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Building blocks. Sunday May 1, 2016

Piles of paper
Piles of socks
"Piles my dear
Are caused by blocks!"

Block the doorway,
Block the desk,
Block the phone and to do list.
Block the freezer,
Block the car,
Block the garden, don't go far.
Block the people,
Block the door,
Block the cupboards and the floor.
Block the noise out
And the stress,
It's safe inside
with all my mess.

That can go,
It's worn out now,
Sentimental, lost somehow.
Hold on to love,
Hold on tight,
Hold on to nothing with all my might.

To comfort me,
My "precious"stuff
Lies all around and with a gust...

It's stuff and nonsense,
Stuffed myself!
Stuff old books from dusty shelf.
Stuff the rubbish
In the bin,
Recycle out and not within.

Just one corner,
Just one shelf,
One small step to help myself.
Make one call,
A little space,
Take my time, it's not a race!
Take a moment,
Take a rest,
Take a breath and do my best.

It's ok to step outside
Once I've started,
Love the ride!
Around the block,
Or to the trees,
Bubbling brook
And air to breathe.

Release my fists.
Release my pen,
Let all flow out and in again.
Relax my grip
on useless things,
That memory,
The pain it brings.

Be more gentle,
be more kind,
Relax clenched teeth.
Release my mind.

Look at just how far I've come,
I'm stronger now,
No need to run,
To hide within the past, old me,
There's hope ahead.
For now
Just be.

Lillypet
A Moodscope member.

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Comments

Hopeful One Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 7:25am

Hi Lillypet- a thoughtful poem which seems to suggest to me that to move on one must sort out our past blocks to allow new thoughts and ideas which seem helpful , creating space for ourselves so we can be in the present appreciating what we have achieved. I look forward to see what other Moodscopers think.

The Joke Squadron is always on the move to get that laugh that sets up the day. This is what it found.

A beautiful young woman wearing a tight mini skirt was waiting for her bus. The bus came and it was her turn to get on it .She became aware that her skirt was too tight to allow her leg to get on first step of the bus. Slightly embarrassed and with a quick smile to the bus driver, she reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little, thinking that this would give her enough room only to discover she still couldn't do it.So a little more embarrassed, she once again reached behind her to unzip her skirt a little more. She made her second attempt and, once again, much to her dismay, she could not raise her leg. With a little smile to the driver, she again reached behind a third time to unzip a little more and again was unable to make the step. A tall well built man standing behind her picked her up easily by the waist and placed her gently on the step of the bus. She went ballistic and turned to the would be Samaritan and yelled, "How dare you touch my body! I don't even know who you are!" The tall well built smiled and said "Well, ma'am, normally I would agree with you, but after you unzipped my fly three times, I figured It was OK !"



LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:58am

Lol :) Yes H, I was noticing blockages in all sorts of ways. Am creating space and having a spring clearing! Xx

Mary Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 2:08pm

Ah - love that joke but am blushing for that poor woman!

Hopeful One Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 7:29am

Hi RATG- your thoughts yesterday were appreciated.

the room above the garage Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:44pm

:-)

Zareen Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 8:38am

Hi Lillipet, loved your very honest blog to which I fully identified. Thanks!

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:56am

Thank you too Zareen, :)

Oli Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:13am

@"Lillypet" -- Thank you for that -- I've spent the past hour picking up the piles of paper; shredding what needed shredding; re-cycling; putting clothes in the laundry basket. I've been looking at that for WEEKS, maybe longer. Thank you once again.
I've also scheduled a reminder to re-read it every month.
And after this coffee and post I'm going out for a walk.
I ain't taking it sitting down any more.
:-)

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:55am

Hi Oli, I love that! I ain't either! :)) Thank YOU! We'll do it together. :) xx

g Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 10:21am

very poetic poem .I really like the play on words and all kinds of poetic ways of expressing feelings about such a mundane subject - way to go and a big thank you.

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:57pm

Yes g, I never thought of it as mundane because it's caused me so much guilt, anxt and a feeling of helplessness. Maybe it's mundane nature adds to that ad there's little motivation to deal with it on the surface.

Richard Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:00am

Thanks, Lillypet.
I love the rhythm in your poem.
Peace & love,
Richard.

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:58pm

Thanks Richard! :)

Skyblue Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:19am

Delightful! I love this, Lillypet. So much in it! Wonderful the way it ends with the peaceful 'for now just be' after such fast-paced flurry. I believe that when I've mastered the relationship with material things, that's when I will have mastered the one with myself. Always looking for stuff to send to the charity shop or bin, in fact it's one of the 'head holidays' I take (thank you, ratg, I didn't have time to comment yesterday). Mary wrote a really helpful blog about 'stuff' many months ago and I've always remembered what she said about the fear aspect of letting things go. Your little masterpiece is being printed out for weekly reference. Thank you and have a lovely Sunday. xx

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:47pm

Thank YOU SB ! I'm so glad. LP xx

Still picking figs Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:25am

Hello Lillypet
Writing a poem is a beautifully therapeutic way of dealing with life's clutter.

I spent most of yesterday morning and afternoon, cleaning and tidying our poor, neglected house with my poor, neglected husband.
For now, the house looks reasonable and it's no surprise that I got my highest ever score on Moodscope today, although accomplishing the housework was not the sole contributory factor.

