major thing for me when darkness befalls.

LillyPet Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 10:01am

Thank you for this poem Les, I liked "We cannot fake what's in our hearts" and the idea that we want sunshine and smiles and want them to be real. Wishing both to all :) LP xx

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:57pm

Hi LP - well said for everyone.

Chris Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 11:37am

Thank you so much. So powerful and so beautifully written.
Message so enhanced by being in a poem.

Sometimes having to get stuff to work as a poem can mean a loss of impact or message.
Not here
I feel humbled, honoured and grateful
Thank you

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:59pm

Hi Chris - many thanks for your kind is great to be able to put pen to paper based on a first line that 'appears' and the rest simply 'falls' out.

Anonymous Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 11:55am

Hello Les. I know you enjoyed the bright sun while skiing. It's been particularly dark in the UK these last few days. When did you write this poem? I have always observed that you are very good giving advice to others here on Moodscope and I for one have benefitted enormously from some of the things you have said. Where do you get help from when you are this dark place? I know it's difficult giving yourself the same advice you give others but sometimes it's worth a try. I just feel sometimes that we don't help you at all, that you know all the answers and on the whole we don't. But I acknowledge how much you have helped me in the past and hopefully you will continue to. I wish so much I could help from afar, not for my own personal satisfaction but to help you in a small way. I will always remember the blog you wrote early on about how horses helped you. I warmed to you so much reading that. I must look at it again. Jul xx

Frankie Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 3:32pm

Well said Jul - I agree wholeheartedly! We do want to help Les; and we are so grateful for all you teach us. Frankie x

Anonymous Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 4:45pm

It's great to have your support for my comment Frankie. This means alot to me xx

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:04pm

Hi Jul - thanks for your kind thoughts. I am well just now, but still able to write in a way that hopefully enables some people to feel we are sharing the pain, due to my many boubts over the years. I wrote this one on Thusrday night after hearing the first line in a song I was listening to - it struck a chord - I write it down and the pen simply keeps moving. Horses for sure are a gift to humankind - for those whose hearts are open enough. I appreciate your thoughts.....thank you. Lx

The Gardener Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:21pm

Help 'in this dark place', trying to look for some light - did have some sun, but. Neighbour came down to moan about HER husband - we both dread evenings with these utterably miserable men. Computer worse than usual, finance programme I've used for years out of date, doing tax on equivalent of fag packet (then on line).

The Gardener Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:24pm

I need comfort. Everything has been done for Mr G today - nice house, warm, nurses a.m, good food. He likes being read to (his sight is poor) kept moving chairs - I ended with one in a dark corner and had to put the light on. Suddenly, decides lights hurt his eyes (absolute nonsense, obsession of alzheimer,) then turns them off on me. The whole evening will be spent arguing about the lights, and taken jackets on or off. I am at screaming point, but have to find some spiruitual light.

The Gardener Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 5:28pm

Writing rubbish - but the evenings are so awful with no communication and Mr G is at the 'naughty chilld' stage of the disease, can't sent him to bed at 7 - so he gets more and more tired and cross - if I react 'you're supposed to be looking after me'. Oh God, I'm going out of control myself. Sorrry

Ruth Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:06pm

Must be really hard for you.At least I only have to look after myself and I know how hard that is sometimes....oh,and my dog,Lacey the dachshund. Stay strong,scream if you need to.Let it out.

Ruth Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:03pm

I just love this poem and wanted to let you know what an effect reading it has had on me.
Thank you Les and take care-we are all routing for you at this difficult time
Kind regards

Les Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 6:12pm

Hi Ruth - As I said above - I'm fine just now after the darkness lifted a few weeks ago when I was working abroad - and that need to focus in the moment shifted the final piece. I can still sense how that darkness feels tho........and so I want to write to maybe express it in a way, that others may not be able to feel or express. It is that river of solitude that I seek to 'bridge' to serve others. Glad it had an affect on you Ruth......such comments make it all worth while creating and sharing.

The Gardener Sun, Apr 24th 2016 @ 8:22pm

Thanks Ruth - can't 'let it out' Mr G hurls abuse at me -even when eldest son was on the phone - tired out, dare not go to bed - hope he'll go to sleep, or at least calm down. I try and think of nice things to do tomorrow - Mondays I usually like - people are active, school, work and the awful loneliness of week-ends is over - and I worked so hard to try and make this week-end 'different' and it's worse.

Leah Mon, Apr 25th 2016 @ 2:53am

Gardener I have no wise words or any words except I think of you and hope you can have a few minutes for yourself. Hugs across the seas.I wish I could send you comfort. You never write rubbish. You are so strong and honest and more determined than anyone I know.

Christine Mon, Apr 25th 2016 @ 10:02am

Hello Les...thank you for your contributions; I always read them with great pleasure...however I have to take task with you about poor Canute. He always gets such a bad press. The truth of the matter is he did "the waves and the tide thing" to prove one thing; he is not, was not, and never will be, a God. And the courtiers of the time were holding him up to be a God-like person. He had to show them that he, like us, is mortal. And he, like us, is flawed. And is at one and the same time, a Good we are Good People too.

Les Wed, Apr 27th 2016 @ 7:03am

Hi Christine - I stand corrected.........although I'm not sure you will change his 'bad press'...... Maybe his courtiers got upset at him proving them wrong and 'fixed' the media of the day!!??

Gord Fri, Apr 29th 2016 @ 1:30am

Awesome poem Les

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