Moodscope's blog

12

July


Anxiety, what a pest it is. Saturday July 12, 2014

Someone asked me recently if my insomnia got worse if I was worried about a future commitment.

I hesitated on this one as I was feeling so dreadful that day, I didn't think it could get any worse even if I had to make a televised speech to the Houses of Parliament in a few days.

However I did reply and said "Yes it can do!"

But not really believing that it might actually get worse and anyway this person obviously didn't know how ghastly I was feeling.

But then something happened, a light bulb moment as they say and it wasn't a good moment! I realised that yes, my insomnia can be directly related to something I have committed myself to months ahead.

For instance a lunch party at my house which I happily invited a few friends and their spouses weeks ago. I imagined a summer day, sitting outside, wine, nice food prepared by me (even though I dislike the thought of cooking), bunting etc.

And hey ho what happened? Yes, you guessed it, my anxiety levels rose as the day got nearer, weeks before actually and my sleep got worse as I was forced to think this lunch was actually a reality and not a dream in my head.

I got to the point where I lost count of the number of times I cancelled it, the excuses I made etc. Would I feel worse if I cancelled or better?

In the end I am going through with it. Listen to that language. "Going through with it"! It sounds like such an ordeal!

And also here's the irony. The lunch is tomorrow and of course I have been thinking I MUST sleep the night before the lunch, I must, I must and guess what happened, I slept soundly last night, the one night I didn't care if I didn't sleep. Of course I won't sleep tonight but by the time you read this, it will all be over, but I can guarantee I will still be analysing the whole event in my head still.

Julia
A Moodscope member.


Permalink  |  Blog Home

Comments

Comments are viewable only by members. Register Now to participate in the discussion.

Already have an account? Login to leave a comment.

There are 24 comments so far.

What is Moodscope?

Moodscope members seek to support each other by sharing their experiences through this blog. If you’d like to receive these daily posts by email, just sign up to Moodscope now, completely free of charge.

Moodscope is an innovative way for people to treat their own low mood problems using an engaging online tool. Anyone in the world can accurately assess and track daily mood scores over a period of time. We have proved that the very act of measuring, tracking and sharing mood can actually lift it. Join now.

Blog Archive

Disclaimer

Posts and comments on the Moodscope blog are the personal views of Moodscope members, they are for informational purposes only and do not constitute medical advice. Moodscope makes no representations as to the accuracy or completeness of any information on this blog or found by following any of the links.

Moodscope will not be liable for any errors or omissions in this information nor for the availability of this information. The owner will not be liable for any losses, injuries, or damages from the display or use of this information.

We exist to help people to positively manage their moods. You can contribute by taking the test, sharing your experience on the blog or contributing funds so we can keep it free for all who need it.

Moodscope® is © Moodscope Ltd 2018. Developed from scales which are © 1988 American Psychological Association. Cannot be reproduced without express written permission of APA.