Last night, on our way to a rare meal out with friends, we passed the scene of a terrible car accident in a country lane. The sight of three fire engines, numerous police cars and ambulances, put us all in a sombre mood.

However, we went on to enjoy an amazing meal in a unique setting. A stranger's kitchen on the edge of a Peak District village, eating authentic Afro-Carribean food with a stunning view of the English countryside. It was an extraordinary experience and I felt glad, especially of the recently witnessed event, to be alive.

Later that evening, we came back to our home in the city, friends in tow, to play cards in the one room we'd failed to tidy properly.

Bags of teaching resources waiting to be sorted, heaped on the floor. Criss-crosses of paperwork piled on all available surfaces. My yellow roses fading in the jug on the table.

None of this mattered. Eventually it will, but the block in place today is a very healthy one.

A happy bank holiday to all Moodscope folk, and be safe on the roads.

Mary Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 2:13pm

Hello SPF (what a wonderful name). Yesterday I visited the home of a friend. Clutter! Clutter and mess everywhere. And I said to her what so many people have said to me: "I came to see you, my dear, not your house." and "Your house reflects your many interests; it shows you have a life." And I found that I really meant those words. It didn't bother me that her house could not ever hope to audition for a spread in "Beautiful Homes", because I know that her heart and soul certainly deserve a full page spread in "Interesting and Beautiful People" Magazine (if such a worthwhile publication were to exist).

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:54pm

Yes, it takes courage to relax enough not to worry about it, building blocks can be constructive too! Xx

Anonymous Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:26am

Beautifully put Lillipet. Thank you.

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:56pm

My pleasure A. Xx

Anonymous Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 1:49pm

What meaningful writing this is Lillypet. Each section of your poem/prose conjured up different emotions in me. The "Blocks" section spelt anger. I especially liked the Hold to Love, hold on tight, hold onto nothing with all my might. You refer to it later when you say about memory bringing pain. There is hope at the end. What you have written today reflects your comments over the past months on the blog pages. You feel freer, better and stronger. That's what I take from today. Have a nice bank holiday weekend and hopefully enjoy nice weather and good feelings Lilly. You should be very pleased with your blog today. It's magnificent. Julxx.

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:57pm

Thank you so much Jul xx

Mary Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 2:14pm

Wonderful, LillyPet. Loved it.

LillyPet Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 11:58pm

Thanks Mary :) xx

Alice Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 2:44pm

Dear Lillypet, I loved your poem. It made my heart sing. What a clever and sensitive girl you are. Your comments are so thoughtful and this blog raised my spirits in a way that was needed. Thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts with us, may you rise and shine again. Alice xx

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:03am

Thank you Alice it makes me feel happy to have given a lift!! Xx

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:04am

Nice to see you Alice :) xx

Anonymous Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 4:09pm

I suddenly remembered Dawn Ritchie of the cupcake fame who has been silent on Moodscope recently. Julxx

Bearofliddlebrain Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 5:56pm

Lillypet...you are a sdar of highest order. A wonderful poem, perfect in every way, showing much of yourself.
We all need to declutter, but some days are so difficult and we aren't ready on other days...I've been decluttering the garden..weeding...de-slugging and de-snailing...and then planting beautiful liddle pots of flowers that should cheer all who see them.
I do hope you have been 'just you' today and taking the time to look how far you have come over the past year or so.
Am sending a pat on the back and a big Bear hug.
Also want to thank everyone for being so kind this week and including this old Bear in your thoughts...too kind.
Biggest Bank holiday Bear hugs all round x o x o

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:07am

Thank you lovely! Yes some days it just aint happenin but that's okay, all in good time.xx

The Gardener Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 8:13pm

Bear, please. What do you with the slugs and snails? Eat them or chuck them over the wall to the neighbours? I have achieved mass, lunch in sunny conservatory in other house, helping friend with translation and tea with the nuna.All done in increasing fear for the future - Mr G's mind tells him he can't walk, can't breathe, can't get out of a chair - I've had to really lug him about, yet he's quite fit.

The Gardener Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 8:19pm

Lillypet - if I could 'just be' for an hour. Half an hour in the sun with SUDOKU and a glass of muscat can start to re-charge - but even that's a treat. The promised help just is not available - all emphasis is on my keeping well -went out to tea in an old sweater and hair not done. I've ggot to get my self-respect back - Lillypet's poem - I have 'life-tidied', de-clutter (having two houses is a minor blip) and concentrate on essentials - but time for ME is non-existent

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:12am

Hi TG, yes I have tended to put myself and what I want last too. One small change makes a big difference though. Xx

Fiona Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:32pm

I absolutely love this. I can relate so much. Very clever. Well done! Thanks x

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:13am

My pleasure Fiona. Xx

the room above the garage Sun, May 1st 2016 @ 9:47pm

Thank you LP, I'm comforted to know I'm not alone! Downstairs all looks well...upstairs mmm, 'projects'!! Talented woman you are, love ratg X.

LillyPet Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 12:20am

Thank you dear ratg! I hear you! That "Where to begin?" feeling. Sometimes I go to the window and start backeards from there till I've had enough for one effort! :) Xx

Terri Mon, May 2nd 2016 @ 4:07pm

Thanks so much for putting my thoughts and feelings into writing!

Terri

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